#justndthings

Mother: *laughs at the idea of me being autistic* Me: *could talk for hours about Steven universe* Me: *jumps up and down when excited* Me: *periodically gets overloaded and ends up snapping at everyone and screaming* Me: *sometimes talks too loudly or says things that aren't appropriate* Me: *has difficulty making friends at college* Mother: there's no way you're autistic!

just neurodivergent things: when your teacher tell you you should spend less time on computer so you’ll have prettier handwriting, but you know not spending time on computer won’t change anything because you’ll still be Dyspraxic.

just neurodivergent things: constantly apologizing for forgetting things; feeling vulnerable when you don’t remember something; living with the vulnerability of a shit memory bc you can be easily convinced of something that isn’t true; being unsure if you can truly trust anyone’s information about your past.

just neurodivergent things: when you remember dissociation is a thing and you’re all like ‘trufax it’s really annoying when it happens while I’m driving but actually in general I kinda like dissociating I feel so light and peaceful whenever I don’t feel fully attached to this flesh prison’ so sometimes you try to dissociate on purpose and you wonder if that all makes you a bad person.