#attachment disorder

Children and adults with DID live with simultaneously active multiple self-states which, unlike the everyday occurrence of multiple self-states that we all experience, are separate from each other. Different fragments of experience are each assigned to a different sense of self with its own way of thinking and behaving and with its own unique memories. DID can be regarded both as an attachment disorder and as a post-traumatic stress occurrence. Much of the way that we think about DID is derived from research into post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Professor Peter Fonagy and others have shown that the most common aetiology for DID is a disorganised attachment followed by abuse at the hands of a caregiver (McQueen et al., Citation2009).

i'm still learning to be okay with being ficto. i still feel like i'm missing out on a part of the experience of life when i can't develop typical attachment. i still hate myself for having been put through enough traumatic experiences to develop an attachment disorder. i still feel like some sort of fuckup. i wish i could be satisfied being ficto, but i'll always mourn the loss of meaningful real relationships.

Attachment disorder so bad you just wanna thr0w up. But emetophobia so bad you would rather d!e than have to v0mit too 💀