âË. Radiation âË.
Genre: Angst | Hurt/No comfort ⢠Rate: T+ ⢠TW/CW: Dissociation | Psychological Trauma | Implied Violence | Threatening Behavior
Prompt/Summary: ââŚJust donât stand there, run!â
âDanny, itâs me. Please. Why are you acting like you donât recognize me anymore?â
Phantom blinked at her like she was speaking another languageâa thin, trembling voice wrapped in desperation.
Her hands hovered in front of her chest, palms open, pleadingâfingertips shaking like fragile glass about to splinter. Tears shimmered in her amethyst eyes, clinging to the dark lashes before sliding down her cheeks like theyâd rather stay than fall. Her skirt clung to trembling knees, a black tank top hugging a frame. Her short, raven-dark hair framed her face like shadows trying to protect her.
Danny? What Danny?
He tasted the name in his mind and found nothingâonly a hollow echo that didnât belong to him. Whoever she thought he was⌠she was wrong.
So so so wrong.
He tilted his head slightly, confusion twitching underneath his skin as his bootsâgray, weightlessâscraped against the cold tile. A lab. Sterile metal walls reflecting ghostly green light that flickered from the hummering swirl behind him. Shelves of jars and tools glinting like teeth, waiting to bite. The air tasted⌠bitterâchemical and burned.
âWhere⌠am I,â his voice crawled up his throat like something resurrected. That echoâthat eerie reverberationâit wasnât his. It couldnât be. His own voice felt like a stranger wearing him from the inside.
âYou⌠you donât know?â a male voice cut in.
Phantomâs head jerked in the direction of the voiceâhe hadnât even realized there was a second human here at all. The boy stepped into the thin spill of green lightâa red beret crooked on his head, round glasses sliding down the bridge of his nose, fear tightening every line of his face. His hands were lifted slightly, palms open.
âNo, I donât,â Phantom growled.
Why did everyone expect answers from him? It was annoying.
He took a stepâjust oneâand a scorched, metallic stench invaded his senses, like burned copper and flesh. His nose wrinkled, eyes squeezing shut as his hand shot up to cover his face.
âWhat the hell is that awful smell?â
âDude, you stepped into the portal,â the guy stammered. âAndâand it messed you up.â
Portal.
The word pounded against the emptiness of his skullâsearching for something to attach toâand finding nothing but a void. A black, suffocating chasm where memories should be.
But there was just⌠nothing.
âWhat do you mean, dude?â Phantom spat, crossing his arms tightly across his chest. He leaned into that sharp edge of angerâat least that felt real.
He dug deeper into himselfâsearching, clawingâand thenâ
White-hot agony detonated inside of his head. His knees buckled. A strangled soundâhalf groan, half snarlâtore from his chest as his right hand clutched at his temple, fingers digging hard enough he couldâve cracked bone. The room swung, warpedâlights bleeding into each other like they were melting.
âDanny!â her voice sliced through him. A handâwarm and human, too humanâlanded on his left shoulder. Too fucking close. Too fucking real. Too fucking muchâ
It was wrong.
âGet off of me!â Phantom roared, his gray-gloved fingers snapping around her wrist like a claw. His grip tightenedâmuscles straining, bones grinding.
âYouâreâyouâre hurting me, Danny,â she whimpered. Her gasp hit his ears like⌠music.
She was afraid of him. Wasnât she? And something inside him purred awake.
His lips pulled into a slow, twisted smirkâcrimson glow spilling across his eyes. A low laugh slipped outâbroken, dangerous, delighted.
He rose to his feet without loosening his grip, towering over herâletting the fear collect in her gaze like precious ectoplasm.
Danny.
If that⌠was who she thought he wasâŚ
Wrong. Again. Everything was wrongwrongwrong.
Her pulse fluttered fast beneath his fingersâlike a frantic bird trapped in bone. The warmth of her skin bled into his palm, nauseatingly alive.
Phantom stared, fascinated.
âDanny, please,â she stuttered, tears pooling again, her voice splintering. âYou know me. You know Tucker. You know us. You have to. Remember? Justâthinkââ
Think? Thinking was the damn problem here.
