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Gift of the Night Fury. I think this is the PERFECT way to portray Hiccstrid after the first movie. they're so casual and yes if you consider them already a thing here which I DO, it feels so mature and relaxed like they already do in httyd2. Astrid is just so good here and Hiccup as well, I love how they casually talk about their problems and Astrid supports him either way. We got the Yaknog scene and the ending scene. So good. NO need for more just casual couple stuff.

HTTYD 2: Overall just perfect. Same as GOTNF cause if you take into account them being a couple already for 5 years, every single one of their interactions is golden. Their first scene is cemented in my brain til I die cause at the time it was so GOOD to see such a good official couple onscreen to have such chemistry and being relaxed and have happened for YEARS and you FEEL THAT. Astrid support is amazing, their dialogue their jokes, how they're both in on the plan and sadly they do get separated for most of the movie but the ending is amazing as well. THAT KISS? Holy...

RTTE Season 2: My fave season cause Astrid has the most focus. Definitely Astrid's Team and Night of the Hunters are the Highlights, I love Hiccup just KNOWING her and confronting her about her insecurities, super cool and mature, him being worried about her is amazing, I love Astrid having struggles with keeping something from Hiccup because of Heather (oh heather... we'll talk another day about you), which I DO find compelling cause it's an interesting scenario. Maces and Talons I really like them here specifically.

RTTE Season 4: Episodes ShellShocked part 1 specifically: I ADORE them being a couple, cause while I don't like exactly HOW it happened, I was just glad it finalyl happened and them keeping it a secret (understandable) while there's so much at stake makes sense to me and it makes it feel a lil more organic so i LOVE their interactions.

RTTE Season 3: I like them here overall again, nothing special except for "Buffalord Soldier" which if you ignore (again) Astrid being put in danger to be rescued AGAIN is tiring BUT I do ADORE how Hiccup cares for her and how worried he was, how he negotiated with Viggo for the medicine, THE LINE "I CAN'T IMAGINE A WORLD WITHOUT YOU IN IT" HIT SO HARD FOR ME MAN... AND ASTRID SAYING THAT TOO DAMN... Amazing stuff all over I DO ADORE that episode. Also "You would've done the same for me" cause they KNOW each other so well and it's established how much they care about each other. This is why I love these types of moments. Also love them in "Grim Retreat", how she explains to Hiccup how the gang feels. I like them in "StrykeOut" as well and "Family on Edge", I love how Astrid and Hiccup both are the ones that have meetings about plans and stuff and how she confronts him about stuff when others don't. Love that.

ROB/DOB MOST OF IT. Hiccstrid again are not treated as a couple expect for that one kiss that no one talks about (which upset me a bit? cause what was THAT about) But as a WHOLE I really like it, I like the scenes where they're alone and they have actual conversations about their situations and you see WHY they're friends and why they work as friends. Also they do tease each other a LOT, and they seem very mature about everything. They get A LOT of moments alone where Astrid is just listening to Hiccup while he rants and I find that VERY compelling, it shows them as actual confidants with everything and friends which is the foundation for any relationship. Even if they're not portrayed as a couple (like in rtte again) them acting the way they do WOULD NOT CHANGE ANYTHING. That's why when ROB and DOB was airing ppl still assumed they WERE a couple already (until rtte ruined it by the "just friends" episode). Highlight Episodes are definitely "Fright of Passage", "Live and Let Fly", "How to Start a Dragon Academy", "Animal House", "How To Pick Your Dragon", "Portrait of Hiccup as a Buff Man", "Breakneck Bog", "Appetite for Destruction". Overall on rewatch ROB/DOB is a breath of fresh air for Hiccstrid rn for me since all I see rn ir RTTE hiccstrid which I have a lot of gripes with, so seeing them just be "dramaless" and cool with each other and have again A LOT of moments alone where they act like an actual couple is great. (i mostly ignore that they're not official yet and treat them as such cause they work)

RTTE Season 4: Episodes "ShellShocked" part 2. Now I do love their moments BUT ALSO LIKE I DONT LIKE ASTRID BEING TAKEN HOSTAGE OK?! I do love Hiccup giving the Dragon Eye for her but the WAY it happened? like How did Astrid get captured by Viggo in the first place?! idk this hostage situation thing was kinda tiring at that point but oh well I liked how Hiccup says "just promise me you will never stop telling me what you're thinking" my man.... greenest flag ever.

