#dumb one

Neal: what does that pretty mouth of yours do?

Zon's thoughts: *are not subbed*

A top 5 list of characters from television shows who are unintelligent, but it doesn't seem to fit their personality.

1: Drake Parker (Drake & Josh)

2: Kelly Bundy (Married... with Children)

3: Rose Nylund (The Golden Girls)

4: London Tipton (The Suite Life)

5: Chelsea Daniels (That's So Raven)

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Dear dumber,

It has been 6 years and I’m still not quite sure how to start this date’s note. Do I start with a wish? Or a joke? Or something extremely cheesy like the way I know you like? Should I have this started with the word ‘love’ instead? I don’t know. I truly don’t. Actually, I’m probably going to ramble because I don’t know what to write.

You know I love you, you know I care about you, you know I want to make myself the best friend you can ever have; I told, I showed, I gave. I can never emphasized enough how much of an impact your presence has been in these past years, how different. This is going to sound like it’s all about me but I want to confess that I am as I am right now because of you.

6 years back, and pretty much all the year before that, I was a suck up. I was a pretentious bitch. I would do anything just to have friends. I treated them dekat kantin, I bought them things at the bookshop, bought presents, I gave money on a daily basis without them asking, I apologized even when it wasn’t my fault. I bribed them, I bought my friends who I knew were using me. Do you know I was once called ‘money maker’, because I always had money to give? I let them, you see, I let them took advantage of my desperation. Because I was desperate. Pretty much all my friends back then had betrayed me, had back-stabbed me, bad-mouthed me. I still wanted them even after those things. Pathetic, I learnt that word in form one and realized it fitted me so snuggly.

Entered you. I was still a suck up at first. I wanted to please you, I did everything you recommended I do. I watched We Got Married, started some animes, I made you gifts. Remember when I was a creeper and waited for you like two hours outside TGV just to catch you? Do you know I entered Indera just because I was afraid we wouldn’t be close because we were in different classes during form two? Do you know how much I still think that if I hadn’t done that then we wouldn’t be where we are right now? Then, somehow, one day, in form three, I just realized I didn’t have to be a suck up anymore. I guessed it happened when you started giving back, when you started to do the same for me.

You made me stop trying so hard. You made me realized I don’t have to pretend to be something just to be kept as a friend. You made me think it was time to be just me and that if I were to lose some friends because of that, it would be fine.  You did that.

I’m bossy now, I’m stubborn, I talk back, I insult my friends (caringly) and point out their wrongs, I’m sassy and sometimes savage, I say things without thinking about twice about it, stop thinking too much about what people think of me, and I’m not afraid now. I was never any of that before you. You brought that me out and I could never hope for a better me. This is me, this is who I am. And I came out because of you. I appreciate that.

So, when you say you’re sorry because you don’t do much, you don’t help me as much I help you, just remember you helped me, you shaped me way back before we were this close. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Just for entering my life but most of all for opening the hidden me. I love you so much.

Happy 6th Year of being dumb together, Dumber!

(Let me just mention that I totally didn’t plan to write like this, it came out and flowed non stop. I guess loving and appreciating you come as easy as the air that flows down in me.)

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