He tightened the grip once more.
The maleâTuckerâstepped forward, panic all over his face. âDudeâstop! Thatâs Samâyour best friend. Sheâsheâs been helping you. Sheâshe cares about youââ
A flashâa flickerâsomething like a memory scraped the back of his skull. A girl with black hair. A smile. Someone saying his name with pure warmth.
Her.
Then the feeling of a thousand needles driving beneath his skin all at once. A choked scream crushed behind clenched teeth. His vision erupted into blinding white, and cold fire of ghostly radiation tore through his veinsâsearing, devouringâlike rewriting him from the inside out.
The memory cracked apart like glass and vanished back into the void.
He hissed, stumbling back a step as the pain flared through his head again. Sam freed her wrist, cradling it to her chestâa red mark already blooming like a warning.
She didnât run. She stayed.
Why? Why would she even stay? Why would she even care? Why didnât he feel anything?
âI donât care what you call me,â he rasped, voice trembling with rage and confusion, âbut stop calling me him. I am notâDanny.â
He clawed at his chestâat that black suit stamped with the white DP insigniaâdigging right into the emptiness where something used to sit, used to burnâand came up with handfuls of nothingness. A dead star where a heart should be.
âDanny, listen to meââ Samâs tears spilled harder now.
âNo!â His powerful voice flared like a pulse, rattling metal shelves and sending tools clattering. His breath came as vaporâfrost creeping across the floor. âDonât speak like you fucking know meâyou donât. Youâre lying. Youâre lying to my damn face.â His voice crackedâthe sound sharp and raw like something tearing.
Why was he even yelling? Was it at her or at the darkness inside his head?
He didnât know. Didnât care. He shouldnât care.
His fingers dug into his own pearl white hairâdesperate, frustrated, trembling. âWhyâwhy canât I remember? Why canât I remember anything?â
Silence bled into the room.
âBecause⌠youâyou died.â Her answer broke in a whisper. âAgain.â
His pupils blew wide. The world tilted.
Dead. Dead. Dead.
The word thrummed through his bones. He stumbled backward until his spine hit the far wall, his breaths sharp and uneven.
âWhaâwhat? What did you just say?â
She stepped forward slowly, like approaching a wounded animal.
âYouâyou died in this⌠in this lab,â she said softly. âYour parents⌠they were trying to build a portal to another world, another dimension. Itâit went wrong. You stepped inside andââ
Images lashed across his mindâlightning, pain, screaming, a blinding green and white explosion ripping through every cellâ
He collapsed again, both hands clamped over his ears as he gritted his teeth, as if he could block the memories from chewing through him.
âNoânoâstopââ
He didnât know who he was begging. Didnât even want to beg in the first place. It had to stop.
Sam fell to her knees beside him, hands hoveringâprobably afraid to touch him again.
Because why had he hurt her? Why had his hand tightened instead of letting go? It felt wrongâlike something human inside him recoiledâbut man, it also felt pleasant, a twisted purr of satisfaction blooming in his chest.
He folded his arms tight across his torsoâdefensive, guardedâthoughts clawing through him. As if crossing his arms might protect him from whatever monster was waking up inside.
That⌠that couldnât be right. But it felt so right.
Dammit.
âBut you came back,â she whispered, voice cracking. âHalf human, half ghost. You⌠you saved people. You saved me.â Her eyes shimmered, like her tears were gathering faster than she could blink them away.
Half ghost, half human⌠is that why he felt some weakness? How can⌠someone like him even become⌠this? But that didnât matter now.
âIf I saved youâŚâ Phantom breathed, head tilting in a slow, unnatural arc as he studied her face. âThen why do I feel like a monster?â His expression was hollowâempty in a way that was so much worse than anger.
Samâs breath hitched. She shook her head hard, words stumbling out between trembling sobs. âYouâre notâyouâre not a monsterââ
A low laugh escaped himâhumorless, dead. âThen why,â he asked, leaning in just enough for her to feel his cold breath, âdo you look so damn terrified of me?â
Sam went still. Completely still. Her eyes wideâtears still clinging to her lashes.
