#language struggles

I trained by reading and playing video games. I remember getting stuck in Ace attorney Miles Edgeworth because I couldn’t remember what mud meant. And instead of looking It up I just struggled for an hour before looking up the solution online.

I think the word mud is now engraved in my soul, it annoyed me so much when I remembered what it was.

I had a similar struggle with the word spade in one of my assignements last year. Never seen this word before, now I won’t ever forget it.

geniunly.

geniunely.

genninly.

genuinily.

Growing up, personal circumstances forced me to learn multiple languages at a very young age. But instead of feeling like a burden, I discovered how fun it was!! Over time I became really passionate about languages, but my parents never supported it. They wanted me to study “useful” subjects and saw language learning as a waste of time. Since I couldn’t rely on their help, I had to figure out how to self-teach everything on my own, and I refused to give up on my love for languages (even while constantly being told to just drop it.)

When I graduated, I finally decided to take language learning seriously, but since I still live under my parents' roof, I can’t spend money on “useless courses.” One day, while searching for free resources, I realized how frustrating it was—so much content is locked behind paywalls (capitalism hey!) and finding quality free material takes exhausting hours. I said to myself "How I wish there was a site for self teaching languages with a list of free resources!!" That’s when it hit me: why not create the blog I wish I had??

I'm a non-native speaker of English. I'm kind of introverted. I don't talk much with anyone.

Whenever I speak English (with myself of course), my tongue body and my jaws get tired. I thought it was because I was an introvert and didn't talk much to other people. I've been observing this for about a month now. I also talked with myself in my native language, but I didn't get tired. Now when I speak English, my tongue and jaws get tired and I feel like I shouldn't talk much. I also have to pause between complex sentences.