i wish i could ask for or seek out comfort somehow but i don't really know what would work. i think i need someone to lay very hard on me for an extended period of time. intense cuddle session. but that requires having a real-world close friend or partner who is willing to do that with me.

"hi i want to feel like i'm not a completely worthless piece of shit and like someone could possibly love and value me unconditionally for an unlimited amount of time and i believe the best way to do that is for you to hug me very tight for possibly hours on end"

do not, my friends, become addicted to touching. it will take hold of you, and you will resent its absence.

it will take hold of me?🥺👉👈

japanese guy singing an absolute nonsense string of english words to some rhythmatic guitar and drums and i'm just like hell yeah this is peak music

i know japanese musicians in specific tend to use english words because they think it sounds cool and i agree. it does sound cool.