Thereās so fucking much to process about tonight. I really donāt know what to make of it except that my former best friend is a coked out piece of shit. Within ~20 minutes of arriving at his house tonight, he did two hefty lines of coke, three shots, asked me aboutĀ told me āhe knew about my sexuality,ā asked me to define my sexuality, interrupted my explanation to tell me he had to look it up, mocked my sexuality (yes. the word bestiality was said.).
At this point, thereās actually a blank spot (possibly my three shots, probably shock/anxiety about everything happening already).Ā
The next thing I really remember is sitting out back and smoking a joint while he smoked a cigarette. He managed to just, oh so casually, mention that he was making 6 figures now and then transition that into asking me how much I make. He was quite disappointed by my answer and immediately told me about how he can make a call and get me a job to make $11K in an afternoon thatās totally, definitely fully legal. He just canāt do it because heās in the industry and heād be blacklisted if caught (because yeah, totally legal if you canāt risk being caught?).
It only went down from there. He wanted me there to hang out and catch up, but he spent most of the time avoiding me or talking at me about himself. I know heās terribly misogynistic (I heard tales of his cheating, his thoughts on age of consent (no, I will not elaborate. be thankful.), and more), transphobic (I bet you can guess what slur he used there, but donāt), racist (I heard a hard r), and pretty much everything I thought he was going to become.Ā
Oh, he even managed to tell me why we stopped talking. HeĀ āwrote me offā because the last thing I said to him was that heāsĀ āan arrogant asshole.ā Made sure to show his displeasure with me about it. And then what does he do? He laughs and saysĀ āof course, I wonāt stop being an arrogant asshole.āĀ
This piece of shitĀ ācut me outā of his life because I had the audacity to call him what he so proudly calls himself. These three years have only made him more arrogant and a massive asshole. I take back every tear I shed for that asshole. Iām better off without him.Ā