Transcendence of Enshrined Form and the Grave of Initiation
Itâs always interesting to me when folks show surprise (or, occasionally, utter shock) at my speaking in terms that point through the transitory nature of religious convention. Recently this arose with a new student, and I subsequently reflected on it in light of my solemn monastic profession. For those who are unfamiliar with that rite in Catholic Christian tradition, it is the final vows that monastics make, often referred to as âlife vowsâ. A universal and prominent component of this rite is a ceremonial death-and-burial, in which the candidate for solemn vows lies in full prostration on the ground, is completely covered with a large black funerary shroud and left there for a portion of the ceremony, while the Liturgy goes on without him or her.
In my own experience of this, one of my monastic students, Br. Aidan, placed a traditional Scottish tartan over my body, symbolizing my ancestral inheritance; then an old Eastern Orthodox funeral shroud printed with an icon of the crucifixion (very similar to what is depicted on the âGreat Schemaâ of some Orthodox monastic Elders), which was gifted to me and our community years ago by a dear former seminary professor; and finally the black funeral shroud. Those first two layers were dearly held things that were in one sense an integral part of my ritual death, but at the same time things that, because they were so dearly held, I knew I also had to die to in that process. The essential symbolism of this act of ritual burial is that the monastic is finally, sacramentally, then and there, once and for all, dying to the phenomenal world and to every other possible path of experience that would otherwise be open to him or her in this lifetime.Â
In my understanding,âand Iâm confident this reflects the understanding of the ancient tradition, tooâthe fully vowed monastic is, if nothing else, one who is fully immersed in the process of dying absolutely to the false construct of âselfâ, as well as to every phenomenal, worldly attachment, in order to enter non-dual union with the Divine Ground. Obviously, undergoing the symbolic sacramental rituals of a rite like Solemn Profession does not magically make it soâ: they donât suddenly bring one to full awakening in non-dual awareness; rather, the outward dimensions of the rite further the depth of the process toward awakening that has been unfolding throughout many years of previous formation, ascetical and contemplative practice. They also âenergeticallyâ close doors that might otherwise have remained open, narrowing oneâs focus even further on the authentic aim of the monastic (and, in this case, the contemplative) life.
When I was ordained a Buddhist monk in 2003, the same essential feeling was impressed upon me: a âdyingâ in pursuit of total freedom by means of renunciationâ: real renunciation, which is not a rejection of anything, but a seeing through all things, and a releasing of oneâs delusional grasping at phenomena. This is a recurring theme of what might be called the âperennial wisdom traditionâ.
Fully entering a life of renunciation means inwardly dying to all conceptsâabout anything and everything, including God, metaphysical dogmas, and all the other elements of cultural-religious convention. Why? Because one has discovered (or must come to discover), in dying to âselfâ and all phenomena, that all such things are contrivances of the human mind, cultural constructs, and they are not God, or even adequate representations of the ineffable Mystery we point to with that term. As St. Eckhart reminds us, we will have to eventually die to God as wellâthat is, to all our concepts about Godâsince we know for certain that nothing we can say about that eternal Mystery is actually true, and no image, idea, belief, or conditioned experience can truly reflect it. (This is also beautifully laid out in St. Dionysiusâs treatise, Mystical Theology.) Hence, the jñÄna yogÄ«s of VedÄntic tradition commit to perpetually cutting through all thoughts and appearances with the sword of discernment, saying with everything: neti, neti: ânot this, not thisâ. Nothing thatâs created or conditioned can be the Mystery weâre seeking.