RTTE Season 4. I like most of it tho there isnt' much other than the last 3 episodes so i will talk about "Blindsided" here. I ADORE this episode because their interactions ARE SO GOOD. BUT and this is a BIG BUT, I DONT LIKE that the writers made Hiccstrid official THIS WAY. I don't like it. So I have mixed feelings about this episode... I LOVE their interactions as a WHOLE, like Astrid kicking butt while blind and Hiccup being worried about her but ultimately comforting her on her insecurities is really REALLY good to see. And even tho I still love their conversation at the end with the kiss, it's all mixed. But I can look past it ngl. I used to HATE this episode but over the years, I learned to let it go. Cause Hiccstrid in the shows as a whole and how it happened is something I've made my peace by now, I just don't care anymore so I enjoy it now. I love that kiss and I love them being a couple. Also I liked them in "Midnight Scrum" even tho Hiccup was an idiot for not lightening to her, she KNOWS him and the line "sometimes his pride is bigger than his brain" is SO TRUE, so love that she said it. (talked about it here and here)

Dawn of Dragon Racers: Like ROB, I LOVE their interactions here, Astrid lowkey KNOWING what the people want and trying to encourage Hiccup to listen to them while he's leader. And teasing him too I love them together here (AGAIN you can see them as a couple already here and nothing would change) "Really Astrid? Where's the love for the acting chief?" I love Hiccup in this short so much, like he really is the face of change and Berk backing him up cause they also WANT that change is so CUTE to see. Astrid being hurt for the final race was lowkey a bummer :///// WHY DO THEY KEEP DOING THIS TO HER!

RTTE Season 1: I love their moments (not taking into acc that the writers decided to reset hiccstrid and make them just friends of course) I think the moments that make me love hiccstrid is just that they're actually both competent leaders and they're both like the parents of the groups. I love them planning stuff together and just talking. Like I can take all these moments including the ones in seasons 3-4 and imagine them already being a couple cause it would LITERALLY change nothing. I have plenty to say about RTTE hiccstrid but what I do ADORE MOST OF IT from them is their allyship and compromise in taking action towards a goal which is fight the hunters and save dragons and their ppl. Like the two of them acting as the leaders and parents of the gang for most of the shows is what I enjoy the most. They're amazing friends at that too. Highlight Episodes: "Eye of the Beholder 1,2", "Imperfect Harmony", "The Next Big Sting"

RTTE Season 5: Ok so now that they're finally a couple we see them interact just the same as they already have for years now LMFAOOOO, except for a kiss here and there which I DO APPRECIATE (See? this is all we wanted! keep them the same and just sneak a casual kiss to indicate they're in a stable relationship i dont see what was the problem....) anyways. So in S5 upon rewatch I do appreciate some moments they have. I DO LOVE "Sandbusted" even tho it makes no sense they act like they're BETROTHED?! like HUH?!?!? no... like? idk it feels super rushed lollll but ok I still love that episode and their last dialogue together it was very cute. Overall this season they had cute moments, again nothing NEW since they act the same, confidants, friends like they SHOULD be and leaders.

RTTE Season 6. Ok the Hiccstrid moments I DIDN'T hate were is most episodes cause they were just there like "Guardians of Vaneheim", "Family Matters" I like most moments ngl, I liked them in "Darkest Night" (even tho Astrid's scenario was weird lol) and I liked them a lot in "King of Dragons 1,2" ALTHO THAT KISS AT THE WEDDING AT THE END WAS SO WEIRD AND CRINGE LMFAO like WHY ARE YOU 2 KISSING IN FRONT OF THE BRIDE AND GROOM BEFORE THEM AND ON PLAIN SIGHT?! LIKE HOLY SHIT WHY I DONT GET IT LMFAOOOOOOO cringe but ok it was a hot kiss I guess?? PFF

Legend of Boneknapper: UNDERRATED IMO. I love their lil gestures and casual glances, feels like they're already in sink as well, it goes to show how comfortable they've become.

