#ittaqullah

Selalu ke rasa putus harapan?

Duit tak cukup? Rasa diri dihimpit masalah? Rasa diri tak boleh nak kurus, atau berat badan tak ideal? Dosa membebani semacam dihempap gunung namun amal ibarat anak pokok yang jarang disiram? Rasa diri tak kuat untuk melawan nafsu?

Harapan tetap ada, cuma mentaliti anda yang menahan diri untuk kekal di takuk lama. Sekerap mana pun anda berbuat dosa, jangan tinggalkan solat. Jangan berhenti meraih redha Allah. Jangan lama-lama melayan perasaan yang hanya membawa mudarat kepada diri. Berusahalah sebaik-baiknya, niatkan kerana Allah.

“Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad), ‘Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri-diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan maksiat)! Janganlah kalian berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa. Sesungguhnya Dialah yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani.’” (Surah az-Zumar, 39: 53)

When I say to myself I have this fuzzy heart feels. I only understand that yes, it's that fuzzy feeling as a girl. But--mixed signals. Quite confusing, really. Hah.

Dear me, get a grip.

I could only plan & do. However, the execution & process are not under my division.

There is something nearer and rely to that. Indeed, Allah is the best Planner & Allah never fail you. This could only get stronger only when you do your part to have this trust.

The monolouge goes on. For other matters as well.

On the other hand, Alhamdulillah. Whoever prayed to Allah & remembered me as one of their friends in Du'a. I received a good response that I really admit, thought that I'm unable to reach at all in the first place.

That was the pre-thought. It is because I wrecked myself too deep. Allah decided otherwise, with small steps. Fear&terror included.

The right reason if anything fishy, seek refuge to Allah with effort. Before, during and after--continuous.

Hope that this allows me gaining strength in my stand and sheds me from the facade that hinders my priority maintaining my stand.

It is tiring and confusing when you grip*aka depend* to the world whole hearted.

Seems that sorting out piorities has been done a way long time ago.

Only I wasn't focusing that well before. Immersed in lots of mixed signals.

Then again, Alhamdulillah. Never feel tired of saying that. Because raisins. Depends how much you have been 'moving, up&down line/curve etc' from your 'stationary, straight line' life. That is the definition of time travel for me. Wibbly wobbly timey wimey--yes. It has always been like that.

Which translate to "Fear Allah" .

Do your daily activities while bearing that in mind .

That way , you'll behave and get Allah's redha .