#dysregulated

Baby blues spilling over

Spelling phonetically

Metaphorically

Phantasmagorically

Now there's a mouthful

Big words are worth more

Says the one keeping score

Who isn't keeping score these days?

Name your price and pray for rain

Pray for the pain to wash away

Down the drain with soap bubbles

Loving is never in vain

As long as it isn't a feigned facade

Feelings in a rush can numb

Tumble out into nothing

Into something too big for words

And the birds sing on anyway

Whether the sky be blue or gray

Whether the wound be fresh

One of the most common nervous system patterns I see in clients, children and parents, is a kind of behavioural frozenness. You want to tidy up, start dinner, send that email, or help your child with their routine, but instead, you find yourself stuck, scrolling mindlessly, zoning out, or just unable to act, even though you know exactly what needs to be done. This isn’t laziness or lack of motivation, it’s a sign of nervous system overload. When we are dysregulated, the brain can’t easily shift between intention and action. We freeze, not just emotionally, but behaviourally. That’s why support for the whole family’s nervous systems matters. When we bring safety and movement back into the body, those frozen gears start to turn again.

On exercise bike

On tumblr

Watching Gilmore Girls

Listening to the radio my dad blasts from the other room… and dancing along while I pedal.

i recognize i'm dysregulated though, because i've been really fatigued all day and have difficulty concentrating; in general, i've gotten better at my DBT How skills (one mindfully, non-judgement, effectiveness) but today, when i wasn't sleeping, i'm easily distracted; i couldn't pay attention to virtual church, didn't read, and when i'm watching a show i'm also scrolling through social media. i don't like that, which i guess is a good sign-feeling uncomfortable w/ depersonalization as opposed to it being the norm.