ROB: Ep 10-11 Heather Report: I know ppl give this episodes a lot of shit cause they think a love triangle was happening but upon rewatch? there really was NO love triangle. Heather was NEVER interested in Hiccup and Hiccup was NEVER interested in Heather romantically, he just pitied her for her sob story, in fact, Astrid may have been upset Hiccup stood her up but I don't think she was actually jealous of Heather, She was sus at the very first moment and I don't think it had to do with her romantic feelings towards Hiccup. And afterwards, Astrid had EVERY single right to be sus and mad at Hiccup and yes it had nothing to do with jealousy, is because Heather gave her plenty of reasons to be mad, and Hiccup not listening was a dick move on HIS part. I think these episodes were an ATTEMPT from the writers to make Hiccstrid butt heads for once but I dont think they did a very good job at portraying a love triangle if they wanted to, cause again Heather had completely other things on her mind. Overall... not the BEST way to make Hiccstrid fight? but when u see each side you see how it happened. I'm just a lil upset that it was done this way, cause overall it just makes HICCUP look bad pfff

HTTYD3: They have a lot of highs and A LOT OF LOWS, Tho I don't technically blame it on their relationship but the writing of this movie as a whole. Like Hiccstrid as a couple is SUPER FINE. I ADORE the scene at the cliff SO SO MUCH, AMAZING callback, definitely a highlight. That scene in the ship with the explosion? Highest sexual tension ever like wow, THE WEDDING? 10/10. Them as adults in the epilogue?! I was on cloud 9. BUT ASTRID had so many lines that just makes me HATE HATE how it made their relationship look, actually EVERYONE'S relationship with Hiccup.... I HATE the "you gave him his freedom Hiccup what did you expect" and "wow look at you embracing change" LIKE HUH?!??! WHO ARE YOU ASTRID??!?! TF. So yeah this movie on the Hiccstrid side of things is mostly fine, but the whole movie's writing as w hole bring is down so I can like their moments individually while still hating the overall feeling of the movie.

Homecoming: HICCSTRID BEING PARENTS IS A TIER TO ME OK?! LISTEN!! I ADORE THEM AS PARENTS IS SOMETHING I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR LIKE 9 YEARS SINCE 2010. BUTTTTT AND THIS IS ALSO A HUGE BUT. I HATE HATE HATE How they ALL treated Hiccup..... like I explained in another post but god... I DO NOT like how they all just ignored his complaints about telling THE RIGHT AND CORRECT ACCURATE STORY HELLO!?!? Seems like he was just a pushover and not a chief..... a loser and a delusional old man idk it was so hard to watch... sad that we got to see them being parents tainted by that dumbass story in this short... but overall seeing them as parents do trump a lot. I can ignore it just to see them interact with their kids and being THE MARRIED COUPLE they always were. Amazing stuff. Chief and Chieftess fr I love them. Also they're both 30?! pfff they both HOT AF ok?!

Book of dragons: Not much to say here but I DO ADORE Astrid being there with Hiccup learning about dragons too as well cause she also ya know... READ the Book of Dragons, like she's also a nerd believe me. So seeing them have things in common is great.

ROB: Ep12 "Thawfest". Ah yes.. the reward kiss that was never brought up again. So Hiccstrid in ROB and DOB in general are FINE cause at least Astrid is far more active and less damsel in distress than in RTTE but the writers still didn't know how to handle them in an actual relationship and back to friends with benefits (?) they go...

Comics: I haven't read them all but I saw some pages of some specially after httyd2 and I love them. They're already married even if it's not official yet. I do love them.

RTTE Season 5 Episodes 7,8,9: Oh my... OK this is where I got MAD. Hiccstrid don't NEED pointless drama and this one made me mad cause they didn't even do ANYTHING WRONG and everyone started gaslighting them into thinking they were OBSESSED and Pushing everyone away when it was NEVER SHOWN that, they all got mad for no reason and then they guilt-tripped them for it, which then cause a drift? like it was also not their fault to leave to go fetch the thing Johan told Hiccup to find and the Edge getting attacked. And then LATER Hiccup just ignores AStrid and goes on his own... idk man I just don't like how they forcefully made them separate for no reason other than Hiccup's ego. And ONCE again, Astrid has no agency on the matter and is forced to just deal with it but we don't even see what SHE thinks about it... idk this happens A LOT in later seasons.

