#doublelifefictive

Canon secret? Well! I had a huuuge crush on Scott in Double Life. I was down BAD. It might have been one of the reasons it hurt so much when he chose Cleo. ‘Course, I never told him - or anyone - about my crush, he’s gay, he’d never like me back that way, it would just be awful embarrassing for everyone involved…. But, still. Even if he’ll never reciprocate… I love you, Scott. I think I always have. I think I always will.

Prefacing with the fact that im not really sober, so im Extra emotional, but

Not having a great night. I was just trying to relax but couldn't get my mind off everything that happened, after a bit i got the memory of Scott during the last death. Him placing a bunch of TNT to finally end everything, both of us beat up, making eye contact, the "Tilly death do us part Pearl!" thing. I just want to forget everything about DL. - double life pearl fictive

im so tired... my soulmate is here, but its not the same as being with him irl. i miss my other partners too, so much. and all of my friends. i really wish i could see them, and be back in my own body, and be back home. Even though my soulmate wouldnt be there...

Ahh i feel. So incredibly awkward my man! Guess who kind of now has red ram horns insys? This guy! Guess who's CC is uncomfortable with art of them with horns? Also this guy! At least I have my Jimmy, who cant stay stable either between a cow hybrid or a canary hybrid. Im just gonna go cuddle with him in the ranch here for a bit, it's time we go to bed anyway - Tangotek, Double Life Fictive

I thought I was over source things until i watched an animatic about it. Now i genuinely miss Joel so much but I'm too scared to put a source call out so I've been listening to the song from the animatic repeatedly. -a Double Life Etho fictive

DL pearl back again. This is so uncomfortable and awkward why arent i Over everything that happened- SCOTT is perfectly fine,,,,,,,, i take that back i just got a memory of his shoved in my face. Guess we're both mentally ill and need to work on reconciling. Idk, we're both hurt but not like- horribly hurt because the series was still fun at points, we had fun yknow? We also miss everyone else, id give anything to talk to some sourcemates, especially Martyn and Cleo we had so much fun together!!! And bunking with Scar and Grian,,,,,, i miss everyone i just wanna laugh and hang out with them again :(

Wow! Hello everyone i have a lot of unresolved feelings apparently! - Double Life Pearl fictive whose Scott is here as well?