Chastra Week | Day 5: Discovery
âItâs funny,â Astra says. âI barely know what Earthâs like and now Iâm stuck on Jupiter.â
The bartender, green- Martian? Seems to ignore her, and she recognizes the situation for what it is.
âI lived in Hell, you know,â Astra says. âHumans- Earthlings, I guess- We have a Hell and we have a-â She points up. âThis place reminds me of Hell.â
Itâs not meant as an insult. An old movie had once taught Astra that thereâs no place like home, and Hell is home. And if you stick her in any seedy little bar with a seedy little crowd, sheâll blend right in.
Alien liquor might be a mistake. It hasnât stopped her from drinking. âIâm looking for someone,â Astra says, pulling Charlieâs photo up on her phone. Most extraterrestrials sheâs encountered are surprisingly nonplussed by the iPhone, so she knows thatâs not why the bar tender isnât paying attention.
If this were her bar, sheâd have the Martian by the neck, pinned to the wall. But itâs not her bar, itâs not her hell, itâs not even her planet.
âThis is my partner,â Astra says. âCharlie. You might have seen her with a blonde woman?â
The fuck is cleaning glasses. Astra is drinking out of one of the barâs glasses right now, and she can attest theyâve never actually been really cleaned.
âHey!â she says, pounding her fist on the bar. âBig and stupid!â
That gets the bartenderâs attention, and Astra replies with an old fallback, her familiar wolfish grin.
âThatâs right,â she says, voice low with anger. âYou. Iâm looking for my partner. Have you seen her?â
The bartender finally gives the image on Astraâs phone a cursory glance, and then shakes their head.
Astra responds to this with a sort of sneer, running her tongue along her molars. âOkay,â Astra says. âThatâs fair. How much?â
The bartender tilts their head.
âHow much for information?â Astra asks. âWhat do you take as payment? Favors? Theft? Hits? Iâm flexible.â
âI donât understand,â the bartender says, and Astra almost startles at the sound of their voice. Not because she hasnât been able to understand anyone- sheâd swallowed that little translator pill when this mess had started, but because the bartender hadnât seemed at all like the speaking kind.
âWhat donât you understand?â she asks.
âI havenât seen your lover,â they say. âWhy would I ask you for anything else?â
Astraâs face feels hot. âI said partner.â
âThatâs what I said,â the bartender says. âLover.â
Okay. Imperfect translator. Understood. âWell that sucks shit,â Astra says. She pinches the bridge of her nose. âCharlieâs not even supposed to be here. She wanted to leave and then they got like, the fucking Captain, and maybe I thought it would be good to bring her back, just because it had happened so quickly, maybe I shouldâve let her go?â She looks at the Bartender and wishes heâd give her something. Even empathy. âMaybe I wanted her back too much. Now they got her, too.â
âWhoâs they?â the Bartender asks.
Astra presses her finger to the screen of her phone, against Charlieâs cheek. âI was hoping youâd tell me,â she says. âTheyâre picking us off. First Sara. Then Nate. Now Charlie.â
âGo back to Earth,â the Bartender says. âGo back to what you know and protect yourself.â
Astra shakes her head. âThereâs no point,â Astra says. âWithout Charlie, thereâs no point.â She looks up, hoping they canât read the surprise on her face, at her own words. âI mean. I just got back to the surface, but I donât want to even⌠do anything. Until I can do it with Charlie. Does that make sense?â
No response. The bartender seems to be considering the glasses again.
âAnd now Iâm stuck here, by the way,â Astra says. âWith no way to contact my ship and no idea where I am, besides Jupiter.â She wants to stop talking, but she also doesnât. She wants to throw it up. âJohn says Iâve just replaced getting my mom back with finding Charlie but- I didnât love my mom like I love⌠like Charlie. Itâs completely different.â She checks the photo on her phone again, to make sure Charlie is still the same, unchanged. Not a trick. Not an illusion. âWhy do I keep doing this?â
She realizes the bartender has slipped out, leaving her to stare at the items behind the counter, another new thing to study that will lead her nowhere.
âLove,â Astra answers herself. âEvery time Iâve pushed my boundaries, itâs for love.â Some of the bottles have creatures inside them, another familiar, hellish feature of the place. âItâs stupid,â Astra says. âItâs stupid of me to keep looking for love in the biggest, most dangerous places.â
One of the bottles seems to bubble and fizz and she sighs.
âNot like Iâd do anything else,â she says, and puts her phone back into her coat.