#blurian system

It sort of makes sense when we're hydraconscious and blurian, but we're not all the same person either. We're more multiple than median.

(Every time I say "you" here, I'm referring to my headmates btw)

So yes, it's not that weird when we have memory sharing available in our collectives, but you guys are still your own headmates.

Why are some of you missing exs that you never have personally met, or old friends that we can't reconnect with? I can agree that older memories can still affect other headmates emotionally, it's just that some of you are longing for people you've never made a connection with.

Like hello. News Flash. You've never met Samantha, this isn't your memory. Quit it. /lh

(seriously though wtf is wrong with people… just because you don’t have trauma doesn’t make you any less valid!!! plurality is SO diverse and unique for each system, they aren’t all the same. same rhetoric as transmeds and anti xenogenders…) -🌿🪲

To the Blurians: your lack of amnesia barriers does not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, amnesia barriers are not origin dependent; you can be traumagenic without amnesia, and you can have amnesia as an endo. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.

Blurian systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the privilege of remembering and the ease of communication, its also the burden of confusion and lack of quiet. Not knowing who's memories are whos, struggling to keep straight who likes what, frequent switching, inconsistencies, and constantly blurry front. Ignorance really is bliss, but unfortunately, you don't have such luxuries. And when you try to get some alone time to think, but you have to question which thoughts are even yours... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.

We see you. You are real. You are loved.

To the Medians: All the things your headmates have in common do not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, they do not disqualify you from your origin. There is no requirement that traumagenic or fictive-heavy systems be a random assortment of characters. Nor is there any requirement that endogenic systems have any sort of deliberate order to them. Whether you have a host identity or not, your origin is still valid regardless. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.

Median systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the unity and connection with the rest of the system, it's also the confused/unknown front, struggling to find your individual identity, trying to force individuality on yourself just to feel like you're real... Frequent switching can also be a problem here, as the lines between the alters are thinner. Doing things the same way as your headmates, sharing common interests, having the same opinions and emotions... These are all very human things to do, especially with people you hold so close. And still, it becomes so easy to doubt yourself, so hard to find yourself, and in the end they will claim that you are just pretending to suffer through these confusing feelings... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.

We see you. You are real. You are loved.

i know this isn't technically therianposting but i'm putting it here because it also kind of is because liiiikeeee

i've always said shit like "sometimes i feel like a whole bunch of different people in one body but i don't have DID and i don't have amnesia so i guess i'm not"

turns out non-DID systems are very real and cool and also blurian and median systems exist so liiiike

i've just been asking myself to create a paradigm for how my multiple therian identities work, like for example, being a border collie and an alien jellyfish. like am i a polymorph, are these cameo shifts, am i some kind of chimera? but honestly it sometimes feels like. maybe the separate theriotypes are alternate versions of myself?? that just kinda go active or dormant based on like. a mix of specific stimuli and also just luck. idk metaphors about multiple sides of a coin or facets on a diamond make sense go me, like there is a Me made up of Me's

i don't know what, if at all, my headspace is or looks like, and i. talk to myself a lot but idk if talk to my other, i guess you could say facets, headmates doesn't feel right but facets does.

i just learned about pluralpedia and spent maybe 30 minutes in the median system tag but othewise i'm SUPER clueless as to how to find research material and resources and discussions, does anyone wanna point me in the direction of blogs, websites, or other resources you think would be helpful to a potentially blurian median system who is still figuring stuff out? (also if there are certain resources i should probably stay away from)

hope you all enjoy, and feel free to use any of these for yourself; we don’t mind :3

-🪲🌿

putting it under the cut because holy crap it’s a lot

however, the unique part about us that we haven't really seen is that we get what we like to call "memory airdrops" or "info airdrops" because if someone comes into front confused about a situation we're in the middle of, the previous member fronting can just say "HERE'S THE SUMMARY OF EVENTS TAKE IT" and they'll usually understand what's happening. The info airdrops are moreso for new members. We thankfully have really only had one member enter front panicked and confused due to a lack of no info airdrop (and also, he likely had just experienced death in it's source memories so .) but that's really it. It helps us out a lot with our functioning, but we still know that we're pretty fuckin disordered because of the fact that we have an absurd amount of fragments of members floating around somewhere, waiting to latch onto a full identity of something.

That's another thing !! (SORRY FOR THE RAMBLING BTW IM JUST WRITING OUT MY THOUGHTS LMAO) we are EXTREMELY fictive heavy. like . one brainmade out of the like . 30 ish people we know are here. and that's a fragment of a fragment of a fragment of a fragment of our first host ever. and whooooo boy is hx having a lovely time. Most of our fragments latch onto an identity fully usually when we desperately need someone to be able to support us. Usually we attach to a fictional character so . Yayyyyy. Recently we've been gaining a lot of mood boosters because good lord we need them. UH ANYWAYS YAP OVER HOPEFULLY LMAO ANDJFHRJDJ

Our sys which is partially traumagenic is also low on amnesiac barriers and we share the generalized memory, I think you'd like the term blurian from pluralpedia!

But yeah, we mostly get emotional amnesia among our alters. Though, sometimes forgetting the emotions leads to us not remembering much of what happened in the past (it leaves out context and sometimes triggering details).

Not so sure about the memory airdrops thought, but that makes a lot of sense to me. I think our memory feels like it's being hosted by a server or stored in a computer's hard-drive. Or it's like an endless library of files. Either way a lot of us have access to memories.

We're fictive heavy too, so is the other moderator (the organism). Any alters that might sound like brainmades are probably OCs though. We got 60+ at the moment, most being fragments.

I really liked reading your experiences!! Hope others can connect with this just as much as I related to this!