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Y/N’s previous wounds had been opened up due to the excessive scratching on his wrist, Y/N used his other hand to cover the cuts that had started to seep blood.

Y/N stands up, bee-lining to the bathroom to avoid making a mess. He rushes past Connor, who had been in the kitchen. Y/N steps into the bathroom, closing and locking the door as he turns the tap on. Y/N cups water in his hand before letting it gently fall onto his burning wounds, wincing at the feeling.

Connor turns his head at the sound of loud and rushed steps, his LED turning a soft yellow at the sound of the bathroom door quickly closing. He puts aside whatever he was doing to walk over to the bathroom, gently knocking on the door as he called out to Y/N.

“Y/N? Are you okay in there?”

Y/N turns at the sound of his boyfriend, sighing as he walks over and slowly opens the door. Y/N looks into Connor’s eyes, a slightly saddened look on his face as he brings his arm into Connor’s view. “It was an accident, I didn’t mean to reopen them..”

Connor looks down at the wounds, his irises scanning the severity of it, seeing they were Y/N’s past self-inflicted injuries. He notices Y/N’s distress and nodded slowly, joining him deeper into the bathroom. The android holds his hand out to Y/N, taking his hand in his own as he guides the worried man to the edge of the bathtub.

“It’s okay, Y/N. Let’s get them cleaned up, okay?”

Connor smiles up at the man as he grabs a first aid kit from the sink cabinet, opening it and crouching in front of Y/N. Connor pulls out some wipes and a bandage, gently cleaning the weeping wounds, they hadn’t been fully opened, only letting out small drops of blood.

Connor gently wraps the bandage around Y/N's wrist, making sure it was tight enough to stop the bleeding but not tight enough to cause the man discomfort. "Does it hurt at all, love?" Connor looks from the wound into Y/N's eyes, giving him a soft and reassuring smile.

"Just stings a bit. Thank you, Connor."

Connor nods before leaning his head down, gently pulling Y/N's arm up to place a soft kiss on his boyfriend's bandages. "There, all cleaned up." Y/N's worries seem to disappear at Connor's soft actions, giving a thankful nod to the android.

"I love you, Y/N."

"I love you too, Connor. Thank you."

Connor stands up from his spot, gently pulling Y/N up with him. The android wraps his arms around his lover, pulling him close as he kisses his cheek. "I'm always here for you, Y/N."

Y/N gives the other man a small nod, thankful for his partner's care. Connor takes a hold of Y/N's hand again, gently pulling him out of the bathroom and back into the living room. Connor pulls Y/N over to the couch, signaling for him to sit down.

As Y/N sits down, Connor walks over to the nearby desk, grabbing a couple markers and bringing them over to where the other man sat. Connor holds up the markers before smiling at his partner.

"Which colour do you want?"

Y/N confusedly smiled, pointing to one of his favourite colours of the bunch, Connor handing it to him. Connor puts aside the other markers as he grabs one for himself. Connor pulls off the lid and brings the tip to the newly wrapped bandages, he looks up into Y/N's eyes, almost like he was asking for permission.

Y/N realises what Connor wanted to do and warmly smiles, nodding softly before Connor gently doodles on the bandages. Connor starts off with soft little squiggles, then starts to use a little more focus as he draws the face of a familiar dog.

"Look, it's Sumo."

Y/N giggles at the sweet gesture, grateful for Connor's ability to calm him and brighten his mood. Y/N takes off the lid from his own marker, drawing small little pictures beside the ones Connor drew.

The two spent the evening laughing at their poorly drawn doodles, making each other smile as the night grew darker and Y/N's worries were replaced with gratitude.

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His drinking has gone down from what it was like in the beginning when Connor met the Lieutenant, and Connor has convinced Hank to take better care of him but there was still room for improvement of course. It seemed the little android was helping the old police officer into a better lifestyle compared to the concerning depression he was in originally.

But some old patterns were hard to break, especially for an old dog like Hank Anderson.

Connor searched the usual bars Hank was at, even Connor’s fifth search at Jimmy’s Bar who shrugged at him when he asked where he was. Connor tried to think back to where his partner could be when he remembered a bar Hank had mentioned. He saw it while driving home while Connor worked late and said it looked interesting. The android immediately went down that direction after he pulled up the directions.

Hometown Blues was written in cursive with neon lights, the blue light so bright it was impossible not to spot a mile away. It didn’t seem too busy so Connor knew for sure the lieutenant would be in there without worry of rowdy crowds. It seemed to be a human and android bar, with the new development of entertainment for both humans and androids. More of these kinds of things were popping up. A small intrigue peaked in Connor of checking out a place like this, having not been in one yet.

