#histopia

hello, my name is jay, and i refuse to remain silent on my extensive history with this group any longer.

i have documented the abuse and slander i have faced at the hands of this group since november 2019, and have compiled MANY screenshots with an extensive document so that others can see what exactly i’ve been through and how it has impacted me.

jay / @adultdefy’s experiences (with screenshots)

TW: mentions of abuse, pedophilia, suicide, self harm and other unpleasant shit

pego has:

stolen/edited the artwork of other artists WITHOUT their permission (changing joker’s skintone in the artwork they use of him)

spread misinformation and unfounded accusations of racism, pedophilia, and other HEAVY issues about other blogs just because they don’t like them, effectively silencing and driving them off the site and RPC

encouraged hate and defamation of character by manipulating and omitting information in their numerous falsified callouts

sent anon hate to people just for fun and namedropped people with the intent of sending hate their way

excessively STALKED the blogs and socials of people who have them BLOCKED and have already politely asked to be left alone

PLEASE DO NOT message pego, lavenza, or the URLs of ANY of the people involved with this situation with NEGATIVE INTENT. i do not condone ANYONE attacking or being unkind to them. pego and his group’s actions have caused their victims a lot of mental and emotional pain, and sent a LOT of hate their victims' way, and I do not wish that on ANYONE, even them. THE PURPOSE of this post is to share my experiences, SPREAD AWARENESS, and to protect others in the rpc and inform them on exactly what this group of people are capable of. every claim made in this document is backed with SUBSTANTIAL evidence. 

pego just happens to be at the forefront of this particular instance, even though he prefers to do his manipulation behind the scenes and thinks that nobody knows the true extent of his involvement, so this callout is geared mostly toward him. their treatment of others and the way this group essentially claims ownership of the persona/SMT franchise and its characters as a whole through their actions, words, and policing of others is harmful to the community, and has impacted the mental health and emotional health of myself and other victims negatively.

even after all that has happened, i still wish pego and his group the best. i am wholly aware that pego and some of the others engaging in these harmful behaviors are minors, so i want to reiterate the point of not sending hate toward them,  and it is my hope that he and his group can learn from these toxic behaviors and improve as human beings. i urge anyone else with experiences to come forward as well. you all deserve to be heard.

i do not want pego or any of their friends to contact me any further, and i wish to remain blocked by them. you got to share your experiences, so i should be able to share mine. please just stay away from me. i will take legal action if your harassment of me continues.

you deserve to feel safe on your roleplay blogs.

but so do myself and other people. 

  the metaverse has been your home for a long , long time. two years now, two years you’ve been prowling these depths. you know how to tread the floors like the back of your hand. you know how to make shadows sing. you’re not fucking stupid, and you’re not fucking new to this. 

 you’re a hitman  -  an experienced one, with more kills under your belt than people could think. you’re not a newbie. you’re not joker’s junior. you’re his senior, if anything. and this is a partnership. you’re not his fucking dog, and you’re not at his beck and call. not the way he seems to think you are. 

 so when you veer off to sink black mask’s claws into a shadow’s neck, and feel eyes burn into the back of your neck like a brand. and then joker’s striding towards you, fangs dripping venom about how you didn’t  listen to him, and you’re not - you’re not going to sit around and listen to it give you this. you don’t have to take this.

 you’re not his dog. you’re unchained. you can bite back. 

 “ i’m not taking your orders. what was it meant to be about us working together ? you’re not my fucking boss. you’re my partner in this. we’re meant to be fucking working together. ” you’re aware that this is dangerous. but messing with joker always is. 

        you’re not his dog. you’re no ones dog. 

 joker can try to call you to heel as much as he’d like, but you will not go. joker can tell you which shadows to kill and which way to go as much as he wants, but you shall not listen. you are no ones beast but your own. and it is lucky to have you on its side. 

 you’re an impulsive thing as much as you’re a cold and calculating creature. you make plans, and then break them into pieces when your heart howls loud enough. its screaming now, all feral and fury. righteous fury. you shall not be controlled. you shall not be controlled by anyone. let alone him. 

