#endo stuff

Okay I'm going to rephrase a question, I have for endogenic systems.

Frustrated. I've been in an insane about of pain for the last 3 weeks. Horrible cramping, can't put pressure on my stomach at all, when I cramp I get dizzy and double vision, can't keep anything down and I've had a fever since Sunday so 4 days now. Had an ultrasound Tuesday and the doctor told me nothings wrong and if I feel like there's an issue in should just go to the emergency room. Bissssh like what the fuck, shouldn't you want to help me figure out what's wrong? Fuck you. I'm 99% sure it's my ovaries this is what happened in January. They told me nothing was wrong and that I had no cysts and then less than 24hrs later I'm rushed into emergency surgery with a cyst bleeding out.

So I finally had my appointment with the gyno after 3 months for a referral and 2 months for the actual appointment. Anyway, what an appointment. First of all she said she's gonna put me on another birth control on top of my IUD to "balance me out". Then she does a pelvic exam for my pap which obviously fucking hurts. THEN she tells me she was going over records and notes from my old doctor and according to my doctor's notes, in January when I had my ovarian cysts removed because they were bleeding out the doctor noted there was no endometriosis... uh okay so what you're telling me is now I have to go through the whole process again of "what's causing Brittneys pain" for GOD SAKE when is this going to fucking end and I'll be comfortable?! Tonight I'm in so much pain, assuming because of the exam and all the poking around she did but I can't sit down without breaking into hysterics. Moments like these I honestly just want to give the fuck up. Debating on starting a blog on YouTube to talk about things. Idk, I kind of like my identity being somewhat hidden. Someone send me some feel good vibes because I honestly want to drive my ass to the hospital even though I have to be up for work at 5 am.

Broooo.