You might as well be a lingering song that stays in my head without knowledge of how it emphatically placed itself in my brain I feel it, small at first, crescendoing aggressively and then passing without any registration of presence, almost as if itโs been orchestrated that way An ebb of flow of emotion that has sunk itself into my soul without permission even though once noticed I made it feel welcome and comforted I canโt shake you no matter how hard my head bangs against the wall, though a headache is a welcome replacement Itโs temporary and before I realize it the pounding in my head reverts back into the annoying melody of the lyrics of our past, tempting me with every beautiful thought I only see the glamorous and never see the downfall or the demise You cloud me that way with your smile and your eyes The confusion was almost a constant and I want that back Itโs far less degrading than the feeling of defeat But isnโt that the only feeling you know? You taught me the way You lack confidence and I am over-confident and thatโs a dangerous cocktail when swallowed straight You require a chaser and one that is stronger than your convictions Iโm sorry but Iโve given up drinking My only wish is for this tune to leave my mind and in years to come Iโll try hard to recall the lyrics of something that was once beautiful but wasnโt important enough to memorize Sometimes thatโs the only way to let go And where you werenโt strong enough to accept the magic or learn the chord changes I guess you put the responsibility on me yet again Itโs a required role and Iโm forced to play And my head still hurts but out of respect I will read the music of the wrong song and somehow manifest the words into something that makes sense to only me Because in truth, my head is entirely too crowded to have lingering songs of words that never mattered in the first place . . . . . . . #jordanwritesabouteverything #slcwriter #slcblogger #utahblogger #utahwriter #spilledink #wordporn #writersofinstagram #writersofig #writerscommunity #amwriting #nanowrimo #amediting #ilovewriting #authorlife #writerscorner #freewrite #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poetsofig
