#lettingitout

Eccentric, odd, weird, or so I've been told

I've done a lot though I'm just 29 years old

I come off as too much more oft than not

I like questions... like really a lot

I like to get to know people that intrigue me

It's like I have to know what kind of person they may be

I'm really too good at saying goodbye

It's not worth it to me to sit down and cry

I'm left holding the door as people walk out

Sometimes wondering what it was all about

I never give up and I don't quit

I play with danger and usually get bit

I get attached and care too much

Heart gets tied up in feelings and such

I'm still me and if you want to know more

I want to let you guys know that I don't want to worry you guys but, of why I've been not posting drawings is because, Ive demotived to draw as well having artist block. As well there are moments that I never have time because, I've been side tracked to the point that I get tried and don't draw fully on what I have to work on as well as scripts.

As well, I feel awful that I don't talk much over on discord and that I've been feeling like I'm pulling myself from everyone due to my sleep schedule messed up, even when that something happen that I mean, I feel depressed and I feel like I'm letting people down. I'm sorry if I am. I want to do my best to get better and change. I'll do my best to get myself back up

That I am missing out on so much.

And still I am just lying down, everyday,

On my bed,

Listening to music,

Scrolling through Pinterest,

Reading blogs on Tumblr.

Do all this count as doing something?

Or am I just wasting my time?

I should do something productive.

Learn a new language.

Read more informative books.

Exercise.

Prepare for an entrance exam.

Because that's what being productive looks like nowadays.

Being productive will make this feeling go away?

Or is this going to stay? Till my last breath?

I hope not,

I don't want to keep feeling this feeling,

I don't want to force myself to do something,