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I think I've run across a good writer who thinks on my wavelength in terms of the "gentrification of mental illness / neurodivergence", and he wrote an excellent essay criticizing a recent book of Devon Price (a blogger/writer/activist I've run across and felt critical of for years; once known as "E. Price", they wrote that famous "Laziness Does Not Exist" post which I made an effortpost about way back in my days of Wordpress blogging and going on about low-agency vs. high-agency goggles). To be fair, I should say, Jon Machnee's post is an excellent review of Price's book modulo the fact that I haven't read Price's book.
Here is a passage I find particularly striking, even if it's purely anecdotal:
Recently, I attended a BBQ at my sister’s house. She knew I had nothing on that weekend and wanted me to work the grill so her and her friends could hang out in peace. I obliged, as any good brother would, and was surprised to learn that her whole friend group had autism. I have spent the better part of 12 years talking with, studying, and researching autism, and while I know you can’t diagnose or undiagnose someone at a party whilst also grilling hotdogs, I would bet my entire life savings that not a single one of them had an actual autism diagnosis or would get one if they were assessed. At one point, they told me that my sister, who does not have autism but does have ADHD, was the most autistic of the group. One of them even asked me what I thought of Price’s book and expressed how much it meant to them. This is particularly funny in hindsight because a few month later my sister reported that not only did they not have autism, but when they went to talk to a professional about it, they became distraught upon learning that they weren’t even remotely close to meeting any of the criteria. Apparently after the BBQ, some of my sister’s allegedly autistic friends asked her what was wrong with me, and she had to inform them, and I quote, “Oh, he has, like, real autism.”
[Burnout expert Arno] Van Dam observes that clinical burnout patients tend to suffer from an excess of perseverance, rather than the opposite: ‘Patients with clinical burnout…report that they ignored stress symptoms for several years,’ he writes. 'Living a stressful life was a normal condition for them. Some were not even aware of the stressfulness of their lives, until they collapsed.’ Instead of seeking help for workplace problems or reducing their workload, as most people do, clinical burnout sufferers typically push themselves through unpleasant circumstances and avoid asking for help. They’re also less likely to give up when placed under frustrating circumstances, instead throttling the gas in hopes that their problems can be fixed with extra effort. They become hyperactive, unable to rest or enjoy holidays, their bodies wired to treat work as the solution to every problem. It is only after living at this unrelenting pace for years that they tumble into severe burnout.
Devon Price, “You Might Not Recover from Burnout. Ever.”
For years now, psychologists and psychiatrists have discussed the existence of 'female Autism,' a supposed subtype that can look a lot milder and socially appropriate than 'male' Autism does. People with so-called 'female Autism' may be able to make eye contact, carry on a conversation, or hide their tics and sensory sensitivities. They might spend the first few decades of their lives with no idea they’re Autistic at all, believing instead that they’re just shy, or highly sensitive. [...] There’s a significant problem with the concept of 'female Autism,' though. It’s a label that doesn’t properly account for why some Autistics mask their Autistic qualities, or have their needs ignored for years. [...] Autistic women aren’t overlooked because their 'symptoms' are milder. Even women with really classically Autistic behaviors may elude diagnoses for years, simply because they are women and their experiences are taken less seriously by professionals than a man’s would be. Additionally, not everyone who has their Autism ignored and downplayed is a female. Many men and nonbinary people have our Autism erased, too. To call the stealthy, more socially camouflaged form of Autism a 'female' version of the disorder is to indicate that masking is a phenomenon of gender, or even of assigned sex at birth, rather than a much broader phenomenon of social exclusion. Women don’t have 'milder' Autism because of their biology; people who are marginalized have their Autism ignored because of their peripheral status in society.
– Devon Price, Unmasking Autism, (2022)
Fawning and People-Pleasing Reflection Tool from Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price

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When you recognize that you don't have status or influence, it affects your self-concept -- and your social behavior.
Throughout this research article, I see the echoes of shame and how it influences a person’s ability to relate to others or shape their life into what they want it to be. Shame is not explicitly mentioned once in the paper, but the effects of low power that the authors mention are eerily similar to the effects of being ashamed: ashamed people are also more deeply inhibited, less likely to express what they want, less authentic, less present in their relationships, less open, unwilling to initiate with others or to engage in productive conflict, trapped in the fallout of even small hardships and rejections, mistrustful, unhappy, and lonely.
As I’ve wrote about at length in my third book, shame is a hiding of one’s face. Ashamed people instinctively take on crouching, self-protective postures, speak less, look at people less, and feel physically frozen. Ashamed people are more submissive and passive. Their bodies produce less oxytocin, a hormone associated with social bonding. They avoid others and are less likely to take social initiative.
When a person is publicly shamed, one of the primary goals is often to make them cover themselves, or drive them out of public life. The core emotional experience of being ashamed is to feel that you are fundamentally bad as a person, usually because some essential part of you is out of step with your society’s rules, and so you must do everything in your power to hide that vulnerable, unspeakable part from others lest you be even further attacked.
And who is most likely to feel ashamed, disengaged, panicky, and passive in these ways? People who lack power.
Prior studies have found that when people perceive themselves as being low in social rank, they are more likely to feel shame. Historian Peter Stearns has observed that it is societies with greater inequality that are the most prone to wield shame in order to keep its members in line — and it is always individuals who are lower-status (such as children, enslaved people, women, people with darker skin, people with disabilities, and people in poverty) who are the most likely to be societally shamed.
All of this moves me to ask: if individuals high in shame behave in the exact same ways as people who perceive themselves as having no power, and it is people who possess very little power and status who are the most likely to be shamed, what is shame other than a recognition that you lack power?
And what are the actions of the ashamed but an entirely reasonable attempt at conserving energy, avoiding future social attacks, and removing yourself as much as possible from a society that hates you?
One of the outgrowths of shame that most fascinates me is systemic shame, in which a capitalist culture offloads all blame for large-scale societal problems onto the very individuals who have the least ability to do anything about them. A pattern of widespread societal neglect followed by systemic shaming of the victims has played out in our world countless times:
Gay men and drug users are left to perish from HIV without even any acknowledgement from the government for years, and then the virus is blamed on their supposedly irresponsible choices. As global temperatures continue to rise, oil companies encourage individual consumers to keep track of their personal “carbon footprint,” no matter how little control they have over how much they drive or what they can consume. The federal government deliberately limits access to COVID masks, tests, and ventilation supplies while opening restaurants, then claims the pandemic spread because of individual people not masking enough and holding house parties.
We can’t ignore the tendency for systemic shame to fall upon the most marginalized and the least resourced — the people with the least power.
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Lazy: The Politics of Rest
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