#emetophobia

“birth” of elli

she’s just a lil girl…. penis shaped (ty for whoever said that it made me laugh)

Maybe Simon is actually from the same universe as Grace but set 200 years in the future, somehow sent back in time by that flash of light, or maybe Grace just theorizes that but doesn’t have anyway to test(/disprove) that theory given the resources they have on the Hail Mary/Erid.

Maybe one day, Grace comes home from teaching a class on Erid, and his students had been asking him questions that day about the Petrova line and Astrophange, except their questions are about what it was instead of what it is, and it had Grace thinking about his old students on earth. He’s thinking about the anxiety, the confusion and fear his earth students faced as opposed to the relief and joy his Erid students are growing up with, he remembers in bits and pieces the conversations he had with Stratt about her studies in history and how she knew that if they didn’t act quickly that the bloodiest parts would repeat themselves. And then he looks up to see Simon tending to the plants in their habitat, carefully grown from the plants sent on the Hail Mary

And then he thinks about Simon’s past, the parts he eventually willingly shared. He thinks about the boy watching the corpses of the last of the stars burn out. He thinks of the children on Eden who said goodbye forever to the planet they were born on, tossed into an oppressive system of bloodshed and destruction, growing into angry, desperate adults.

He thinks about his old students tossing beanbags around the room, asking him how afraid they should be. He thinks about running blindly to Stratt, demanding she keep him on the project to study the astrophange, his students being all the motivation he needed. He thinks about Stratt, trembling with her own grief but refuses to back down as she tells him he does not have a choice, that there’s too much at stake. And he thinks about how he ran from that responsibility

He thinks about how desperately he wanted to live

And he thinks about Simon quietly confessing to him one night, Simon shaking and choking back tears because he’s never been allowed to cry like Grace, that all he wanted was to live, too

It hits him that Simon could easily be the great grandson of one of his students, that Simon’s trauma - Eden, trying to keep the last tree alive because it’s all they have left, being stripped of his autonomy time and time again under the name of Survival - is the direct result of what would have happened if Grace had gotten away. If Stratt hadn’t betrayed him. And even if Simon isn’t actually from the same universe as Grace, even if he’s from a parallel dimension or another planetary system with similar evolution to Grace’s, his story is still something that could happen to someone else in Grace’s timeline. Grace knows very well how many people would have suffered and died without him, but he feels like he’s suddenly confronted with the worst possible outcome of his cowardice.

And then Grace just. Collapses. Nearly vomits at the thought. He sits there apologizing over and over to a confused and terrified Simon, and Simon has no idea what to do

An Ode To Disabled Donnie... The Collection

Here's the full collection of An Ode To Disabled Donnie plus an honorary aditional memeber "A Funny Feeling" aka a fic i wrote on AO3 before starting this series because disabled donnie consumes me

This drawing series was so much fun; i love art as a medium of exploration, i love exploring disability as a theme, and i love rise donnie, so this was a blast lol. Also the anthology has resonated with so many people, a lot of you felt conected to the artworks and many of you also said that it had changed your perception on some of these issues (that be the characters/show or disability as a concept) which im very happy for as well

Theres still a chance I pick this concept back up sometime in the future, but for now, this is the full collection of artworks :D