#low fe

Okay this probably isn't even MBTI but maybe it helps other people with no social skills realize some things are just plain toxic.

Sometimes I feel like I've acquired a decent understanding in human relationships and then it just,, poof! It's gone. Like everything I thought was okay or normal or acceptable was actually wrong and I go back to isolation to rethink what happened. It's difficult enough to socialize and try to be good friends with people, so I would appreciate if not all of my efforts went to waste everytime I try to do something nice or showing some affection. So fuck humans honestly, I'll go build a motorcycle with my bare hands while skydiving cause ISTP.

People are so fucking frustrating. Everyone's like "We like love and attention and spending time with friends" and I'm like "sure I can spare some time to be with you guys" and then they're like "nah tbh fuck you we don't even like being with you" and I'm like ??? I mean I know it's just humor but being treated exactly the same way (like a fucking tumor in their lives) every day makes me start doubting how much of it is actually "joking". Honestly I don't even know why I keep trying. I genuinely care about my friends and I kinda hope they care about me too, but being with them makes me want to shoot myself. Yes, guess what? IXTP's have emotions too, and they can be hurt as deeply as anyone, especially coming from the few people we feel we have a connection with. So anyways, I'm gonna reclude myself from society once more until any of my "friends" pulls me out of my den, and the cycle will start again. (NOT HEALTHY OKAY DON'T BE LIKE ME)