#hawks update

I’m out of the hospital! I was released a little while ago and needed time off to get things in order and prepare for the rest of my treatment. Saying a lot of stuff is going on is an obvious understatement so I’m going to cut to the chase. We made it, but I’m still counting it as a loss. I don’t have a boss right now so right now I think it’s time to be clear. We’re going to get the bottom of this. Nothing like this should have ever happened, and I don’t want it ever happening again. I know you guys want my opinion on Endeavor and on Dabi, and all I can give you is my story since Dabi also accused me of being a copy of my father, a man I lost early in my childhood. Right now I don’t want my words to be taken the wrong way so I am focusing on actions. To solve the problems. I don’t need to list them all here. Not only have I been saving the messages I’ve been using to speak since losing my voice, I’m salvaging my recordings and tracking data from my infiltration of the League as well as my prior communication with the HPSC. I want to be transparent about this case and we need raw honesty instead of the secrets and skewed stories working together to instill fear in others. It’s not gonna be easy but I want to show more of myself without it being swallowed up in publicity. I’ve shown my true colors in some places. But long story short, I want to do better. I wish Jin didn’t die. I’ve been thinking about him all day, every day. I lost my best friend and I hate what happened. My plan was to immobilize him and carry him to the hospital, away from the war. Everything happened so fast and I hate myself for what happened.  There’s a lot of other things I need to sort out, but that’s going to take time, just like growing the wings back. Still my signature speed, except I have a new signature. For now, call me Walks. Okay, pun aside, it works. I’m gonna be walking everywhere for a while, and this is something I’m gonna have to walk through and many of us can walk together. Be patient with me.

It represents everything that happened, and that we support you no matter what!!! I know a lot of people call you “morally gray” but I think you’re just on a different level of morality. You have your own set of values even if they don’t align with society or the expectations you’re made to fulfill. You’re just caught in the middle and feel like you have no choice. You can relate to everyone in some way, but in the same token, you’re the misfit. It’s kinda got your color scheme! You’re the gold stripe in the middle that’s under all the pressure.

uuhhh okay i think that’s all bye bye Get well soon Hawks, I miss you! <3