I never meant to feast — only to follow the crumbs you left behind.”

i can feel my heart beating hard in my chest

i look down into my lap and close my eyes slowly

a small singular tear falls from my right eye then to run down my cheek

i want it to stop

i hold my breath

my heart starts beating harder

but over time it slows down

watching my heart slow down and soften gives me

She may not be perfect…

But I love her imperfections

She makes me feel safe 

Like I am five years old again 

hiding under my blanket

Knowing that it will protect me 

From the monsters hiding around me

She is not perfect

But neither am I

We are two imperfects 

making our hearts combine 

I woke up the day after you were gone

The world felt lighter

Not lighter in a good way;

Lighter of goodness

Lighter of kindness

Lighter of generosity 

Lighter of a smile; 

A smile that could light up a room as soon as it appeared on your face; 

Your unforgettable face that made your smile even more special; 

You were so special

You made any vacation memorable 

Any goal worth continuing towards

Any tradition worth sharing 

I woke up the day after you were gone and the world felt darker

Your laugh was missing 

Your jokes were gone

Your good heart went with you to heaven

Your tips to get through life suddenly became limited and suddenly there was no more saying “I’ll go there tomorrow” I took the time I had you for granted 

I woke up the day after you were gone and my heart was heavy 

With the love I will always have for you 

The memories I have with you like the sleep overs, all night card games and the stories you would tell me on the way to Florida 

The faith you shared filled within me because I knew you are at peace

I woke up the day after you were gone 

The world felt lighter 

But my heart was heavy with love for you. 

You may not be here anymore 

But your legacy continues on forever through the hearts you’ve touched.

I woke up the day after you were gone and the world felt different. Our family felt a quiet emptiness. Longing for you to come back.

I woke up the day after you were gone and looked up at the sky. The world was different. You were gone and the sky was filled with beauty as heaven took you in with open arms. 

She is not ​Perfect But he wants her ​Beauty He tells her “​Your beauty is beneath Your scars” She looks down A ​Tear ​comes rolling down He puts his hand on her cheek He tells her with all of his heart “​I love you” But it’s not good enough She felt not good enough

She says “​please,​ ​Don’t let go” But how could he ​Let go…

When she wasn’t even ​Holding on…

I know I don't post much on Tumblr anymore, but that doesn't mean that my poems aren't being written and performed everywhere and anywhere. On Friday night I competed in a poetry slam in Edinburgh, my home city - the competition was fierce, the writing and performances were top notch and it really could have been anyone's to win... and I only went and won!