#robots cw

Im biograft from phighting sighs

i lowkey hatemy creator

I'm finally going to be talking about my love interest

So I have an unexpected love interest. I knew about her probably since I formed, but yes nobody would have expected it. She isn't from my region, she isn't in my games, we have no actual canon interactions. But I met her on my 'end of the world' tour and fell for her. She had quirks, so much so that some people in the fandom theorize that she's a robot because of the way she speaks and things she says. But she was never a robot, I'm sure of it in canon too, not just my canon. She use to be a scientist before she joined team Magma. She was always smart, she was just different. Speech patterns...they were rather robotic sounding but I found it kind of charming. I don't know where our relationship went, if it was anything more then me having a crush. But I was very interested in her and it kind of made me a nervous wreck around her sometimes. I wasn't use to romantic feelings. I've had fans, admirers, people ask me out, but I'd always politely reject them. For the most part I just wasn't interested, I mainly just wanted friends. But this girl she really made me want more and I couldn't tell you why. She was very pretty, she was very smart, I kind of always tried to 'interfere' with Team Magma's plans in a way, or just insert myself into whatever they were doing to talk to her. I found their secret base by accident too at some point. That was interesting. Since I was crossing paths with Team Magma so much I also somewhat befriended May and Brandon since they were trying to stop their plans. And Team Aqua but I don't really know what was going on with them seeing as my main focus wasn't them. It was getting to know that girl.

I'm being vague though, I might as well name drop her. Courtney, it's Courtney. Specifically ORAS Courtney, it was the ORAS universe. Not the original Ruby and Sapphire Courtney who MIGHT'VE been 17(or at least was at a beta phase in the manga I think??) But I know ORAS Courtney isn't, of course Google will try and tell you she was but you can't always trust that. Her age on the Bulbapedia is officially listed as unknown anyways. Courtney certainly isn't a minor, my Courtney isn't. Maybe in her 20s if anything. I don't know what her exact age was seeing as I didn't ask. But it wasn't like I was 40. Maybe early 30s at most during these events, but I believe I was in my late twenties? Honestly I don't know the exact age of myself either. But I miss Courtney. I don't remember what happend with her during the events of X&Y, I don't remember if I somehow got her to come with me. But I know I certainly wanted to if I didn't. I may have been very far gone by the time we met but I still had emotions and I still felt something for her and wanted to save her. The ultimate weapon was meant to wipe out EVERYBODY. Not even other regions would be safe from my world reset. It was a very powerful weapon. There was a reason it was able to end a whole war in the past. It was meant to be world ending. I'd like to see Courtney again but with ORAS not really on people's mind anymore, I have my doubts that it'll happen, at least anytime soon. Even if it's not the Courtney I knew which I'm almost positive it won't be, it doesn't exactly matter. Any ORAS Courtney would do. I'm not expecting to find my own. She's the only person I'd ever consider a romantic relationship with.

Courtney was so pretty, I loved her purple hair and eyes, the team magma outfit looked so good on her, she looks so good in red, which is my favorite color. She's very special to me. The fact she use to be a scientist is so just...I love that! I love her. She's just so incredible. She's great. I can honestly go on and on about her, but I probably shouldn't so I'll cut it here. Courtney is amazing and I love her dearly. I'm sure some people will find this weird but it doesn't really matter to me. I can't control my memories, and I'm happy with this one.

-Lysandre fictive (Pokemon)

-APC (#ockin)

Ripping myself out from the ‘perfect picture’- as Soul likes to call it. Forcing a physical split.

I remember being free. Not having to carry an extra person’s mental health on top of my own.

I don’t care about Soul. I don’t care about Heart. I don’t care about Whole. The hatred I have for them would rot anyone’s mind.

I am not Mind. I called myself Helios. Even after I made myself robot, even after I met him, I was Helios. And he accepted me as Helios. He was the only one I felt safe with.

I mean, at that time everyone else was dead[Nuclear War, happened after I shut myself down and before I was powered back up].

If my Heart, Soul, or Whole is reading this…

No you aren’t. I’m not a mind, I’m a Helios.

- Subspace T. Mine 🩷✨