#grayes

I loved seeing Meredith and Derek talk about their kids and Amelia on the beach and I loved their beach wedding. But the thing I loved most about the beach scenes was when Meredith asked him if he had been watching over her and had seen her the last one to two years and cringed when she said it. Then Derek grimaced back and said it was hard watching her be lonely. I feel like there are a lot of ways to interpret that scene so here’s my take. I really loved that exchange because at this point Derek has been dead about five years so averaging about one year per season the last one to two years would encompass seasons 15 and 16. During that time Meredith was single, went on blind dates that her friends and CeCe the matchmaker set her up on, and dated DeLuca on and off for several months. 

I loved Derek’s line because Meredith was cringing when she said that because she knew she’d made mistakes and that would have been hard for Derek to watch. I love that he told her it was hard watching her be lonely because you can be lonely if you are alone but you can also be lonely if you are in a relationship that's not right for you that makes you feel alone. Meredith talks about this very thing in one of the earlier seasons. The romantic storylines they’ve given Meredith over the last couple of seasons have not been well received on the whole so I’m glad they addressed that. I was wondering if they would and I know other fans were too and I was definitely one of those people that liked the potential of Meredith starting to date again but didn’t like where that storyline ended up. I felt like Derek and Meredith (and by extension Patrick and Ellen) were echoing what a lot of fans have been feeling the last few years in that scene. I love that they addressed that in a subtle way that made sense. 

Derek doesn’t want Meredith to be lonely and he told her often in life that he didn’t want her to be alone which is why he pushed her to open up to the idea of having kids and having sisters in her life. If something ever happened to him, like what happened to his Dad, he didn’t want her to be alone. He wanted her to be surrounded by love. If you take those comments in conjunction with what Derek says earlier on the beach when he tells Meredith she should hear Hayes out it really felt to me like he was giving her his blessing to be happy with someone who could really love her and be a part of the family. Who could love her and the kids the way they deserve to be loved because he can’t be with them anymore. I think Hayes could be that person and Derek and Cristina clearly think so. As do Amelia, Maggie, and Jo which warms my heart. Meredith deserves someone amazing who loves her for her and who is impressed by her but not intimidated. 

[i counted. its 9 exactly and i’m mzking a post about it]

this poor, poor man

I thought I was done with Grey's (and I mostly am because it's just gone downhill) but apparently a few episodes were enough to get me reinvested in Teddy x Tom and now Meredith x Cormac.