#emotion work

Buncha dang ol' dork faces.

In the spirit of the recent Equinox, I’ve made a ritual for self-balance.

=Materials=

5 Candles or Crystals, all of the same color (if candles, preferably white)

1 Black Candle

1 Orange or White Candle

2 Candle Holders

2 Crystals, preferably Titanium Quartz or Clear Quartz

Chalk

A large area with ground suitable for drawing on

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=Instructions=

Preferably perform this at any time of twilight. Pray to any entities you like before performing.

1. Cleanse everything you’re going to use. Cleanse the area itself, if you feel like you need to. 

2. Create your protection circle. Make it large enough to comfortably stand in., and make it in the shape of a five-point star.

3. Draw a pentagram connecting the candles using your chalk. If you have enough clear crystals, preferably selenite, lay those down in the shape of a pentagram, instead. Make sure the points of the protection circle form the points of the star!

4. Imbue your orange candle with positive emotions and your black candle with negative. Do this however you feel best, but do not be afraid of any emotions that surface. Accept them, and charge the candle with them.

5. Lift your orange and black candles. Put one in each hand and incant,

“I am love;

I am hate.

I am war;

I am peace.

There is only me;

this is my twilight,

this is my balance.”

6. Place your colored candles in a candle holder, one on either side of you, and light both.

Light the orange and say,

“I accept what I love, for I am you.”

Light the black and say,

“I accept what I hate, for I am you.”

7. Hold your two crystals, one in each hand, and focus inward. Draw the energy from each into its nearest crystal, and thence into yourself. Bathe in the emotions, let them flow through you, let them swirl into you and settle as only yourself, fully. As you finish, conclude by saying,

“I am myself;

I am complete;

I am balance.

May it be so.”

8. Do not ‘ground’ yourself; just put out everything, clean up your supplies, and re-cleanse it all.

There is one psychological concept we learned together while studying this week's Critical Thinking class: "emotion work." The word, which means "all efforts to manage one's emotions or maintain a relationship," is a way to solve problems when conflicts arise, talking about the ability to psychologically manage one's emotions and conditions without impulsiveness. And I believe that my growth mindset can be carried out through these personal emotional tasks.

The psychological pressure I usually experienced while conducting STUDIO class assignments was quite large. The reason is that I am not as good at scissors as others, so if I had to proceed with cutting the paper or if I had to proceed with the task manually without working digitally, it would take too long compared to others, and I couldn't finish it all at a fixed time, so I had to continue at home or work again from scratch. I think critical classes have helped me a lot in solving the difficulties that come from the pressing emotions I had to deal with at this time.

In addition to the critical thinking we did this week, all of this week's CTS topics provided a good complementary guide to overcoming difficulties in carrying out assignments and participating in classes. But to pick one thing, I'd like to mention Digital Media _documentation of art, which I did in week 9. I usually lacked the habit of collecting and organizing information or data well. So I had a habit of losing data because I couldn't organize it right away. However, through the "Digital Media_documentation of art," I made a good habit of researching, organizing, and filing data that I collected for a task. In particular, when researching artists, it helped me a lot in my growth as a personal designer by collecting, researching, and organizing complex and diverse information at once.

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