RTTE Season 6: "Mi Amore Wing". Yes this is the WORST HICCSTRID EVER IN THE ENTIRE FRANCHISE. I WILL SAY IT RIGHT HERE AND NOW. This is Hiccstrid at its WORST. I think this is exactly what almost made me hate Rtte Hiccstrid as a whole cause WHAT THE HELL were the writers thinking... and I hate that ppl bring it up as a poor excuse of a drama plot to make Hiccstrid fight over something cause "couples fight right?! it's only natural" NO SHUT UP. Hiccstrid is NOT that type of couple. They are actually VERY mature and secure in their relationship to bring THIS bullshit this late in the game. It's just so dumb. Astrid WOULD NEVER act this way or even care about something so mundane and even worse, she would NEVER do the silent treatment like that's just so toxic and HICCUP, as usual these things make hiccup look like the asshole because YES! he WOULD NOTICE!!!! he's a detailist ffs, of course he would. Making hiccup into this oblivious asshole just for the sake of cheap het drama is just so LOW.... god this is an example of how heteronormativity ruins couples and stories. They took a perfectly good couple and made them act so stupid for one (1) episode and for what? and I hate that ppl use this episode to prove how cute they are like NO?! they're not. They're legit so OOC, BOTH of them. And that kiss at the end was super cheesy and cringe sorry.... It just doesn't feel like hiccstrid AT ALL.

You had merged into Thorin’s company when they stumbled upon Beorn the skin-changer. You just happened to find Beorn a few weeks earlier as a traveling healer. After you helped with the injuries they had, it was decided by Gandalf that you would continue with them. You spent a good three months with Thorin and the company and had come to appreciate them all, and them you. 

You loved watching Ori knit next to the fire. He was even sweet enough to teach you how to mend your own clothes and made you a pair of knit gloves that you carry with you at all times.

Bofur would tell the funniest stories when you and Bombur prepared dinner with him. You could always tell it was a really good story whenever Bifur would laugh and slap your back, saying words that you could understand.

Oin shared his healing techniques with you, and you to him. It was a wonderful learning experience that would come in handy later on. He also gifted you a small satchel to carry herbs in. 

Gloin always has something to say about his beloved wife and son. You would always hear groans from the other members, but you loved listening to him rant and rave about his family. It was so cute to hear how much he loved them.

Thorin and Dwalin were both tough nuts to crack. Thorin seemed to welcome you in once you spat in the face of Thranduil in Mirkwood. You ended up buttering up Dwalin on accident. You had some cookies from another passing traveler that you helped and were eating a few when you noticed him eyeing down the small bag you were holding. You tied the top of the bag and tossed it to him. He seemed frazzled at first but grunted in appreciation.

Nori was an annoyance, but you still enjoyed him. You would always find him looking over something of yours that had miraculously ‘fallen’ out of your bag. He did try teaching you how to pick-pocket, but you weren’t very good at it.

You loved Dori and Balin. They were the ones that you would always go to for advice. They were the grandparents you never had. Dori especially seemed very mothering towards you, going as far as making sure you always were close enough to the fire.

Kili was a menace when it came to his teasing. There wasn’t a day that went by without some sort of joke that would make your cheeks heat up. You were glad you could take some of the attention from Bilbo though.

You loved going to Bilbo when you needed a civilized and calm chat. You both spoke of simpler times and gardens.

Fili… Oh, Fili was something special. Despite being like his brother, there was something else about him that just completed you. When he stepped in front of you to defend you from a spider, your heart fluttered. When he waded back into the water to pull you from your barrel, your stomach did flip-flops. When he grabbed your hand for comfort when his brother was sick, you nearly exploded. 

When you reached Erebor, you ended up spending even more time with him as you both were on the same schedule looking for the Arkenstone. You hated to admit it, but you’d come to fall for the blonde dwarf, and spending every waking moment with him didn’t help. You only ever confessed your crush to Bilbo when he caught you gawking at Fili who just bathed in a stream. You never dared to tell Fili, too scared to ruin what you had now.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-

After the battle of the five armies, the line of Durin returned to you tremendously wounded. We’re talking twenty minutes from death kind of injuries.

You and Oin were working around the clock trying to repair the damage that was dealt to your newfound family. Your weak heart allowed tears to fall from your eyes as you worked on Thorin, worried that they all wouldn’t make it. A few hours later you managed to stop the bleeding and suture any lacerations or mutilations.

By the twenty-sixth hour, your mind was worn out as you sat on a table mixing a salve as Oin mixed up the decoction. It was silent in the room, the only sounds being the small clinks of glass and breathing.

You jumped when you heard the door squeak open, the head of Dori popped in and you nodded at him, continuing with your work. He took this as an okay to come in, his eyes looked over the three men laying on the beds.

“How are they?” He asked, not making eye contact.

You had a grim smile on your face as you mustered up some words, “Mostly stable.” 

