#darkstalkerkin

I shit you not I have been racking my brain over this for months now. He's so much crueler than shown in the books (And might also be crossed with IT from Don't Take The Cat Home), and I can't figure out if it's a past life thing or an alter thing since we're also a system, but it's not simple because we all kinda share memories somehow.

I knew I was definitely a Wings of Fire kin for a long time now. Trying to figure out what tribe was a struggle, as it would flick between Icewing, Rainwing, Nightwing, Seawing, and Hivewing all the time. But it always usually circles back to Ice/Night and that's the most comfortable one no matter how "edgelord" that seems at first glance.

Then the similarities to Darkstalker started showing up. I somehow know exactly when his birthday is despite it not being in canon, and we have the same birthstone. I was also supposed to be born under a full moon, but ended up a little early under a first quarter instead. I also have a little sister that's oddly similar to Whiteout despite not having the same condition, and the loving mom and asshole dad thing is also there.

You'd think with the way I'm describing it that it would be a kin thing, but I genuinely can't tell. It also doesn't help that I'm clinically delusional either. These new meds are fucking doing something to me man.

Also the Peacemaker switch kinda lines up. I don't remember dying, and I definitely still feel like I'm trapped in a "lesser" form.

There's a main difference from canon that I can point out, actually (spoilers for Darkstalker Legends):

In canon, when dealing with Indigo, Darkstalker traps her asleep inside a wooden carving.

In my memory, I trapped her awake. She couldn't speak, breathe, or move, but she could see and hear around her. She had to watch Fathom think that she abandoned him.

That's the only main difference I can think of. I don't think I was in love with Clearsight. I was fond of her, enjoyed her company, but I wasn't IN love with her. It was platonic. I guess I assumed that I would fall in love because I saw it in the future, but that didn't actually mean I was just going to fall in love with her. I don't think I ever did, but I did care about her.

I don't remember regretting much, except maybe scaring Whiteout during Arctic's execution. Did kinda feel bad about that.

I do have pretty low empathy even now, but some of the things I did I still don't see a damn problem with. In hindsight, Clearsight's earrings were definitely a mistake though. But everything else wasn't even that big of a deal as far as I remember. I guess I should have realized that "soul" was a metaphor.

(Editing this in to mention the Icewing plague because I totally forgot about that. I do remember doing this in my memories, but that was mostly because I was horribly racist to Icewings. My problem was just with Arctic and it really should've stopped with that, but with the war going on I guess it shifted to all Icewings instead of just him. If I had the chance again, I would not go through with this, because I'm only realizing now that that was actually horribly fucked up of me.)

Then there's IT. The cat. I'm not sure how it ties in, but it's closely connected to the Darkstalker thing somehow. It definitely shows the cruel side with no remorse, but it's more than that. I'll have to come back to this when I figure it out. (Also, go check out that game. It's fucking amazing. I'm near-completely desensitized to all genres but this is PEAK horror I fucking love this game 10/10.)

Obviously, I know right from wrong objectively, but I think morality might be subjective.

Anyway, if I keep talking about our Darkstalker-and-cat connection, then I'll have to start talking about our Lucifer alter because he ties directly to them. But that boy deserves his own post because holy shit.

Idk I just wanted to ramble for a while. I'm not really sure how to tag this.