#lost friends

But i know it is even harder on the soul then most other things.

you lost the one person who knew you better than you yourself, who you could tell everything without fear. The one person you could just be you.

!!!Arts by KomaToZzz, and figures by me!!!

Eng: Addition to the previous post. I dug up a figurine of my friend's character from the Among Us Amino. His name was KomaToZzz.

Rus: Дополнение к прошлому посту. Я откопал в галерее фигурку персонажа своего друга из Among Us Amino. Его звали KomaToZzz.

Eng: At first, we met because I wanted to commission art of my two characters from him: the red one and the yellow one.

Rus: Сначала мы познакомились с ним на почве того, что я хотел заказать у него арт своих двух персонажей: красного и жёлтого.

Eng: But then we kept talking and got along really well :] Over time, he moved from Among Us Amino to Hollow Knight Amino, and I was mostly there too at the time because Among Us was losing popularity and its themed community was dying quickly.

Rus: Но потом мы продолжили общение и хорошо поладили :] Со временем он перешёл из Among Us Amino в Hollow Knight Amino, впрочем я тоже в то время в основном сидел там из-за того, что Among Us терял популярность и его тематическое сообщество быстро умирало.

Eng: One day I suggested we make matching profile pictures with his character and mine, and he agreed. Koma drew this:

Rus: Однажды я предложил ему сделать нам парные аватарки с его персонажем и моим и он согласился. Koma нарисовал это:

Eng: He drew so beautifully :'>

Rus: Как же он красиво рисовал :'>

Eng: He even congratulated me on my birthday and gave me a drawing.

Rus: Он даже поздравил меня с днём рождения и подарил рисунок.

Eng: But one day he just stopped logging in. I wrote to him, hoping he would show up. He never replied. I don't know what happened to him, but I hope he's okay. If by some miracle anyone knows this artist and has any of his contacts, I would be immensely grateful if you could share them with me. I really want to talk to him again, or at least make sure he's doing alright.

Rus: Но в один день он просто перестал заходить в сеть. Я писал ему, в надежде, что он объявится. Он не отвечал. Я не знаю, что с ним случилось, но надеюсь, что с ним все хорошо. Если кто-нибудь каким-то чудом знает этого художника и имеет какие-то его контакты, я был бы безмерно благодарен, если бы вы мне их дали. Я очень хочу с ним пообщаться вновь или хотя бы убедиться, что с ним все хорошо.

I made a dream about you, a cinematic one. We were on my bedroom's balcony and I could see us from the side, sitting on our usual chairs late at night waiting for the sun to rise, just like we used to do. We were smoking even if we don't and sipping white wine, your favourite. We were talking but I couldn't hear our conversation and everything was blurry and in slow motion. When the sun arrived you disapperd, I searched for you in my bedroom but I couldn't find you and I thought it was only a dream I made because of the alchohol I drunk. I went to my bed and before closing my eyes I sent you a message about my "dream". Then I woke up again, really this time, in a world where you really left me and all of the times we were toghether are just lost memories.

I wonder if you ever miss me like i do.

This was the song that played repeatedly in my mind while you were in my dream.

I had an online friend for almost a year and one day he just vanished. turned off all his social media accounts, told me he was planning on eloping due to the scare that gay marriage would be overturned a few days prior to the silence, and I never heard from him again.

all the accounts I followed him on (even Spotify!) have had no activity since. I hate to think this, but I’ve come to believe the worst. His phone number has been disconnected. I last heard from him on December 30th, 2024.

I miss you, Martin. wherever you are. hope you are alive and well and if not I hope you found peace.