He stepped inside and looked around, some jazz music was playing in the background but not loud enough nobody could have a conversation in here. There were a minimal amount of people here, he scanned and only found 4 people in this room, two being androids. He didn’t care to see who the two other people were as he made a beeline towards the bar where he recognized the jacket an older man was wearing. “There you are, Lieutenant.”

“Shit.”

“I’ve been trying to contact you, there was some new info on the case.” Connor tells him as Hank nurses his whiskey.

“I know and I’ve been ignoring it.” Connor furrows his eyebrows and scowls at his partner's reluctance to work now.

“But it’s new information, this’ll get us closer to solving it.”

“Connor,” Hank turns in his seat to look at the android - his LED was spinning yellow Hank noticed. “We’ve been working at this for over a month nonstop, some humans need a small break.”

“I see he’s found you.”

Connor looked away from the Lieutenant to the sight of the bartender working here tonight, cleaning off one of the glasses, a teasing grin on her face as she looked at Connor and Hank. Connor would’ve scanned her but she was wearing a badge on her chest that displayed her name. Hank has informed him that humans don’t particularly like being scanned so it must be best for him to keep that stuff down to a minimum. Find things out about humans organically compared to when they were on cases “He was telling me a little android may be looking for him to take him away.”

Little? Connor thinks to himself. “I’m just getting the Lieutenant so we can continue to do our job.” Connor says.

“And I would like a break tonight.” Hank grumbles into his glass before he takes another sip.

Connor frowns at the lieutenant, he knows they have been working endlessly, but they were so close to solving it! Connor couldn’t stop now. He looked at his glass to see he was almost done. “If I buy you one more whiskey, will you come with me then?” The android asks the older human, it worked last time it was worth a shot to see if it would work again.

Hank seemed to mull this over for a second before he sighs and grumbles an agreement. Connor pays the bartender after he pulled out his wallet and handed her the money, she then poured more whiskey into the Lieutenant’s glass. “It was good to see you again, Hank.” She tells him, giving him a friendly smile. “Nice to finally meet you too, Connor.” Connor watches her move down the bar to tend to someone else, his LED spinning yellow as he watched her leave them. How much as the Lieutenant talked about him with the bartender?

The next time Connor see’s the bartender was when Markus and his group of friends convinced him to join them on a night out, Connor barely spent time with any of his own kind, either with Hank or working in the station and burying himself in his work. “Go out.” Hank had told him, in a tone that left no room for argument. “Have a life, boy, working isn’t the only thing to life, Con. Have fun with Markus and his friends.”

“What about you and Sumo?”

“We’ll be fine.” Hank pushes Connor towards the door. “We’ll watch a movie and have the night for ourselves. Now go have fun!”

Connor now sat in the android and human combination bar with Markus, Simon, Josh, and North. They were at a little table, the four of them conversing with each other as Connor kept quiet, he felt odd being here, he didn’t know them well and with the way North kept looking at him, he didn’t exactly feel welcome here. Markus would keep ensuring there was no bad blood between them after what happened in the original Jericho, but it was obvious North and other androids haven’t forgiven him. He didn’t blame them at times.

He decided one moment to get up from his seat and try one of the android friendly drinks they make here, they seemed to be all thirium based and safe for androids to consume, Connor couldn’t lie and say he wasn’t interested to try them. “Well look who it is!” exclaims the working bartender and Connor looked over, immediately recognizing the woman before when he fetched the lieutenant a couple weeks ago.

“Oh. Hello,”

“Hey! Nice to see you again. How is Hank? Finally letting him have a break?”

“He is fine, reluctantly I am letting us have a break. He’s home now with Sumo probably watching a movie.”

“Sumo?” She raised an eyebrow at such a name. Connor showed the picture he had of Sumo that he kept with him and the bartender immediately swooned seeing the big doofy dog. “Oh my goodness, he’s so big!”

“Yes, he is a very good dog.” Connor says, for the first time tonight, starting to feel comfortable as he talked about the Saint Bernard that was back at Hank’s.

“Hey, I have a new puppy and I need to have him socialize, and nobody I know has any dogs, we should set up a little playdate.” She offered. Connor’s thirium pump jumped at the offer and couldn’t help but think Sumo would like that type of thing. He only ever sees him and Hank, occasionally other dogs, but he typically sticks to his two owners.

“Sure,” He says, giving an awkward forced smile. He still wasn’t used to these human norms.

