#baywrites

I’ve been laying in my bed With my eyes closed

and my mind open.

Listening to these thoughts Drift in and out like the ocean.

I’ve been Choking on self doubt,

Cutting myself open.

How come I’m always left hoping?

I’m spilling my guts

tell me you aren’t joking?

If this is love then why isnt it showing?

If this is love why isn’t it growing?

Tell me it’s because I’m not enough of a man

For you to love I’ll understand.

I’ve always reached for stars and played in sand.

when I was with you I felt like Peter Pan.

But I guess kids grow, and boys turn into men.

That’s how life goes, what starts must come to end.

I fear finding love is like finding neverland. Only kids know when it’s really in their hands.

Only kids know?

That sounds like a big joke

I miss the simple days When I used to skip rocks and jump rope.

I had high hopes.

until I hit deep slopes.

I thought by my age I would have a woman in my scopes.

But the truth is all I have is hope.

I treat women like queens

And get passed on like a note.

My hearts broke,

But atleast I have my mind,

Memories take me back

to the better times

I know I’ll find

Who I’m meant to be one day.

I know I ’ll find love.

I know I’ll be okay.

I just get caught up

In every moment every day.

I just get brought down

When people do me this way.

So if it’s not goodbye

Then it’s good riddance

I’m through with you like I am

With this sentence.

A couple years felt like

A couple minutes.

I loved you until

We are just damaged reflections of our innocence

Struggling to comprehend our lack of conscience

In a world that promotes sadistic tendencies

Burning as we bathe in poison, but we never leave.

We are exactly what we swore to never be

Blinded by arrogance, we are crushed by our own debris.

We are the black thumb of existence

Striving to live up to our own hypocritic definitions

Failing to see our immoral decisions

Haunted by the reverberation of our own derision,

We cling to all that’s left of our sanity and soul

Walking like zombies, unaware of our role

Hunting for mutual prey to artificially make us feel whole,

Bad things happen when kids grow old.

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~ Bay and Madeline.

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A beautiful collaboration with the insanely talented and awesome @baywrites !

Strength is force

But knowledge is power.

You can’t have braun

Without brain

Or you will get devoured.

Thoughts grow men

Similar to how water

Blooms a flower.

Insight is a light

that shines brighter

Than the sun

That warms our scars.

Knowledge is power.

A fight isn’t always won

By strength of arm.

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Heart will go a mile

But a strong arm

Will stop it’s beat.

You need Yin, Yang,

Crazy and sane,

If you want to make

It on the street.

There’s been many

Nations fall

And many more to rise

But a lack of balance

Has always led To

I was raised to stand my ground.

Never stray to far

from where I was found.

To know when I’m walking a thin line,

To catch myself from falling down.

I was raised by a man

To be a better one than him.

Taught how to love by my momma,

Grandpa showed me all I had to give .

I spent days driving down backroads

Listening to rock and roll.

I spent nights on my knees by my bed

Because I knew where my praises go.

I lived life like a Tom Petty song

Free falling in and out of love,

Bouncing around,

until I found where I belonged.

I was raised to know

Right from wrong.

To know the difference

Between scripture and a song.

I was raised to know love

When it came along,

The arguments loud

I thought it never would end

You're strumming

On my heart strings,

Dancing with

my trust.

Flirting with

My future.

Daring me

To love.

You're Pushing

Me to fall for you.

Tempting me

To stay.

You're doing

everything right.

It's me that's

Afraid to say.

If I fall

For you,

Will you fall

With me.

I'll give

My all

For you,

To be your

Everything.

If I lose myself

To your light.

Could you

Find Yourself

In My eyes.

I need you

To be

The rock

By my side.

I'll be your

Compass,

If you'll be

My guide.

If I love

All of you,

Will you love

The height of my walls

Seem irrelevant now.

Your voice cries innocence,

Like it echoed

From the heavens.

The disapproval

In your eyes

Is enough to bring

My life to the ground.

I keep digging depth

Into my soul

Hoping to find an apology

For what I’ve done.

For the road

I’ve led myself down.

I’m left only with pockets

Stitched by regret.

And excuses molded