#balloonkin

Name(s): Ren, Zargo, Aggro, 2T Fru-T, Ash

Gender: I don't identify with any, but a I relate to a lot of labels under the non binary umbrella

.Been an otherkin for the majority of my life but didn't discover the label(s) for it until 2 years ago

.Most of my kintypes are fictional characters because I have a tendency to feel a spiritual+emotional connection to characters due to either their relatability or other reasons

Kintypes:

.Celestial being/space creature - Spacekin

.Bat - Animalkin

.The concept and appearance of beaches - Conceptkin

.Balloon+Pooltoy furry - Objectkin

.Cat - Animalkin

Fictional kintypes:

. 2T Fru-T (Butt Ugly Martians) - Alienkin

. Aggro Vertreuse (Oc) - Spacekin

. Sammy (The Brothers Grunt) - Gruntkin

. Max (Sam and Max) - Fictionkin

.Eevee (Pokemon) - Animalkin/Fictionkin

.Ash Firin and The Warden (Superjail!) - Fictionkin

.Kablamus/Joe Blow (The Mask Animated Series) - Balloonkin/Fictionkin

.Candy Caramella (Space Goofs) - Alienkin

.All four of the main characters from League of Super Evil - Fictionkin

.Bubble (TADC) - Objectkin

. Hatsune Miku (Vocaloid) - Fictionkin

(List may get updated at random , some bits of text is coloured for the sake of it being more readable+just pure whimsy lolz)

What do you do when you suspect that you might have a kintype of something you've got a phobia of?

Recently I figured that I could be Balloonkin , and I'm worried. I feel like trying to embrace it but at the same time I want to get as far away from it as much as possible.

Soft, squishy stimboard for Balloon (Inanimate Insanity)!

Im supposed to look like me, not this stranger staring back at me. Because That isnt me. I dont look like that.

The only thing connecting this vessel and i are the false sensory inputs into my non-existent skin.

Im supposed to be metallic i think, maybe a robot, i dont know, all i know is that this body isnt mine and id love to give it back to its original owner.

And sometimes i imagine waking up as them. I imagine being back in that universe. But i cant, no matter how many fanfics are written or how many things i find to cope, it will never be enough to fill the pit of dread i feel when I remember that this isnt fiction. Im stuck here, no way to go back. I dont even have any kin mems and i feel crushing pain knowing ill never see those people i cared so much for again. Ill never get to say sorry, ill never get to right things. God im so fucking sorry.

And i feel stupid. Because these characters arent real, but i so desperately want to go back to them, talk to them, apologize, just let them know that im sorry, that i miss them.

And maybe that crushing dread is whats keeping me going. Because maybe one day ill wake up back there, being myself, even though that will never happen, no matter how many times i tell myself “its not real, you cant go back” and i cry, i still hope, knowing it will go nowhere.

And to all those struggling with this too, my best wishes to you, whether you want the longing to stop, or you too want to go back, best of luck, just- dont hurt yourself, people care about you.

-balloon

-Balloon 🎈

I’m not doing good at all :(

-Balloon 🎈

Long story short im rewatching ii now, seeing if this is a hyperfixation or if ill have some “eurethra!” Moment and figure this shit out, i dont wanna say “oh im fictionkin with/ of (insert character)” then realized im not and to have lied on some level to the people around me.

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