His smirk diedâcarved off his face in an instantâreplaced by something far more dangerous. A fractured grief. Sharp enough to cut bone-deep. His right hand rose and trembled, a gray glove brushing his line of sight. He stared at his own fingertips as if they were foreign.
âWhat⌠what did I do,â he whispered, voice scraping raw, âto become this⌠thing?â
His crimson eyes jerked toward the portalâa swirling maw of ghostly green, snarling and spitting sparks. The hunger radiating from it thrummed straight through him, vibrating in his bones. It was a mirror. A destiny carved in ectoplasm. A warningâone he could feel sinking into his ribs.
He pushed himself upright in a single, slow motion. His shadow oozed along the floor behind him, warped and wrongâagainâshaped like someone else was pulling the strings.
A stranger wearing his skin. Someone he didnât know. Someone heâd probably fear. Someone who laughed when the girl screamed.
âWhatâs⌠wrong with me?â The words leaked out thin and fragileâbarely human.
But that fragility⌠it shattered in seconds.
A sharp, violent twist clawed at the corner of his mouthâthat grin againâstretching too wide, like it was trying to tear his face apart. He pivoted toward them, movements stiff and predatory, every muscle drawn tight like a wire ready to snap. His eyes burned with a feral light as they locked onto the girl and the boy frozen across the room. His fingers curled slow and tightâfists tremblingâtendons coiled beneath his skin like something inside was trying to break out through the flesh.
âYou think,â he hissed through clenched teeth, âthat you can brainwash me?â He stepped forward, each step a hard crack of boots against tileâdeliberate and punishing.
âYou really believe⌠you can weld my mind back together with your pathetic lies?â Another stepâthe fluorescent lights flickered violently overhead.
âYou thinkâŚâ His voice dipped in venomous spit, âI ever cared about you?â
One last stepâclose enough to feel the warm tremor of Samâs breath against his cold skin. Close enough that if he leaned forward, his teeth would graze her throat. Close enough that he could rip the fear out of her throat with his teeth if he wanted.
Dammit, he wanted to taste it. So so so bad. He wanted to feel the scream break inside her chest.
âYouâre soâŚâ he murmured, leaning his face inches from hers, âso. very. wrong.â
His words rippled the airâa glitching frequency, warped and cruel. Even the shadows recoiled.
âSam! Donât just stand there, run!â Behind Sam, the boyâTuckerâs voice cracked.
Phantom chuckled. Slow and thick and malevolent.
âRun? Where?â He leaned in, lips brushing Samâs ear. âThereâs no door that can keep me out.â His gloved fingers, ice-cold and merciless, ghosted up her chin, just hard enough to promise pain. He tilted her head up, forcing her to meet his eyes. âThereâs no world where you can escape me.â
Somewhere deeper in the lab, metal clangedâsharp, suddenâa fallen beaker shattering across the tiles. The crash ricocheted through the silence like a gunshot.
She flinched. Her shoulders jumped. Breath caught.
His smile only stretched widerâteeth glinting like fangs in the green light.
He was enjoying this. Every flinch. Every tear. Every scrap of fear she fed him.
It felt wrong. And it felt so incredibly right. A perfect nightmare he couldnâtâwouldnâtâpull himself out of.
âYou never stood a chance.â
⢠I seriously thought for a second I was doing this whole event so so so wrong. Likeâme, being the not-genius I am, assumed the first word was the title and the prompt was the summary. But apparently you can mix them both? Pfft. Iâm already doing it this way and Iâm sticking to it.
⢠Sometimes my brain just⌠refuses to comprehend basic instructions. I had all the confidence in the world, until I suddenly felt socially awkward the moment I realized it. WHEEZE
⢠I have no idea where I was even going with this one shot. I just had one vision stuck in my mindâDanny with those eerie crimson eyes (like in Control Freaks). And what if⌠Danny stepped into the portal and came out with nothing? No memories. No idea who he is, where he is, or what happened to him. What if he didnât become a hero this time⌠what if he came out already evil? Even when he was already the hero before he stepped back into the portal? Something something something like that.
Thanks to the wonderful @nope-asdf for proof-reading again! <3