“Fantastic! But what should I get you? You came over for a reason.” She says with a grin.

“Right,” Connor looked up to the menu and just picked the first android safe drink he saw on there. She nodded and quickly prepared it and handed the blue drink with a napkin. Connor took the drink with a thanks and returned to the table where the other androids were, setting the drink and napkin down. Markus was the one to greet Connor back.

“What did you get?”

“Some android safe drink.” Connor tells Markus as he picks it up, taking a sip. Immediately his system broke down the contents of the drink, it was mostly thirium but there were hints of alcohol and blue raspberry flavoring. Not able to taste anything, Connor couldn’t really tell if he enjoyed it or not.

“Did they write something down on your napkin?” Simon says as he looks at the writing on the napkin. Connor looked down as he set his drink down, seeing the handwriting. The black ink was scratchy, like the person was struggling to write on the napkin, and was obviously human too.

‘I don’t give out my number, but if you want to seriously set up that puppy date, here’s my social! @.xxxxx

Let’s sets up a date there ♡♡’

“Did you seriously get a date by setting up a playdate with your dogs?” North says, seeming surprised for the first time with Connor. He was honestly surprised too.

Connor didn’t have any social media.

Hank looked flabbergasted when Connor came back with the bartender’s social media tag on a napkin and asking for his help, since none of the other androids he was out with had any social media themselves, or knew much either. Hank for sure had to have something and be able to teach him. “I deleted my social media, but I guess we can try to set you up.” Hank had said, long since quit that once he was older.

Connor was confused by the language and everything once Hank was done and handed him his phone to message her from. Connor held it and looked at the social media home page, confused by all the ads and what random people were posting or a second before he searched for the bartender by writing down the tag. Immediately finding her as he recognized her in the profile picture.

Immediately the first thing he saw on her page was that she was in a car, a huge grin on her face while hugging a 10 week old german shepherd that was sitting in her lap, the caption just some emoticons that he didn’t understand. He had to admit, the picture was cute. The second thing he saw was a name, (Y/N). He didn’t know if it was her actual name or a nickname she chose to display. He hoped it was a nickname for her safety.

He looks back at the top of her profile and sees a spot that says ‘message’, he taps on it and begins writing.

‘Hello, it’s Connor-‘ Connor stopped as he resisted the urge to do his old greeting. Something old in his programming that’s been hard to break. ‘- from the bar.’ and he pressed sent, and waited.

Connor didn’t get a response back from the woman until much later, Hank long since gone to his bedroom and probably asleep and Sumo was fast asleep at Connor’s feet. The large dog laying on his back with his paws in the air. Connor could sense the heat coming off of the large dog on his feet. He was interrupted watching some infomercial that was playing on the TV when a notification popped in his vision, @.xxxx had messaged you.

‘hey! I’m so glad you messaged me I hope I don’t wake you up but here’s my schedule so we can plan around that’

Connor looked at her schedule and how late they go and tried to see if it would match with his work schedule, eventually finding a date a couple days from now where they both have a day off. Something the Lieutenant makes him take so he can ‘get a life’ and enjoy his deviancy.

‘Android’s don’t sleep but thanks for the concern. It seems we can go on Wednesday since we both have a day off then, we can meet at this park, me and Sumo go frequently.’

‘sounds like a plan! lets meet that afternoon’

“Sounds good,’

As they both waited for Wednesday to pull Connor was finding himself messaging (Y/N) more and more, getting to know the woman who has been serving his partner for the past few weeks. He learned this is her first dog she’s own and she’s only been bartending for a couple of months, it took her until Tuesday to figure out he was the android that helped with the Revolution Markus led last year. Connor was finding himself smiling to himself as he read how excited she was in not only knowing him but also that Markus and the other android’s were in her bar that day.

Hank looked at his partner across from him, seeing the tiny smile on Connor’s face as he stared at his computer screen. The old man was sure Connor wouldn’t be smiling as he read case files, and the last time he saw that smile was back at the end of the revolution. Pride swelled in Hank’s chest as he returned to his monitor.

Once Wednesday rolled up and it being Connor and Hank’s one day off. Normally Connor would spend this time with Hank, watch some movie he wanted to show him, or Connor would do some errands so Hank could actually relax. He constantly says how Connor overworks him too much. But today Connor didn’t do any of that.

He got Sumo ready for the day, getting the dog his food and water and taking him on a nice walk. Sumo was an old boy now but he still got excited seeing other dogs, so it was best to get some of his energy spent so he didn’t hurt himself. Throughout the day he could feel the excitement of seeing Sumo with a puppy but also seeing (Y/N).

