#lifesofar

Lwk been super into Sombr the past few weeks like he's the first artist whom I genuinely enjoy every song he puts out. OH AND HIS NEW ALBUM??? YAHAAH I BARELY KNOW HER, IS SO ME WITH MY CRUSH. Sombr really is brightening my days with his heartbreak ahh songs😭 LIVE LAUGH LOVE OUR 6'7 KING. I think 'Canal Street" might be my fav but I'm also stuck on 'I wish I knew how to quit ya' and 'burner phone'. BUT I GOTTA SAY '12 TO 12' GOT ME ON SOME FUNK DANCE TYPE SHIT

Sunday. 

Start of the week. 

Been really busy lately. She was really distracted & occupied by the thought that she needs to provide for her family. 

She graduated last June, 2019. 

Was hired August, 2019. Hadn’t stopped since. 

Done with the first 6 months of probationary, but she opt to resign because there’s this feeling where she don’t know what the fuck is going on. 

Officially resigned, Feb 14, yup, on Valentines Day, She resigned. Everyone is celebrating love and all, while she’s at her phone composing her resignation letter. 

It’s quite hard. Specially, when the people you work with has been very good to you. But, yes it’ her. She does not know anymore. Nothing’s happening she figured. 

Went to look for another job, & now at her 2nd job. 

Life so far for her is good. Except for the nights where she constantly ask herself what really her purpose is. 

Being a young adult, wanting to be of help to her family. At the same time, doing what she wants was not that easy to juggle at the same time. 

But with all the responsibilities she needs to face, it leaves her no choice but to stay out of her comfort zone & be among with the wild bees in the forest. 

It left you so frustrated & bombarded with thoughts that you wanted to be someone that has significance to people surrounds you. 

You’re afraid to be a burden to them & so you do everything you can to do to be valuable.

Hey, 

I hope you’re doing well. 

I hope you don’t forget that you’re still young & you still have a lot of time to sort things out. 

Stay sane honey. 

sincerely, 

I've never felt this awake and lively before.💕

Going out to my sanctuary. The library ❤

Having exam this week.

And I'm the kind of person that need to work hard to pass.

Me not genius.

Why am I be a doctor again?

Haih.

May every efforts count.

Yesterday there's one nenek touch my chin, and said, 'comel doktor ni', before this she said that me looks like her grand daughter. I just smile. In my heart, I'm touched by that simple gesture because nobody had done that before to me.