Like, I formed back before Jax was confirmed to be transfem. Changed a bit from then to now (mostly because I was more a fragment back then), but I only really seem to have gotten further from "acceptable". My gender is weird in which sometimes in headspace I'm perceived as transmasc and sometimes sorta cis? Idk. That's not important.

Unfortunately transfem Jax content makes me uncomfortable (no, I don't hate transfem Jax, it just makes me dysphoric/feel weird). Yes I blocked the tag. Also not quite what this post is about, why the fuck am I rambling? Once again the hosts need to over explain is rubbing off on my posts. *sighs*

What I am trying to say is I would be considered "wrong" in most fandom spaces. If I want to interact with fandom (because I'm self centered and love fan art of myself), I can't find really any content that feels like me anymore. (I swear if someone takes this as me hating transfem jax I will lose my mind. She's a trans woman in Canon which is good for her). Hell, I'd love to find transmasc content (I know, crucify me), but even stuff before my source was confirmed to be transfem is impossible to find transmasc stuff of because even back then transmasc jax was viewed as "wrong." Hell, some got harassed over it from what I've seen. And definitely now there won't be any because obviously turning a trans woman into transmasc is pretty distasteful in fandom spaces. (I swear once again do not misinterpret this post).

And I don't feel like having to justify interacting with "wrong" content because I'm a fictive. I don't feel like outing myself like that and I don't feel like dealing with that mess. Etc etc whatever. Is my point getting across at all?

For fuck sakes this post is a mess. I'm still posting it fuck it.

Anyways the summary of this post is: It sucks being a fictive of a popular source because fandom fucking sucks. And it specially sucks when you're "wrong."

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Makes my gay little stimboard that pisses you off

(Made by/for a fictive, but ok to tag as kin/id or self ship)

Call me Sophie. I'm a Sophie Walten fictive (I also go by Sophia, but there's no pressure to call me anything but Sophie. Nicknames like Soap/Soapie and Soph are mostly reserved for friends). I'm 22 years old, bodily an adult, but please refrain from being weird anyway.

I'm AuDHD, and serve as a depression, OCD, and apathy holder for my system.

I consider myself analogender, transmasculine and girlfluid as well as pansexual. I use she/they (and maybe he) pronouns. Ask me how I feel about "he" at any given time.

I like Five Nights at Freddy's, The Walten Files, Petscop, animatronics, vintage stuff, analog horror, and old video games. I do quite enjoy talking about my source.

I use tone indicators (mainly /gen, /j, /srs, and /lh), and emoticons like :0, :], :[, :|, :/, and :V. I can be a little unenthusiastic in how I type, but I try to be clear that I'm not disinterested or being passive aggressive.

I will block radfems, exclusionists, racists, Trump supporters, antisemites, islamophobes, ableists, queerphobes, eating disorder/self harm accounts, fakeclaimers, zionists, and radqueers on sight.

I block others at my own discretion.

Graphics found here