🍑  :    how meticulously does my muse look after their physical appearance?  do they spend a lot of time on their hair,  makeup,  grooming,  and clothing?  is there a particular reason why they do or don’t?  

                     as much as yuuta likes to make himself look good, it’s not to the point where it’s excessive like kento. he likes long baths, and doesn’t worry about getting pruney. his hair is always so fluffy and overall a mess in general, but he still does brush it to keep it’s consistent softness as always.                   makeup is crucial, in bambi project, he would get very self-cautious about his freckles, looking at the other members who would have no flaws or no sort of imperfection. he would cover it up with foundation, and concealer. however, 15-to now, he stopped doing that, only because of ryuuji’s and his fan’s comments about his uniqueness from the others made him a bit more comfortable in his own skin.                 his clothing, however... is a mess. as much as he likes pockets and soft clothes, it would end up looking like a disaster, which is way ryuuji would often go shopping with him... and yet, he doesn’t know why the others are hesitant when it comes to his fashion sense.

🍐  :    how intelligent is my muse overall?  are they smarter than the average person,  or less than?  are they primarily self-taught,  or did they acquire most of their knowledge in school?  are they more street smart or book smart?  

                    yuuta is rather intelligent, remembering languages and other topics that he has heard in the past rather well, and his memory is rather strong and extensive. for example: in Say Hello! to the New World! (Part 1) yuuta has memorized a Chinese statement only once from hearing it on television. however, he struggles with homework and assignments, which prompts mikado to help him in a strict manner (as his father taught him.) but he still is a fast learner, with equations, puzzles, and choreography. as we know, yuuta’s sense of direction is rather poor, as well as his clumsiness... which may cause others to disregard his intelligence, even though it’s higher than normal.

🥝  :    does my muse have any  ‘  unusual  ’  habits, interests,  and  /  or talents?  do they hide it,  or are they proud of it?  

i dont like gay people

 you hate him, you think. you really hate ayano kirigoe. it pisses you off so fucking much. does it live to torment you ? did he decide to date you just to annoy you, every waking second of the day ? what did you do to deserve such a fucking annoying piece of shit of a boyfriend ?  

 (  you think all this, but you can’t help but find something in your chest clench as you splutter. there’s something funny in this, for sure. too bad you don’t have a sense of humour. )

 his teeth are sharp as shit. like  -  a fucking sharks, or a row of tiny knives or something. you spit a mouthful of blood out and snarl at him. “ you,” 

 so maybe you’re being a little overdramatic. but you think you have every right to be. you stick your tongue out at him, crease your brow, and growl angrily. “ you made me bleed, you rancid fuck up. ” you lean back. “ i’m breaking up with you. i can’t fucking do it anymore. ”

                            yeah   ,   he   was   happy   .   there’s   a   grin   that   spread   ‘cross   once   surprised   mien   ,   not   quite   adjusted   to   such   a   feeling   ...   but   it’s   nice   ,   with   a   rose   tinge   accompanied   ,   flourishing   felicity   .       it   grows   ,   that   self  -  satisfaction   ,   he   can   be   selfish   sometimes   too   ,   right   ?    behind   all   of   that   ,   yes   ,   he’s   happy   .   with   a   nod   ,   and   ears   burning   with   a   budding   flush   ,   comes   a   poke   onto   its   cheek   .    “   a  -  ayanooooooo   ,   you’re   gonna   steal   my   heart   like   that   ...   !    aww   ,   c’mon   smile   ,   smile   ~   it’s   okay   to   be   embarrassed   .   “  

Image source: National Heritage Portal of Korea (heritage.go.kr) 📜 What Is Sajikdan? Sajikdan was the state altar where Korea’s kings performed solemn rites to honor the gods of earth (Sa) and grain (Jik). Built in 1395, alongside Jongmyo Shrine, Sajikdan symbolized the state’s Confucian duty: to nurture the land and ensure the people’s prosperity. For an agrarian society like Joseon Korea,…