“Ready, Sumo?” Connor speaks to him, it was an hour before he would expect to meet with (Y/N). He had called a taxi to drive them there, he didn’t want to overexert the old dog by walking there. Once he got the notification the taxi was here, he clipped on Sumo’s leash, called out to Hank he was leaving.

The android helps the dog out of the taxi as they arrive and walks up to the dog park, seeing there were some other dogs that were running around or playing with their owners. It was a good time for (Y/N) puppy to come and play with Sumo. He let him off leash to check everything out while they waited, Connor keeping an eye on the fluff ball wander around.

Eventually (Y/N) did arrive with her puppy who was romping ahead of her with their leash clipped on, (Y/N) seeming to try and keep up with the energetic puppy. “Hello, (Y/N).”

“Hi!” She says with a smile to Connor, her puppy immediately running up and sniffing Connor’s feet. He couldn’t help but smile at the young puppy. “Nice to see you again.”

“You too,” Connor says, turning to look at (Y/N) instead of the puppy. “Sumo is around here somewhere,” He looks around, finding Sumo was sniffing a bush. He got the dog and left Sumo and the german shepherd to introduce themselves together, smiling as he watched them sniff at each other and the german shepherd try to initiate play with the older dog.

They sat together on a bench as they watched their two dogs play together, Connor smiles as Sumo acts like a puppy himself as he plays and chases the german shepherd. “I’m still so new to taking care of a dog, thanks for helping with this part.” (Y/N) says, giving Connor a smile. “I’m glad to see Sumo and Zeus like each other.”

“Happy to help anytime, (Y/N).” Connor tells her. “I like dogs, happy to be around them and help as much as I can.”

“That means I can ask any dog related question.”

Connor thought about it, his LED spinning yellow. “Guess you could.” He says, “not the usual questions I get, but happy to answer any.”

“Okay, Zeus is going through this phase where he’ll just pee on everything…” She started to ask him questions about Zeus and after a couple questions Connor couldn’t help but find himself smiling at (Y/N) as she asked dog questions, and actually listened to his answers and didn’t seem to be half paying attention or interrupting him. It happens a lot more at the DPD, even Hank would do it at times and tell Connor to stop talking, instead (Y/N) let him ramble on his answer, at one point she even brought out her phone to write down what he says. His chest continued to feel full as they continued to talk about dog behavior and other advice he has about them.

The more time went on and the sun began to set, setting a golden glow across the world, making (Y/N) glow in the sunlight and bouncing off her skin beautifully. Connor was having a hard time being not distracted by her, he made a mental note to ask Hank about this later. These new feelings making surface. The hours had gone by so much that Zeus and Sumo had fallen asleep at their owners' feet, Zeus laying on his back and Sumo was resting his head on Connor’s foot. He was 90% sure that Sumo has been drooling on his shoe this whole time. He would most likely need to clean them when they get home.

He could hear a muffled alarm going off and he was confused where it was coming from when (Y/N) pulled it out of her jacket pocket and looked, her eyes widening. “Oh my, is that the time?” She slides her thumb across the screen and slides the device back into her pocket, looking up into Connor’s eyes. “I need to go get ready for the night shift now, but thank you so much for this! I’m glad to see Zeus and Sumo like each other.”

“Yes, I’m glad too.” He says, reaching down and scratching behind Sumo’s ear, who grunted at the contact and glanced up to the android before settling on his foot again. “We should get together again.”

Dating someone as important as Connor always brought along several consequences like living up to the Rhodes last name, being approved by his high – class father and being the object of jealousy of a bunch of other doctors and nurses who were constantly harboring a crush on the hottest cardiothoracic surgeon of the very prestigious Gaffney Chicago Medical Center and even when you were ready to deal with them all, truth to be told, along with avoiding all kind of uncomfortable situations, you wanted to keep as many memories and moments with him just for you.

Maybe it sounded a bit selfish but you already had to share him with the rest of the world when he was saving lives at the hospital so was it really too much to ask to just have a few moments with him now and then that only belonged to you two? You didn’t think so, especially not when you were finally getting ready to tell him you loved him.

You weren’t sure if 6 months were too soon or kinda late but neither of you had said it before because you both wanted to make sure it was truly how you felt when the time was right.

Just as you were about to ask him for 5 more minutes in such a blissful state, both your alarms started beeping, effectively breaking the quietness of the room and making you both groan, you weren’t ready.