One who has gone down to the grave and touched the depths of self-surrender has effectively died to everything. Thereâs no holding certain things back or choosing âfavorite petsâ as exceptions to the rule; that would only mean more attachments and thus more distractions from what is ultimate, from what ancient Hermetists sometimes called the One Thing. This invokes for me a motif found frequently in the sayings of the Desert Mothers and Fathers about not keeping back even a little bit of money in oneâs cell as a âsafety netâ. Holding on even to one little thing is not full surrender. (In the present context, the monetary dimension of the motif is metaphorical, of course, pointing to the holding back of certain select attachments, favored ideational constructs, beliefs: whatever we want to continue to imagine can give us âsecurityâ.) That kind of subtle, devious jockeying against the authentic aim of illumination or awakening only reifies the false duality of the state of delusion and needless sufferingâwhat Hindus and Buddhists call samsÄra. Therefore, nothing can be carried over into contemplative life from the life of attachment to phenomena: no contrivance of mind, nothing framed by human thought. And this unequivocally includes even the most âsacredâ thoughts and personally prized religious ideations, which are, at the end of the day, still just made of thoughtâand thought itself isnât made of anything at all.
There should be no surprise, then, when those of us who have thusly diedânot just ceremonially, but in actuality, in the way we live and speakâteach or otherwise express ourselves in language and behavior that reflects the fact of that kenosis. A perennial hope of monasticism in the great religious traditionsâand of many non-monastic schools of mystical training as wellâis that the sharing of the fruits of this emptying would be for others not a source of fear and unwelcome destabilization, but rather an inspiring witness, to help in some small way in the universal project of apokatĂĄstasis, or, in Buddhist terms, bringing all sentient beings to enlightenment, to realization of their own true nature. Without the compassionate intention to create the conditions where that might be so, probably none of us would bother to teach or even remain much in contact with âthe worldâ at all.
Those who say âyesâ to this path of emptyingâwhich is to say, legitimate contemplatives of any varietyâwill have to progressively shed more and more attachments, until finally nothing remains but that which was never created and never dies, cannot be spoken, and cannot be thought.Â
So, my friends, a humble invitation: Donât be shocked by speech or actions from such persons that doesnât conform to the normative, mainline doctrine of the particular religious context(s) in which they happen to presently reside. Moving beyond those constraints is an expected and hoped for stage of the path toward perfect freedom. There is a golden thread of wisdom running through many of the worldâs religious traditions, the essence of which is transcendent of each and all of those traditions. This may be new information for you, and it may threaten some of your dearly held assumptions about realityâand thatâs okay. I would simply encourage you to sit with that, explore it further, and be open, rather than rigidify and resist. And itâs sometimes useful also to recall that, whether we want to acknowledge it or not, all of the things we hold most dear are constantly moving, rapidly changing, conditional, and always provisional. This includes, of course, all the culturally constructed artifices of religion we like to imagine are somehow trans-human, magically pure and unaffected by the conditioned vicissitudes of phenomenal existence.
Once upon a time I had a PÄli saying of the Buddha, rendered in DevanÄgarÄ«, tattooed on my armâwell, technically I still do, but because the lettering had been put on too small (I was young and didnât yet know enough about tattooing), it now lives underneath a Pictish motif. This saying is still very significant for me, and I think of it often. It translates roughly to: âAll conditioned things are impermanent, subject to rise and fall. Once they arise, they must cease. And their stilling is bliss.â I think that just about summarizes the situation perfectly.
Along the way, provisional reality must have its day, of course, and it must be embraced to the extent that it helps us (somewhat paradoxically) to eventually let go of it. In the realm of the relative, we still need to strive for the goal, we still need self-discipline, we have to have some structure or pattern of life, we need some legitimate wisdom teachings to follow, and, above all, we must practice. But we do well, firstly, to adopt those provisional forms that actually help us rather than hinder us by weighing us down with needless, extraneous dogmas or unhelpful thought-forms; and, secondly, whatever we do embrace and utilize, we do well to simultaneously know it as utterly transparent and ephemeral. Not this, not thisâŠ
And if in your travels you happen to hear something that has in it the harmonious notes of wisdom, but challenges your beliefs and assumptions, I encourage you to listenâto listen with the ear of the heart.
Fr. Brendan+ Â (Ngakpa Palden Dorje)