seen from United States
seen from Argentina
seen from China
seen from Brazil
seen from Malaysia
seen from China
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from Georgia
seen from Ukraine
seen from Ukraine
seen from United States
seen from Türkiye
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from India
seen from Singapore
seen from United States
Story of my life;
Being stupid when a single attention is given to me. And I surrendered my flag so easily. I'm not sentimental about its loss, I just feel stupid of how easily I surrendered.
Can I cry? About every stupid decision I made.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
Everytime I watch Frozen 2, everytime I hear songs like "Into the Unknown", "Show yourself" and even "This is Me" from the greatest showman, I feel emotional.
Maybe, deep inside, I just want to find myself and what I am meant for. I am living everyday, fulfilling what is expected of me and living a life that was a standard and norm. But in all of these, I still haven't found who I am, or what I am meant to be, or who I wanna be.
I always asked myself what I want to be, what my end goal was or what I wanna fulfill in life. But everything is just blank. I don't know because I just don't wanna think or tread because I am just echausted. I choose to live life day by day, without thoughts of the future. But deep inside, maybe I long to find that place where I can finally who I'm meant to be.
I always want to choose to not mind people's mistakes.; always mind my own business and to choose kindness even when the world is not.
...But you fight even when you're drowning...
You get up with a struggle. Face the day pretending that you know how to float, that you have a destination in mind.
People surround you, and you pretend to know how to swim.
You smile. You act gracefully. You tackle it with strength and grace.
However when the door closes, you stop the struggle.
You just wanted to be carried by the waves.
But you choose to fight the tide everyday. But how long will it last? How long can you resist?
...However long it will take...
Talking with my brother, made me realize my faults and my errors. Our differences and the way I view my choices and the consequences of all my decisions and actions.
He said whatever is I house in my heart is what will come out. So If I harbor anger deep inside, its what comes out. It is really important what you take in, what you value and what you believe in inside your house-heart.
It's time to let go of my earthly self and start looking at spiritual self.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
So ang ending, nasayang ra ako oras. Nakigtabi rko, very useless.
You can sort of feel and know your importance to people in the way they pay attention whether in texts, chats, video calls or face to face interactions.
That's why most of the time, I am just needed when it's fun and necessary.
I am easy to get along with but never the best. Few people, who had known me for so long, are the people who choose me for me. Not because of necessity but because they like me, imperfections and all.
I am easy to get along but I have a limit to how far you could get close to me. And when they don't try to cross that barrier, I just know you are only a fleeting existence.
I am always looking for that deep connection. That person who'll stay no matter how shallow or deep my thought goes. Because all this time, I am matching my persona to whoever I vibe with. But when they hear how deep you can get, they all but remember you when they just need to.
It hurts. It always hurts. How much you treasure them but deep inside you know that your value is only superficial.
I am always lost and lonely. Always found but never hold onto.
I used to enjoy my solitary company. I was never insecure of being alone. But as my age continues to grow, I fear the feeling of not connecting with anyone. I fear being completely surrounded but deeply alone.
You talk and I actually know. You are easy to read as a person. The emotions and the mood swings, I know that too. You don't get my personality and that's fine. Am I disappointed? A little bit. But it's okay. I know that people won't understand nor like why I said "NO". I will not betray myself anymore just for others to like me.
Talk behind my back if that's what you are good at, if it makes you breath easier. I won't stoop myself at your level. But every stab you do behind my back, is a scar that won't ever be forgotten. I won't do it but others will do it to you what you did me. That's life.
