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KEVIN IS TRYING TO LET ME AND THE OTHERS FRONT MORE OFTEN, AND THE EMOTIONS ARE FUCKING INSANE

THEY'RE STRONGER WHILE IM FRONTING, AND KEVIN HAS MADE US TAKE AN ANTIANXIETY TO HELP CALM ME DOWN

everythign was going fine, then earl just HAD to fuck everything up!!!!! APPARENTLY earl had this idea that th ings were going to go “horribly wrong” and chased maro down while they were trying to meet up with me (and were doing PERFECTLY WELL),,,, maro was crossing the river on the shitty little footbridge thing which we ALL SHOULD KNOW doesn’t takem ore than one person at a time, and earl tried to physically stop maro to keep them from com ing to the meeting spot, like a COMPELTE FUCKING IDIOT,, so i tried to have maro get earl off said shitty footbridge so that it would be safe for maro to pass through and earl started to grapple with maro and OF COURSE through off the balance of the bridge!!!!! and they both went into the river, because of course they did, because obviously we can’t have a single thing happening and going according to plan on this absurd campus at this ridiculous school, and maro nearly drowned because they were on painkillers and drowsy and had a HEAVY FUCKING BOOT ON DID YOU STOP TO CONSIDER THAT, EARL, BEFORE YOU DECIDED A FIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF A RICKETY BRIDGE WAS A GOOD IDEA, and i heard maro screaming so i ran down to the stream and saw what had happened and i dragged maro out and grabbed their phone from their pocket

which of course didn’t go very well because i was rushing to call the paramedics before the phone got too waterlogged to work and i forgot to put on my gloves because i  wasn’t  thinking at all and i just managed to call them when the phone fucking EXPLODED because OH WAIT I’M NOT HUMAN and it was a huge fucking mess and my hands hurt even worse now because the iron burns werent healed and not there are regular burns on top of that and i can’t heal it because the iron fucked iwth my healing shit

and the paramedics came and they got earl out even though earl didn’t fucking deserve it because its all her fault for her awful decision-making skills nad hero-complex which has NEVER STOPPED ANYBODY FROM GETTING HURT EVER and good job earl you just make maro go to the fucking infirmary hope youre happy and you owe maro so fucking much and youd better make it up to them or i’ll fucking mAKE you make it up to them because you tried to help but you just made things sosososos much worse, just like you did with cola, you always think you can help but you never can fuck you fuck you fuckyou

and now im just sitting in the infirmary room and watching maro and people had to do cpr on them because they breathed in so much water and apparently they’re going to be fine but what if they’re not

and i can barely see hteir chest moving up and down and i’m so worried and all i wanted was to make things right between maro adn me but that backfired just like evrything else ive tried to do and they have to be ok they have to i cant lose another person just wake up maro please please please

fuck you earl this is all your fault 

im just going to stay here in the infirmary until maro wakes up i’m so nervous i don’t want them to hate me

theres lots of iron here