“Time to go back to reality” he said stretching a little bit to get up.

“Do we really need to?” you pouted “I love having you here, just the two of us cuddling and watching a movie or cooking dinner or  just talking”

“I love it too but we wouldn’t be able to afford half of that if we just stayed here” he said laughing a little bit and leaving a small kiss on your forehead before standing up. “Also, I know how much you love your job, being the only woman on squad 3”

“I hate it when you are right” you said now with a big smile, he was right, you were so proud of your job and how much you had accomplished, you were the only female on Rescue Squad 3 and one of the youngest to make it to the team, Kelly did it when he was 23, you were just a little bit behind with 25, it was really impressive. 

30 minutes later you were both at your kitchen having some scrambled eggs, toasts and orange juice for breakfast, something “quick and light before going to save some lifes” as Connor liked to put it.

“So, will I see you tomorrow after your shift?” you asked

“Sorry, I can’t, my father wants to go have dinner, I don’t know what he wants but he says it’s important and I been trying to avoid it for a week now, I’ll just go so he stops calling me when I’m at the hospital” 

“It’s okay, I’ll still have you all for myself this weekend” you said flashing him a big smile, you had waited for this weekend for almost a month when you made a reservation for a nice B&B outside Chicago just to celebrate your 7th month together far away from the chaotic life you both had.

“Just you and I” he finished before leaning to kiss you, sweet and slow but full of passion, it was amazing and it made you feel better about your decision, this weekend you were going to tell him you loved him.

You separated after a couple moments to take a breath before leaning your forehead against his, looking right into his eyes, taking in the silence of the morning and the man in front of you, your heart swelling with nothing but pure love and raw happiness, you never had felt like this before.

“Now I think I’m ready to go” you said smiling at him and pulling apart to take the dirty dishes to the sink.

“Well, that’s not fair because I’m the one who’s not ready now” he mentions while he stands up to go to you and hug you from behind, his arms sneaking around your waist.

“That’s a shame sir, because if we don’t go now we both will be late” you said playfully as you turned around in his arms to wrap yours around his neck. “So go  grab your coat and let’s head out” you firmly stated leaving a peck on his jawline.

“Yes ma’am” he added before laughing a little and head to your door, you close behind him.

All the way to the parking lot of your building you joked around and enjoyed your last minutes together, his hand never leaving yours until you are in front of your car.

Before you could reach for the door, he grabbed your arm and turned you around to leave one final kiss in you lips, one hand on your waist, the other going directly to you cheek to deepen the kiss.

And just as sudden and fast it all happened, it ended leaving you breathless and a complete mess in front of him. He knew the effect he had on you and he loved to take advantage of that, so without any other word he opened your car door for you, gave you a final cocky smile and left to his car.

Frustrated you got into your car and closed your door, maybe a little bit harder than you should but making sure Connor heard before leaving the parking lot.

15 minutes later you were outside the firehouse getting ready to walk in to start your shift.

“Hey (Y/L/N), ready for another day on the job?” Kelly said from out your window.

“Hell, yeah!” You said as you stepped out your car and you locked it before heading inside with Kelly by your side telling you all about his latest date, him being one of your best friends.

The morning went by slowly, only a call around noon about a multiple car accident that needed the whole team to get the victims out of the wrecked cars but that had been all the action you have had all day, it wasn’t common to have days that quiet and it had everyone nervous about it, it was a bad sign. 

You had spent most of the day playing around with the guys, chatting with the girls and beating the squad’s ass playing Monopoly, you had a bad feeling about this day in the pit of your stomach but you pushed it away and tried to enjoyed the free time with your friends.

The day was almost over, the night slowly coming down and you barely had started to relax when you heard the alarm went off letting you all know an apartment building had caught on fire and you were needed.

You all quickly suited up and drove to the fire as fast as you could, ready to face whatever was coming your way.

5 minutes later when you arrived, you knew you had been right all day long, this was bad. There was actually two buildings, 10 stories each and both on fire and for what you could see there was many people still inside.

Immediately Kelly and Matt started shouting orders and organizing everyone to go inside on a primary search, still unaware of how many people was actually inside and under what conditions, the fire growing with every second.

As soon as the squad got into the first building, Capp and Tony stayed on the first floor and you followed Severide to the second floor.

“Fire Department! Call out!” you yelled going into the first apartment, quickly making your way through all the rooms, all empty. 

You went outside and met with Kelly on the hallway, him going into the third apartment and you entering the fourth were you were received with some coughing coming from the back.

