#digressing paths

I needed this blog for a time, but it was never going to be a permanent thing. I never imagined how attached I would get to it, committed to writing and the lovely readers it drew in. But all good things must come to an end. And now, this blog has reached its end. I will not be deleting this blog because I’ve chronicled just about ten months of my life on it, but I need to start writing for myself again. I need my writing to become mine again, and only mine. I will still have my inbox open and messages open, so if any of you ever want to talk, I’ll be here :) I hope each and every one of you know how special you are. You are all lovely, and I hope you have a lovely life because you deserve it xx

I’m a hopeless romantic. I always have been, and I always will be. There, I said it. I have always loved the idea of true love, grand gestures, and chivalry. I would watch romantic comedies and plain old romance movies and wish my life could be like that. I would read love stories and fall in love with the words on the paper and the person they created. I still do both of those things. I’ve always wanted to see the good in people, the best in people even, and what better way to do that than to watch someone find their soulmate? And better yet, know that maybe I have a chance too. I know it sounds far-fetched, but I believe in it one hundred percent. I believe in all of the cliches— stargazing at night, long walks on the beach, dancing in the rain, surprise rocks thrown at your window, midnight drives to see the world— I want to believe in them, even though I know that most of them might never happen to me. I started this blog because I needed to escape from my seemingly uneventful life. I wanted to be able to freely post my thoughts and live out my unrealistic dreams and expectations through the written word. Most of my posts were and still are about boys. I am young and still learning the ins and outs of this thing called life, and when you throw love and feelings into the mix, I’m a bit of a mess and definitely a beginner. This blog allowed me to calendar my life from real experiences to my thoughts, hopes, dreams, aspirations, and so much more. I needed it to create a kind of organization and to have something constant to rely on; it was something I was lacking. But now, here I am almost ten months later, and I no longer need this blog as much as I once did. I will explain myself more in tomorrow’s final post, and if any of you have questions, please feel free to message me or send me an ask. I appreciate the entire tumblr community and my lovely 6,600+ followers more than you will all ever know (or maybe know, I might tell you all tomorrow ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ) You have each given me a new-found confidence to pursue something that I truly love— writing— and an entirely new perspective on life and everything in between!

I loved him briefly, but I fell hard and fast. I am regaining my composure slowly but surely, and my brain knows that I am so close to being over him, but my heart refuses to comply. I think I love having someone to love.

I write about you a lot. I think, maybe, I’d want to show you it one day, but then I think some more and decide it’s better if I don’t.