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This haunts me

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The desire to be loved is tethered to the human experience, so it surely isn’t surprising that the most sought-after tarot readings are the ones focusing on the subject. Most of us have grown up yearning for our true love story, craving the sense of safety that our parents never gave us, or simply wanting to recreate the perfect image fed to us through romance media. At times, the deep desire to be unconditionally loved can become all-consuming, and we may experience limerence. If you’ve found yourself obsessing over someone to the point where it rules over your emotional state, then you’re familiar with the feeling. Limerence can be experienced towards someone in your life, towards a celebrity or even a fictional character, but it can also be associated with the obsession of your future lover through future spouse tarot readings.
Through my honest love readings, I can empower querents who may be experiencing limerence towards someone in their life, offering them clarity if their deep need for affection and validation clouds their judgment. (Though seeking clarification about someone’s feelings doesn’t inherently mean you’re limerent; limerence is similar to addiction and other compulsive behaviours, it’s more than just a crush.) However, future spouse readings differentiate themselves from traditional love readings since they’re most likely regarding someone you haven’t met yet. In their nature, future spouse readings are about your ideal lover, so this image of a perfect partner creates fertile ground for limerence. Furthermore, being obsessed with finding our soulmate can make us more likely to ignore red flags from future partners. Querents with limerent tendencies caused by mental health disorders shall be careful not to overly indulge in future spouse readings, if not at all, as not to worsen their mental state.
It was important for me to address this subject before I start offering this type of reading myself. Future spouse readings are an entertaining way to highlight what you deserve in a partner and manifest the love of your life, as long as you’re able to interact with them healthily! Love, Matcha ♡
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979: Limerresick
PT: 979: Limerresick /end PT
DEFINITION ⦂⠀A combination of limerent/limerence and (love)sick.
PT: Definition: A combination of limerent/limerence and (love)sick. /end PT
Limerresick is about limerent love that makes you, and/or others feel sick. It's about having (consensual) relationships that would make others call you sick. It's about limerence, need for reciprocation and love in a twisted, loving bundle.
ADDITIONAL ⦂⠀Coined on the 27th of March, 2026. Definition from obsessick (Tumblr link), as a whole coined with love to obsessick! Symbol from freepik (link).
PT: Additional: Coined on the 27th of March, 2026. Definition from obsessick (Tumblr link), as a whole coined with love to obsessick! Symbol from freepik (link). /end PT
TAGGING ⦂⠀@c1rcus-of-silliness @dearestchild @goregender @obsessick @orientation-archive @radiomogai
I’ve wasted so much of my life due to limerence and maladaptive daydreaming. For as long as I can remember I’ve created fantasies and unrealistic scenarios in my head about the life I wish I had and the people I wish I could be with. I’ve always had no self esteem, I’ve always felt alone and out of place, wanting to hide myself away from the world and because of that I’ve lived quite a sheltered life. I’ve “missed out” on so much but I’ve kinda been “okay” to an extent as I’ve always retreated to my fantasy lives so I always have something to focus on- as well as my special interests of course. But it’s actually made me feel so much worse about myself, not to mention the amount of heartbreak I’ve endured…realistically I hate change and I hate new people but I want them both sorta? Urgh…

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Literally wtf is wrong with me, I got accepted into my dream school but I’ve never been more miserable because I”ll never see him again and I feel utterly ridiculous because we talked just a handful of times but he is just so perfect, beautiful, funny, charming.
My eyes will never land on his perfect face again. Maybe in another life. I’m so pathetic is this limerence ? I have no hope just let me die. I feel like a monster too ugly to just look at him. I loathe my face I wish I could rip it off why couldn’t I just be beautiful or pretty or cute even I wish people looked at me and didn’t want to throw up.
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"I don't want precious stones, I never cared about anything you've ever owned. I want flatlands, I want simplicity – I need your arms wrapped hard around me."
— Chelsea Wolfe, Flatlands / Unknown Rooms, 2012
I know all of the names for it:
- limerenece
- maladaptive daydreaming
- attachment wounds
I know how it works:
- dopamine
- obsession
- panic cycles
I knew it was happening:
- every silent cry into the darkness
- every sigh of relief
- every “thank you for coming back for me”
but even still, I wanted it to be real even it wouldn’t ever be love
inspo credit: The Apparition by Sleep Token and my muse, the Ghost