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We went to Denny’s for his annual birthday breakfast

This is what I had:

Egg whites scrambled together with fresh spinach and grape tomatoes, plus two turkey bacon strips, an English muffin and seasonal fruit.

I added 🥑 to the muffin which was fantastic because hello avocado

Essentially, I had half a piece of one half of English muffin, maybe 3 spoonfuls of the egg whites, spinach, and grape tomatoes, 2 pieces of turkey sausage, and of course sausage

Egg whites aren’t terrible, but I do miss the yellow yolks (my fav) and I need to watch my good and bad cholesterols

The fruit added a very nice sweetness. If I could go back I’d just have avocado, egg whites, and turkey bacon 🥓 I know what I can handle and sometimes bread is too much for the pouch 👝

This is a good attempt which will full me for my busy day today

I called the internship coordinator and my internship has been approved!

For the longest time I was so angry at God for taking away my dad and not understanding that as humans we are giving free choice free will and we can choose what we want. My dad chose the path he chose and in my life now trying to understand how people choose what they choose and being OK with it and excepting it and I think that’s a part of grief. I didn’t understand that my dad chose alcohol to hide his pain and in doing so by providing a family and being an enabler for my mother who also is an alcoholic he was slowly killing himself.

When he was fired due to alcohol in his system back in 2009 he was already in stage one cirrhosis of the liver... fast forward six almost 7 years later and I think I’m finally turning a corner in my garage. I’ve probably entered every stage of grief and repeated them because it doesn’t end it circular and it will be continually circular until the day I die. What is this have to do with what I’m talking about? It has to do with the fact that I feel like I have been abundantly blessed in the last few days. I wouldn’t say I was on my knees praying and calling out to God to help me but I think he put me where I’m at now to give me a chance to redeem myself in Mayeye resume and work.

I have a huge opportunity to show the employers that I work for what I am capable of. I got out of a terrible job, I’m in a fantastic job where I really don’t want to leave, and I have an internship to look forward to and the next 4 to 6 weeks. I’m just so excited that God is using me as an instrument for whatever his plan is. You asked me a year ago I would’ve said you’re full of shit and that I’m never going to get where I’m going but through patience, perseverance, and Faith I think God is so much bigger than my problems. I think he is calling me back and I know my face is slowly returning. I’m just so thankful for all the opportunities that I’m receiving.

I’m so thankful that I have a family out here even though they aren’t blood they are family who has my best interest at heart and more importantly have people backing me who have the same ideals and beliefs system that I was brought into and I just so and all that it took us moving to where were at now to finally have people to rely on have a family and a support system that’s actually normal functioning instead of the toxicity I was so accustomed to

I just still can’t believe I’m happy I mean really happy. I wake up every morning a little sleepy but I’m not angry anymore. I am happy and I never thought I would get here it’s not medication it’s things are finally working out and it has been a long fucking time coming. I had a deal tragedy, bullshit, and life where I felt like I didn’t have a choice on how to fix it but now I see it clearly

I really can’t believe this is my life and honestly I’m so glad for it. If you are wanting to follow my very personal blog let me know and I will give you the link because from here on out this is going to be a weight-loss center blog a gastric sleeve centered blog not being distracted from my life

My surgeon is quite happy for me with my progress over a year. He is wanting a pouch reset and it’s for a week. I think I’ll start the 9th after holiday because of old habits. I really should start Sunday the 1st, but I want to enjoy the 4th really badly because I still have the fat girl mindset.I hope this pouch reset works because I really want to lose more. Shoot, if I’ve gotten this far I can do it if I put my back mind into it

A year ago I was in a surgery gown getting the gastric sleeve done. I’ve fallen off the wagon; however, I’m not to where I was a year ago. I need to get back on the wagon and to eat better, exercise better, and do better overall.

I still can’t believe it’s been a whole year.