#loveintrest

Omg <3

She’s trying to make some new friends, but I mean the way she looks at him... more than friends?

life is full of opportunities. I'm working on being as open as I possibly can be, to let in as many opportunities and experiences as I can, to stand on my own two feet and do things without feeling the need for people to hold my hand through it. Don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty independent being- but many times I find myself longing to have someone next to me through things... things as simple as walking to classes by myself, and going to work or to the store or anywhere by myself. I've always done it, but it's always better when someone is by your side. That being said, sometimes I'll keep myself from pursuing things because I want someone to validate the action for me, to tell me its a good idea, to support me through it. But, I gotta keep moving and shaking and doing. I've been a bit heartbroken the past week or so, almost two weeks. Things don't always work out: I've had so many things work out in the recent past that I forgot that they don't always go the way you expect. You can't be in sync with someone if they don't want to be, even if they say they do, sometimes they change their mind, sometimes they're afraid, sometimes they're just not feeling it, and that's OKAY. My love interest ghosted on me, and I had already thrown caution to the wind and was way too wrapped up. It doesn't really make sense, because we were doing SOOO WELL, super cuddly, we seemed to communicate well, and we both said we wanted to keep seeing eachother when I get back to the States. Not sure what happened on his end, and that's the shitty part, because if he had just explained, I wouldn't have been as deeply hurt/in the dark/feeling stupid. I called to ask for an explanation, but he didn't answer... it's fine. The problem became that because things were a certain way in my mind(though apparently not in real life...) on top of being hurt, I lost trust in my thoughts/opinions/perspective, and that began to leak into other decisions/actions/thoughts of my daily life. I felt so insecure, not trusting my own reflexes, and that was fucked up. I'm getting out of that place though, remembering to trust myself and moving forward, because I'm so much better than that, we all are, and we don't deserve to let ourselves feel otherwise.

Seeing a persons reaction to another asking them out, and they had no clue, when the rest of your gang totally saw it coming.

Ich hab mir immer gewünscht, dass es Oghren als Loveintrest für meine Zwergenfrau gegeben hätte. Weil er einfach so unglaublich cool ist und ich Alistar einfach nicht mit nem Zwerg Daten kann, weil das so ein wenig seltsam ist. [und weil es verdammtnochmal keinen Zwerg als Loveintrest gab. Keinen einzigen. Nur Menschen und Elfen, dass ist doch diskriminierung, oder? Oder?]