You watched out of the corner of your eye as Oin’s head lightly drop before lifting again, You slid off the table and placed down your finished salve. You walked to Oin and plucked the decoction out of his hands.

“I’m not done with that!” He grumbled, reaching up for it. You moved it out of reach and walked to Dori, placing your empty hand on his shoulder.

“Do me a favor and get him to bed.” You pleaded, eyes looking between his. 

“I don’t need to sleep. There’s much work to do!” Oin tried to argue but you just shook your head.

“It’s no help to either of us if you faint from exhaustion,” You gave him a sympathetic look. “I can handle it, don’t worry.” He grumbled a bit but didn’t fight as Nori led him out of the room.

You spent hours delicately washing the blood off of the dwarves' bodies and coating their wounds in the salve. By the time you were done and pouring small amounts of the decoction in their mouths, you were half asleep. 

Your head lightly raised when a knock sounded on the door. You hummed in response as you began to gather all of the bloody tools that needed to be cleaned. The door creaked open and a grunt met your ears. You peeked over your shoulder to look at the dwarf who entered, Dwalin and it looked like Bofur was right behind him.

There was a low whistle from Bofur before he spoke, “Lass, I mean this in the nicest way,” He started. “You look terrible.”

You scoffed as you dropped the metal tools into a large basin. “I’m well aware, thank you.” You slowly blinked before turning on the water, a soft sigh leaving your lips as the cold slightly shocked you awake. Wiping your hands off on a towel, you pushed the herbs to the side now.

“Are they-” Dwalin stopped mid-sentence, seeing a sorrowful look in his eyes. You’re sure he must be in as much pain as yourself, seeing his best friend laying there.

You moved to him placing a tired hand on his shoulder in reassurance. “All alive. I’ve been keeping a keen eye on them.” You lazily smiled. You walked over to Fili’s bedside, a downcast look as you brushed the hair off his face. You closed your eyes for a moment, taking in a deep breath.

“When’s the last time you’ve slept?” Bofur asked. You thought for a moment and shrugged as you stood there. 

“Not that long ago. I’m alright.” You brushed him off, opening your eyes and continuing to work on organizing the herbs back to where they were originally.

You weren’t aware of the looks that Bofur and Dwalin shared behind your back but it wasn’t long before Dwalin stepped forward and grabbed your hips, heaving you over his shoulder. A gasp slipped out of your mouth. You went to fight him, but limply hanging there only made you realize how tired you were.

“Sleep well dove!” Bofur’s voice called to your and Dwalin’s retreating form.

-.-.-.-.-.-.- 2 Weeks Later -.-.-.-.-.-.-

You and Oin had been keeping Thorin, Fili, and Kili under constant supervision. This meant 12 hours of your awake hours you spent in that room treating them.

Today, you were walking towards the room. You had a heap of books you planned to read during your downtime, but you froze in place when you could hear a voice inside the door, then a familiar laugh.

You rushed forward, books clattering to the floor, slamming the door open and looking towards where Kili lay. He was awake!

“Oh, Kili!” You cried out, running to the side of his bed and dropping to your knees. You grabbed onto his hand, excited to see one of your friends awake.

“Did you think I would die that easy?” He teased in a weak voice. You laughed and shook your head.

“I’m so grateful for that.”

 -.-.-.-.-.-.- 1 Month Later -.-.-.-.-.-.-

You had been talking to Oin in the corner about making a balm for Kili to use on his own when you heard a low groan. You both turned towards Kili, expecting him to be whining about his pain again but he was staring at his uncle. You turned your gaze upon Thorin, watching his face scrunch up before his hand twitched. You quickly moved forward, bending over him and placing a hand on his shoulder.

“Thorin? Thorin can you hear me?” You asked before turning to Oin, “Can you hand me the macerate-” You were cut off by a painful hand around your arm, Thorin reeled forward screaming out a war cry. 

Oin rushed to help you hold him down and attempted to calm him, but he acted as though he was still in the middle of battle. You received a good punch to the face, stumbling back before rushing forward again and holding him down with more ferocity. If it wasn’t for Kili, who stumbled into the hall and called out at the passing Dwalin, you’re sure you would have received much worse.

When Thorin finally calmed down and came to, he looked at you with a horrified expression.

“My deepest apologies, (Y/N). I thought you-” You smiled and placed a hand on his.

“Thorin, it’s alright. You’ve been through much more than I.” You reassured him with a small pat on his hand. “I’m just glad we all have you back, King under the mountain.”