“Fire Department! Call out!” you yelled again trying to figure out the origin of the sounds while making your way to the back.

“Help! I’m in the bathroom”

Running to the bathroom in the master bedroom you noticed that the ceiling was collapsing and the debris was blocking the door so you started to remove some of the bigger pieces and throwing them to the other side of the room, just enough to make room to open the door. 

“Come with me” you yelled to the woman once you managed to open the door “keep your head down and do not take the wet cloth from your face, well done” 

Once on the hallway you noticed Kelly guiding a family towards the stairs to exit the place when Capp called him, he needed some help on the third floor since Tony had taken a couple outside.

“Go, I got them” you yelled taking the hand of one of the members to guide them through the smoke.

Once you were all out you took a moment to change your oxygen tank while everyone was being treated by the multiple ambos waiting for the victims, all of a sudden you felt a tug on your arm and you turned around to see a crying woman in front of you, a teenager close behind her.

“Please, you gotta help, my baby is inside, I live in the 9B”

“Ma’am, you need to calm down, we are going to get him but you need to stay here”

“Please, help me!” she yelled.

“Brett!” you called Silvie “please, help me. Take care of her while I go inside for her baby”

Once the woman let you go and you made sure Silvie got her you ran inside straight to the third floor.

“Kelly, there’s a baby on the 9B, I’m going up”

“Wait for me! I’m coming with you” he said taking his hooligan with him “Capp, Tony, I’m going with (Y/L/N) to the ninth floor, we’ll make the search from top to bottom and we’ll meet at the middle”

“Okay, Lieutenant” they both replied before going into another apartment.

7 floors above you and Kelly splitted to each cover two apartments on the tenth floor, all being empty so you both descended to the ninth were you knew at least someone was in.

As Kelly took care of the 9A you knocked down the door to the 9B and went inside directly to the back were you could hear the baby crying. It was a relief knowing the baby was still alive.

You could see the fire was getting worse and you all really needed to hurry to take everyone out so the bomb could take charge of the building, there was just to many to do and just for a moment you let yourself get worry, maybe you weren’t enough.

You almost got lost in your train of thought when you suddenly heard Kelly calling for you.

“Back here, the baby seems okay but we need to take him out immediately”

“Go, I’ll finish the floor”

“No, you are faster, take the baby out and I’ll finish here, I’ll see you on the 8th” you said taking the baby and handing him to Kelly, his arms instantly taking the baby and putting him close to his body. You could see the hesitation on his face but you had no time for that “Go!! Now!! Take him out, I’ll be fine”

He knew he couldn’t argue with you so he handed you his hooligan and ran outside as fast as he could to leave the baby and get back to you, the same bad feeling everyone had the entire day settling on his stomach again.

Once you made sure the whole floor was empty you went down to the 8th, trying to move as fast as you could but making sure no one was left behind.

The flames were growing and you feared Boden was going to call you all out, that was one of the worst possible scenarios you could picture because it left you without any chance to save everyone.

Luckily, the 8th floor was empty, most of the doors already opened from when all the residents left and you could quickly moved to the 7th, only two more to go to be able to leave the building. 

You met Kelly on the stairs, letting him know it was all clear from 10th to 8th so he could report back to Boden.

Once again you both separated, both knowing the routine you had to follow.

You were inside the 7B when you heard a loud noise above you, barely having enough time to look up before the ceiling collapsed over you, knocking you down and letting you unconscious.

Kelly had just left 7A when he heard the loud thump of the ceiling falling down, stopping in his tracks trying to figure out where the noise was coming from when he heard something ten times worse, your pass alarm signaling you hadn’t move in the last 20 seconds.

Running to the sound of the alarm beeping, he found you under a big pile of wrecked ceiling.

“Capp, Tony!” He yelled through his radio “I need backup on 7th, (Y/L/N) is down”

From where he was he could see it was bad, your leg trapped and your whole torso covered by a lot of wreckage. Starting to work to get you out as fast as possible he started to took the ceiling that was at the top to eventually get to you, two pairs of hands suddenly helping him.

They all moved around you, taking everything out as fast as they could in the limited time they had, a minute later only your leg left to be freed.

“Alright, lift that final piece over her leg so I can slide her out” Kelly instructed to the guys positioning himself above your head and grabbing your arms to pull you out.

It was heavy and Capp and Tony had to pushed a little harder to lift it enough for your leg to pass but a few seconds later it was over, each of them grabbing one of your legs to help Severide take you down were Silvie and Gabby were waiting for you to arrive.

