#ayokona

kasi hindi mo dapat winawasak yung taong mahal mo.

From the way I keep on doing things out of good will to that point where I get taken for granted. Sometimes I feel like I also need to be shown the same level of willingness - not that I want something in return but just to feel the validation. I just realized that being good can also be draining when your surrounding seems to sip all of the juices left from your energy bar that what is left of you is the feeling of emptiness. It is tiring to be torned between trying to be considerate to let all your sentiments slowly die in silence and to try to release all your emotions by starting an argument. I can't find the thin line between the two because either of them is tiring. Does it make any sense? To feel both opposites as tiring and less of an option? I don't know what to feel anymore. It seems that whatever I do and choose, it will only left me feeling tired.

Wala nang atrasan ito.

One of those bitter nights. Naisipan kong maging ampalaya.