#homotalk

Holy fuck I am 11 away from 200 followers bless u guys I am so unworthy and I love you all

So I know most of my followers prob won't notice this post which is good I guess but lemme tell you guys a brief story I met this guy, we'll call him Azir. Azir is Arabic and works at a cellphone kiosk outside of the mall bookstore I work at. He's a pretty handsome guy, Azir. So he keeps coming into the store where I work and talks to me for like two hours. Okay so Azir talked to meet tonight and got my Snapchat a+ yeah hot guy on sc fuck yeah. I mention this to me mother and she picks up from his name that he's probably Arabic. She had the fucking audacity to tell me to be careful because ISIS will recruit me through Snapchat. Like I get Isis is a threat... But Azir. The guy who works at the cellphone kiosk. The eighteen year old Connecticut native with no accent and almost 0 Arabic background. Isis. The racism killed me guys. It wasn't even low key. And when I didn't agree, she said, "just kidding." Like that made it better. I told her racism isn't funny and she said I would understand when I'm older. The racism guys. Please.

I'm so ready to start HRT like I keep thinking about how much I'd enjoy myself with friends if I was born a guy like this isn't fucking fair I'm so sick of feeling not good enough when all my friends see me how I want to be seen. Its a losing battle and I'm sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself and being unable to stop it. Man, I just want to be happy. I want to be intimate and close with people. I just wanna be a guy, man...

Yo this about to get negative as fuck but here we go Why is it that nowadays so many young adults and teens are ready to die? Why are we all so depressed? Why am I barely 20 but I'm actually feeling excitement when I think about dying? That shouldn't be a thing so early... Idk I'm just really upset about this. Shouldn't society recognize that something isn't okay since a majority of the millennial generation already wants to die? I'm so upset.

It's 11:11 and I wish I wasnt at work haha

When the dysphoria hits you so hard you can't even pee without crying

I’m really in my feelings right now and would love some positive messages?