Everyone was already outside, the truck had finished with the other building and the last two floors you had missed and the bomb was taking charge of the fire, all in silence wanting to know more about you but unable to enter to your rescue in case the weight was to much for the structure on fire.

It was a general relief when the squad came out through the door with you in their arms, setting you on the gurney and giving the girls space to work, they going in professionally to make sure you were properly treated, opening your suit and checking your vital signs.

They put a collar around your neck and immobilized your leg to transport you to the Med, getting help from Kelly to put you in the ambulance and hopping in to go with you, never leaving your hand. 

After losing Shay, he swore he would do everything in his power to never lose anyone again, specially you, you had came when he most needed it and offered him a sincere friend, someone who never judged him and was with him through thick and thin.

“She’s going to be okay, Severide, we got her just in time” Gabby tried to assure him, knowing what was going through his mind.

She was about to say something else when your heart rate started to go wild on the monitor, catching her by surprise and making her jump to her feet immediately.

“Start CPR now!” She yelled to Kelly “I need to intube her, Brett hurry!” she said while taking the equipment she needed to make the procedure, completely focused on her task to put the ambu bag as fast as she could.

“I got in! How much longer, Brett?!” she asked worried.

“We’re two minutes away, they are waiting for us”

Once you arrived it was crazy, Gabby letting the doctors know of your situation, starting with possible ribs and right leg fractured as well as a dislocated shoulder, while April and Ethan started to wheel you into Trauma 1 on the ED, leaving Gabby, Silvie and Kelly outside.

Connor was just leaving the OR ready to take on another patient when he saw you, all bloody and unconscious being moved to a trauma room, his worst nightmare becoming a reality just in front of him.

 “What happened?” he yelled going behind you ready to take action.

“The ceiling collapsed, Dawson and Brett just got her in” Ethan informed unaware of the real state Connor was in, trying to hide his emotions as best as he could. “We need some x - rays and maybe a CT scan to make sure there is no internal bleeding” he was going over the routinary examination when a single sound send shivers down Connor’s spine, a flat line on the monitor.

“She’s crashing, charge the defibrillator to 150 and send one epi in” he said as the nurses laid her completely down and started with chest compressions again.

“Charged to 150” April handed Ethan the defibrillator and applied some gel to it before he used it.

“Clear” he said before shocking you once and waiting for a second “No change, charge to 200”

Connor was watching the whole scene going unfold right before his eyes, the rage going through his veins faster than the team who was trying to bring you back to life. He turned for a moment to take a breath when he saw Kelly standing at the doors of the ED.

He wasn’t sure what controlled him but he went straight to Kelly and pushed him to the wall grabbing him by his collar, face to face and ready to fight him.

“You were supposed to take care of her! Where the hell were you when this happened?”

“What the hell?! Back off!” Kelly said pushing him back, as angry as him because he had no idea what he was going through “What the hell do you care?!”

By now, everyone’s eyes were on them, their voices the only sound of the room.

“What do I care?! She is my girlfriend, you idiot, and she trusted you with her life!” Connor replied, not caring anymore of your secret. Everyone stayed silent for a minute, the revelation causing a big shock among the presents, that’s when Connor realized something and all the anger faded away, leaving him all weak and desperate. “She is my girlfriend and I love her” he finally whispered “I can’t lose her… I can’t lose her, damn it!” his mood swings were insane, he didn’t really know how he felt, it was all mixed up, he was angry, sad, desperate, hopeless, stressed, it was all too much.

Just when Kelly was about to say something, the gurney from Trauma 1 was being wheeled out, a bunch of nurses, medical equipment and Dr. Choi behind it going straight to the OR yelling instructions to the whole team.

“What happened?” Connor ran behind them “What’s going on?”

“We need to take her to the OR, we got her back but she has some internal bleeding going on. We’ll take charge of the rest after we control it” Ethan said before the elevators doors closed.

He felt lost, he couldn’t do anything and it was killing him, stumbling he entered the break room and broke down on the couch, his hands to his face hiding the tears that wanted to spill from his eyes.

“She is going to be okay, she’s a fighter after all” Will said sitting next to him and patting his back. 

“She better be because I don’t know who I am anymore without her” he said in a low voice, afraid it would break if he spoke louder.

“Why you never told us anything?” 

“At first was we wanted to make sure it was the real thing, you know? But then she just loved the privacy of it all, having little dates on new places where it was only her and I and no one knew about us, the Med’s surgeon and the newest squad member, you know? She just wanted to keep it all away from our crazy lives and dangerous jobs” he finished letting out a sigh.

