#ch 299

javier literally a couple paragraphs earlier:

Even if I fight to the best of my abilities, I would only last five minutes. That would be the limit of his endurance. This was the second time he received this kind of feeling. I had a similar thought when I first encountered Dragon King Berkis. But this dragon seems slightly weaker than Berkis. Master Lloyd might have some time to run if Draggy and I fight against him with every bit of our strenght. Javier made his resolution as he calmed his nerves.

there is,,, so much going on here,,,

lloyd's worst case scenario being javier dying. not all of them dying that's bad for sure but javier dying? actual worst thing that can happen. not all of them. just javier.

everyone dying? terrible, should be avoided at all costs, 0/10 would no recommend. javier dying? worst ending possible, literally cannot imagine a world without him on it, the universe would break and also he just. doesn't want that to happen. never. not for lloyd. not at all.

and him being so sure that of course javier doesn't want that either. so sure javier must think like lloyd as well.

when we know for a fact that javier's skinny ass was fully making plans to sacrifice himself in order to give lloyd a few minutes to run away licherally a few seconds ago. full on dramatic protagonist about it. totally planning on going to his inevitable death in case it could help lloyd stay alive.

That'd be the worst possible outcome. Javier dying was the absolute worst thing that could happen.

So uh 

Pac-they/them

I’m out of the hospital! I was released a little while ago and needed time off to get things in order and prepare for the rest of my treatment. Saying a lot of stuff is going on is an obvious understatement so I’m going to cut to the chase. We made it, but I’m still counting it as a loss. I don’t have a boss right now so right now I think it’s time to be clear. We’re going to get the bottom of this. Nothing like this should have ever happened, and I don’t want it ever happening again. I know you guys want my opinion on Endeavor and on Dabi, and all I can give you is my story since Dabi also accused me of being a copy of my father, a man I lost early in my childhood. Right now I don’t want my words to be taken the wrong way so I am focusing on actions. To solve the problems. I don’t need to list them all here. Not only have I been saving the messages I’ve been using to speak since losing my voice, I’m salvaging my recordings and tracking data from my infiltration of the League as well as my prior communication with the HPSC. I want to be transparent about this case and we need raw honesty instead of the secrets and skewed stories working together to instill fear in others. It’s not gonna be easy but I want to show more of myself without it being swallowed up in publicity. I’ve shown my true colors in some places. But long story short, I want to do better. I wish Jin didn’t die. I’ve been thinking about him all day, every day. I lost my best friend and I hate what happened. My plan was to immobilize him and carry him to the hospital, away from the war. Everything happened so fast and I hate myself for what happened.  There’s a lot of other things I need to sort out, but that’s going to take time, just like growing the wings back. Still my signature speed, except I have a new signature. For now, call me Walks. Okay, pun aside, it works. I’m gonna be walking everywhere for a while, and this is something I’m gonna have to walk through and many of us can walk together. Be patient with me.