i give too much i give too much of myself to everyone i overthink i overgive i over love and i wake up feeling like in order for anyone to stay in my life i have to be strong i have be perfect i have to comfort i have to satisfy them otherwise theyll leave me and what a terrible thing for someone to walk out of your life because the little girl inside of you screams why am i not enough. what is so wrong with me that you can’t stand to stick around. tell me please and i’ll fix it. tell me what to be in order for you to stay and i’ll be that for you. ok? okay.. please just tell me how. and i wake from another nightmare about you. open my eyes and realize ive betrayed myself for someone who only wants me for one thing and sees me as nothing else. i should’ve never done that to myself. it’s not worth it. it’s not worth hurting yourself. you make me nauseous. violate me you make me sick. youre sorry you didn’t mean to. but i just wonder
what’s wrong with me? why didn’t you just listen when i told you not to. when i asked you to stop you did it anyways. it didn’t matter that i didnt want it. and because you felt guilty and because you were sorry thats supposed to be enough? it’ll never be enough. i would never do that to you. that’s one of the many differences between us. sometimes you’re just lesser than. you’re immature. you don’t know.