-.-.-.-.-.-.- 2 Months Later -.-.-.-.-.-.-

Kili and Thorin were both mostly on their own at this point, only coming in every now and then for a tincture to help their pain. 

But Fili… Fili was still sound asleep.

Every day you would talk to him as he lay in that bed. While you talked you would do things like clean him up, change his bandages, and even mix up some medicine just to prepare for the worst.

Today was draining. New dwarves were flooding into Erebor and in your free time, you were helping the others by showing the new Darrow their way around the mountain. Oin had a rough day himself and asked if you would be okay to cover his shift. You knew that nothing ever happened so you accepted.

You had just packaged up a few salves when a yawn hit you. You could probably get away with a small rest even though you knew you weren't supposed to. Your eyes glanced at the empty beds before they slowly drifted to Fili. Slowly shuffling to his bedside, you examined his features. He looked so comfortable and warm. You crawled up next to him, before carefully laying down. You lightly rested your head on his chest, ear pressing against the fabric covering his torso.

“Your heartbeat has always been so calming to me, Fee.” You hummed to yourself, letting your arm trace over a scar on his arm. 

“I wish I told you how I felt before this happened. Hell, I wish I could tell you now.” You sighed, shutting your eyes and focusing on his heartbeat. 

“No one is around to hear, I don’t see any harm…” You opened your eyes, moving up the bed towards his face. “I love you, Fili. From the moment I laid eyes on you I knew I did.” You placed a light kiss on his cheek.

“I would do anything just to see your smile again, to hear your laugh, to see your eyes sparkle in the sun.” You whispered before resting your head down on his chest again, slowly giving into the darkness of sleep.

You groggily blinked as you woke yourself up, unfurling yourself from Fili’s side. You grabbed onto Fili’s arm which now wrapped around your waist. You must have moved it while you rested.

“Oh Fili, your skin is so soft..” You murmured, bringing his hand up and placing a kiss on his palm.

You brought your head to rest back on his chest, “If you were awake, I would tell you how much I adored you…” you sighed. “How much I miss you…”

A few minutes passed as you laid on him, there was still so much you had to do before Oin came in, “I should probably stop talking and get to work.” 

“Please keep talking, I love the sound of your voice.” A throaty voice crackled in your ear.

You let out a shrill scream as you flailed and fell off the bed with a slap against the cold stone ground. You stared up as you could hear the shifting of him on the bed.

“Fili?” You whispered as you shakily stood off the ground, his blue eyes were cracked weakly but a bright smile still played on his lips.

“Hello sweetling.” He cooed, arm feebly reaching out for you. Had it not been for your excitement of seeing him awake, you would have thought more about what he called you.

You swiftly crawled onto the bed next to him, sitting on your knees and cupping his cheeks. “Oh, Fili…” You whimpered, examining over him.”I didn’t think you were going to wake up…” 

He used his hand against your back to gently direct you down until you were spooned to his side. “For a while, I dreamt of nothing. But then, it was you.” He sucked in a small breath, his hand coming down to rest on your cheek. “When I was about to give up, you came forward, urging me to return to you.”

You pressed into his hand but furrowed your eyebrows in confusion, “What are you saying?” 

“I love you, (Y/N). I should have told you before I left you on the ramparts.” He whispered, “The last few days I listened to your words of adoration, and I knew you felt the same about me.” He confessed

Your breath hitched in your throat. He had heard you. He had heard it all! Your cheeks heated up as you opened your mouth to find something to say, but all that came out was a pathetic squeak.

“I want to court you.” Fili announced confidently, his smile unfaltering on his stunning face.

“Fili…” You muttered in shock, his thumb brushed away a tear that escaped your eyes.

“It doesn't have to be now,” His voice lowered to a desire-filled whisper. “But I cannot possibly stand another second knowing you are not mine.” 

You shifted where you lay, choosing to instead move and hover over him. He breathed deeply as you looked over him, his free hand coming up to rest on your waist. Your stomach did backflips as you leaned down, gingerly just brushing your lips together. He quickly leaned up, locking your lips together. His lips were feathery as you both familiarized with each other. He tasted of the tincture you’d last given him, and something else that was just so uniquely him. 

His hand gripped your side harder, pulling you down until you were rested on top of him. Your cheeks burned as you reached up to brush a hand against his bearded chin. You reluctantly pulled your lips apart, Fili leaned up to try and follow but you placed a hand on his chest to keep him there.