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Β one Β thing Β i Β have Β learned Β during Β my Β short Β time Β working Β alongside Β crowΒ Β isΒ Β thatΒ Β Β ππ Β πππ Β π Β πππππ .Β Β Β Β Β Β βββΒ Β Β a Β mouth Β he Β seldom Β controls Β .Β Β Β Β Β Β whenever Β his Β lips Β open Β i Β get Β preemptively Β irritated Β . Β Β Β Β i Β want Β to Β just Β tear Β up Β his Β mouth Β so Β he Β canβt Β ever Β speak Β again Β . Β ever Β .Β Β Β Β Β Β the Β fact Β he Β thinks Β he Β can Β speak Β to Β me Β that Β way Β , Β inΒ Β Β myΒ Β Β domain Β .Β Β Β the Β fact Β heβs Β witnessed Β the Β apex Β of Β my Β abilities Β withΒ Β hisΒ Β own Β eyes Β Β Β &. Β Β Β still Β sees Β himself Β as Β comparable Β to Β me Β Β Β Β β¦Β Β Β comparable Β enough Β to Β disobey Β me Β yet Β again Β .
Β π Β πππ Β ππ’ Β πππππ Β πππππ Β π πππ Β π Β πππ Β ππ Β ππ’ Β ππππ π Β Β Β &. Β Β Β πππ Β ππππ Β πππ Β ππππ Β π ππ Β ππππ Β Β βββΒ Β Β in Β other Β words Β , Β i Β earned Β the Β right Β to Β ascend Β from Β β Β ayano Β kirigoe Β β Β .Β Β Β yaldabaoth Β told Β me Β that Β this Β world Β was Β owed Β to Β me Β . Β Β Β Β this Β world Β was Β made Β for Β me Β . Β Β Β Β iβm Β humbled Β when Β iβm Β in Β the Β real Β world Β Β Β &. Β Β Β i Β feel Β the Β lies Β of Β mortality Β creep Β up Β on Β me Β .Β Β Β but Β iβm Β well Β aware Β of Β where Β i Β stand Β .Β Β itβs Β never Β more Β clear Β than Β when Β iβm Β here Β .
i Β donβt Β hear Β anything Β when Β he Β starts Β blabbing Β ;Β Β Β hadnβt Β i Β made Β myself Β clear Β many Β times Β over Β ? Β Β Β Β Β Β Β whatever Β !Β Β Β Β Β Β whatever Β ! Β Β Β Β whatever Β ! Β Β Β Β if Β you Β had Β justΒ Β Β π»πΈπππ΄π½π΄π³ Β ππΎ Β πΌπ΄Β Β Β Β Β then Β we Β wouldnβt Β be Β wasting Β time Β ! Β Β Β Β this Β isnβt Β a Β stroll Β through Β the Β park Β , Β we Β have Β a Β mission Β to Β complete Β . Β Β Β Β stopping Β to Β fight Β every Β little Β thing Β you Β see Β just Β because Β you Β have Β no Β self Β control Β is Β when Β your Β littleΒ Β Β pity Β party Β gets Β in Β the Β way Β of Β my Β wants Β Β Β &.Β Β Β Β my Β needs Β !
so Β when Β his Β saber Β comes Β near Β my Β face Β , Β the Β heat Β incinerating Β my Β split Β ends Β as Β i Β snap Β my Β neck Β backwards Β , Β iβm Β understandablyΒ ππ Β ππ’ Β πππππΒ . Β Β Β Β something Β in Β my Β skull Β pops Β Β Β &. Β Β Β a Β raw Β energy Β ripples Β through Β my Β skeleton Β . Β Β Β Β suddenly Β iβm Β not Β moving Β quite Β so Β human Β .Β Β Β Β Β Β
i Β blink Β Β Β &. Β Β Β my Β knife Β is Β in Β my Β hands Β .Β Β Β βΒ Β Β Β Β Β if Β you Β were Β even Β half Β as Β smart Β as Β i Β am Β itβd Β beΒ Β ππππππβΒ Β Β obvious Β why Β everything Β i Β say Β makes Β the Β most Β senseΒ .Β Β Β β Β i Β can Β feel Β my Β birthright Β running Β through Β me Β . Β Β Β Β joker Β Β Β &. Β Β Β i Β together Β , Β weβll Β put Β him Β in Β his Β place Β .
Β if you were even slightly less wild , youβd be afraid. but fear left you a long time ago. youβre not even a person at this point. youβre your own wild beast , a thing made out of impulse, fury and want. you want - you want -Β you want to kill him ! loki laughs and snaps inside you. you are loki, and loki is you , a twisted thing, all stripes and camoflage and knives for claws, chains snapping, blades descending. youβre all weapons, youβre all violence. youβre going to kill him.
Β ( except youβre not. because you need ayano kirigoe. you need it, and it stings. whatβs your options without it around ? becoming your fatherβs dog again ? these few months have truly put into perspective how tied down you were and youβre cutting those chains, now , but you need ayano to do it. you canβt do it alone and it fucking hurts. you need nothing and no one and you want to be alone but you canβt. but you can - you can teach him not to expect you to be at his fucking beck and call. )Β
Β your blade is sharp as teeth, snarled and singing and wild. you turn the serrated edge towards him, heavy with the knowledge that his personas have healing spells, and that you have medicine in your pockets. you snarl - whoβs talking beast now ? well, youβre hardly human, and neither is ayano, but youβre not his. youβre not his to pull around and make into a little loyal puppy. youβve seen how the rest of his friendsΒ are when theyβre fighting. youβve seen, and you hate it. youβre different. youβre special. youβre better than them, and at least as good as ayano.Β
youβre strong and smart and youβve been doing this for two fucking yearsΒ longer than it has, two years that made you all steel and sinew, all tooth and bone, all sharpened and violent and death personified. youβre relied upon and feared across the crime sphere ! the threat of someone causing mental shutdowns, making people go berserk - you have that, and no one else. you hear people talk about it, afraid, as you walk through your fatherβs building. thatβs you. thatβs you.Β
Β you want to hurt it. so you lash out with the clawed tips of your hands, catch its shoulder, and dig your talons in as best as you can. berserk yourself,Β loki whispers. go on, sweetest, dearest, go on.Β you resist the urge for now. itβs not like that yet. all the same, as you snarl, you swing your blade towards him, with enough force to rend his head from his shoulders if he doesnβt block. you know he will.Β
Β β the most sense ?Β are you fucking out of your mind ? i survived for two years on my own, you little shit. you think that suddenly because youβre here i need to do exactly as you say ? iβll do whatever the fuck i want, and thereβs nothing you can do about it, so go fucking die in a hole, you piece of shit ! β