“It really sounds like her” Will added laughing a little “I don’t know her that well but we have talk a few times at Molly’s, she is so sweet and funny and so open all the time but it’s annoying because at the end of the night you still don’t know much about her. You’ll only know what she wants you to know” he said remembering the few nights you had spent with the whole ED team, having a beer and getting to know everyone.

Now it all made sense, you were getting to know the people who Connor worked with.

The sound of Connor’s laugh broke the silence for a moment, taking Will by surprise, it was just odd considering the state of the man just a few seconds ago.

“Yes, she is like that. You don’t know how much effort it took me to get her to say yes to a date, it was all worth it though” he laugh again, Will joining him this time “Will, she’s the most amazing woman ever and we’ve been together for the last 6 months and I’ve been the happiest man ever since we made it official. This weekend we were going somewhere special, you know? She had it all planned so we could go away for a couple days and just be away from the chaos of the city, she was so excited and now we won’t be able to go”

“Don’t worry, you’ll go, maybe not this weekend but I bet that in a month she will be good to go”

“You can’t promise me that”

“I can, I’m sure of it because right now she have the best team of doctors taking care of her, and she doesn’t let anything stop her from what she wants, isn’t it right? That’s how she got into squad 3 in the first place and how she managed to keep your relationship a secret for over 6 months. She is unstoppable, Connor, I know she will be fine”

"Thanks, man. It's really nice to hear it" he finally said after a moment, taking Will's words in. 

"I have to go but I'll come back later to check on you"

Will left and there was nothing more to do than wait, it was awful. Standing up again and breathing a few more times he exited the room and went to the wait room, there was one more thing to do. 

"Hey, man, I'm sorry" he said standing in front of Kelly "I just… I lose it when I saw her lying there. I know it wasn't your fault"

"I didn't know you were dating, she never said anything"

"I know" Connor said taking a seat next to him "She wanted to keep it all a secret. Could you… could you tell me what happened?" 

"We were on a big fire, two building, 10 stories each. A woman told (Y/N) her baby was in the ninth floor so we went up to get him, I asked her to take him out but she send me instead, said I was faster and I didn’t want to argue with her so I went. We met back at the 7th doing our primary search and we splitted to cover each 2 apartments, the fire was getting worse and when I was about to catch up to her I heard the sound of the ceiling collapsing, it fell on top of her so the rest of the squad and I rushed to take her out. She was just on the wrong place at the wrong time”

“Thanks, for taking care of her and bring her as fast as you could” 

Hours passed and you were still in the OR, the tension on the air was palpable and everyone was on edge, the whole firehouse already there waiting to hear news about your state.

Mrs. Goodwin quickly heard about the delicate situation so left Connor without duties for the rest of the day, he wasn’t in the right state to keep attending patients so he was as nervous as the rest, so when Ethan walked through the door of the wait room it was like a blessing. Everyone immediately stood up to approach him, Connor and Kelly right at the front more eager than anyone.

“She is still sedated” he said knowing they were her family “we put her shoulder back in place and she’ll have a cast for the next 6 weeks on her right leg, we were able to fix all damage and stop the internal bleeding but she’s still dealing with a couple broken ribs which will make a it a little harder to breath but she’s fine. We’ll have her under medical observation for the next couple 48 hours but you can go see her now”

“Go” Kelly told Connor “We’ll go after you” he added with everyone behind him nodding their heads.

“Thanks”

Once in your room it was a hard vision to watch, tubes and machine all connected to you but it all went away when he saw your eyes fluttered open.

“Hey, babe, I’m here, you are okay” he said grabbing your hand.

“Connor? What’s going on?”

“You had an accident but you are all fine now, the guys took good care of you. (Y/N), I… I’m just glad you are okay, for a moment I thought I would lose you and I wouldn't be able to tell you how much I love you” he whispered looking you in the eyes, tears once again forming in his eyes but this time it was all relief.

“Connor, babe, you are not going to lose me, not ever” you reassured him giving his hand a gentle squeeze. “Not when I love you so much too” you added blushing a little and a smile coming to your face “I wanted to tell you this for a while now and I was waiting till our trip to make the perfect moment, guess that’s out of question now”

“We just made our perfect moment, you and I and all the beeping of the hospital machines” he said making you laugh but quickly regretting it, your ribs making it difficult.

“That’s so not fair, it hurts” you said giving him a light punch to his arm.

“I love you though” he winked at you and send that cocky smile from earlier this morning, the memory feeling so far from where you were now.

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