#cdd fictive

If we put together a discord server for introjects sourced from books, would folks be interested in that? We have a few fictives who are sourced from novels and who have literally never seen sourcemates at all. It seems like many systems have introjects from TV shows and movies, but introjects from books seem less common. So I was thinking it might be neat to put together something for the folks sourced from books.

This server would be welcoming to all origins.

The server would not allow syscourse. We don't need that negativity here.

It would be welcoming of introjects sourced from any book, fiction or nonfiction.

I would probably look for another person/system to moderate because I'm not sure we'd be able to handle it all ourself.

If you would be interested in joining a server like this, please interact with this post. I do want to put this together, I just don't want to do it if no one would be interested.

i'm so fucking scared to open up about myself to friends because of being a fictive of a character they know. like if i say "hi im levi" they will know. i don't want to change my name, because that's just masking again. but i'm honestly embarrassed of being an introject of a popular anime guy and i don't want people to treat me in any weird ways because of that. i just wanna be a guy like any other person, ya kno?

i'm so exhausted by having to mask. i'd wish i was able to say "sorry, we switched, it's levi" and they'd know me and understand the changes in personality that i still struggle with hiding. i would be able to concentrate on being present in the conversation instead of using all my focus on acting like i'm someone else and trying to remember who that person is exactly. i would finally be able to just relax and be myself and it would be okay

maybe one day. but for now, we still struggle with even talking about me in therapy (i'm really nervous about it). our therapist knows and has apparently noticed me (oof i thought i masked better than that), yet i'm still fucking terrified of being seen. i guess that's more common in cdd than not

god, i rant so much. but if anyone reads this, i hope it might help you in some way - even if it's just my personal rambles. i think a lot of alters - not only introjects - can relate to this. or maybe it helps you understand alters who feel similar to me. maybe you're a singlet, maybe you're an alter who doesn't feel this way and struggle to understand the other alters in your system who feel like this