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“Leo you can’t pull aunt y/ns’ hair when I hold you,” I warn and he had the cutest giggle as he lets go. “Mama, mama!” He blubbers and I shake my head. “I’m not mama, I’m aunt y/n.” I remind him but my heart feels full to even be around a child, let alone my own nephew.

“Y/n I’m home, oh there’s a baby,” Ashton yells through the corridor but quiets down when he sees me on the couch with Leo. “My sister needed to get a lot of stuff done today and asked if I could watch Leo,” I explain and Ash comes closer. “Ash ash!” Leo trots over to Ashton and I deadpan.

How does Leo remember Ashton’s name but not mine? I’m his aunt, his blood. I feel so betrayed, well not really but this kid will learn my name by the end of the day.

“Leo! My little buddy.” Ash plops on the floor and Leo engulfs him in a hug. Ashton was giggling and so was Leo, Ashton kept giving him kisses all over Leo’s face. “Ash!” He yells in his baby voice, my heart was all giddy and tight.

Ash and I have been married for 2 years and we never explored having kids. He promised me that once the newest album was out and the tour was over, he was gonna be all about having a baby with me.

Seeing Ashton play so well with Leo made me sad in a way, I have always loved children. I have a huge family and seeing everyone with their children always made my heart hurt a little. I have never blamed Ashton’s career for me not getting that connection as a mother, and I would never blame him. That’s not my job to.

Sometimes in our lives, we have to decide when is the right time and I commend Ashton for holding off because he didn’t want me raising our child alone. It’s helped that my sister had Leo 18 months ago, I had time with a baby in my family that wasn’t just going to my 2nd cousin. Leo was my nephew and I felt like being an aunt was a higher title than a cousin.

It’s always the way that mothers have that immediate connection to their babies. Like if I am holding Leo and he’s all loving to me, but my sister could walk in and we wouldn’t matter anymore. The moment he sees his mom, it’s all her. That’s her son and he will always choose her. I just want that connection.

“Mama mama!” Leo comes running back to me, taking me out of my thoughts, and I grin a little when he collides with my legs. “Baby boy, I am not your mama, I’m Y/n,” I say again for the second time today. “Eat. Eat.” He chants and I pick him up in my arms. “Let’s see what we have in the kitchen, Leo.” I walk into the kitchen and I hear Ashton follow. “Here I’ll take him as you look around,” Ash suggests and takes him out of my arms, putting him on the counter softly.

I pull the yogurt out the fridge, grabbing one of the CapriSuns that Ashton still buys for himself. I grab the smallest spoon and stick the straw inside the drink. Leo starts clapping and giggling in excitement, I open the strawberry yogurt and dip the spoon in. He opens his mouth voluntarily and I feed him it. Ashton holds the drink out for him once Leo swallowed the yogurt.

That cycle continued until the yogurt was half empty and Leo was obviously full. “Let’s go watch some Paw Patrol,” I say and guide Leo off the countertop, he runs as fast as he can towards the living room with his short little legs.

He tries to get on the couch but he didn’t have the height to. Ashton sits down and lifts him up beside him, but Leo climbs onto Ashton’s lap. I turn on the tv and find Paw Patrol, then situate myself beside Ash, he wraps his arm around me.

I start to flutter my eyes close, I’ve been so exhausted from just the past 4 hours that he’s been here. I’m just glad Ashton finally came home so I could catch a break. Just as I felt myself doze off, a smell hit me like a truck.

I have been around babies my whole life and I know exactly how shit smells like from a tiny human. I check the back of his diaper and of course, I was right. “Okay Leo, let’s get our diaper changed,” I say and Leo whines a little, he’s always hated this part. I start to get up but Ashton pushes me back a little. “I’ve got this, I’ve seen Calum do it to Mason. I’ve got this in the bag.” He reassures and stands up with Leo, grabbing his diaper bag off the loveseat.

I hear Ashton cooing at Leo and I can only imagine that Ashton is making faces at him, only because I could hear the loudest giggles ever. “Isn’t uncle Ashton the best! I’m the best, aren’t I?” I hear Ashton’s baby voice. “Ash Ash!” I hear Leo shout.

Ashton settles back down beside me, we all get in the same position but this time Leo is laying on Ashton’s chest. “30-minute power nap?” Ashton asks and I nod frantically.

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“Aren’t you the cutest baby, aren’t you?” Ashton’s voice wakes me up. “You are gonna be the cutest cousin to my little baby, you can protect the baby. Then, we can have sleepovers with you, Mason, Michaels’s little baby Leah. Hopefully, Luke has a little baby too and it’ll be a whole 5sos party with you included.” I hear him ramble and Leo just laughs at his toys, having no idea what was going on.

Ashton starts to trot the little-stuffed panda bear closer to Leo. “Panda is gonna get you!” Ashton says as he gets closer with it. “Ah, He got you!” He tried to stay as quiet as he could, Leo erupts with laughter. “No!” He yells and Ashton makes the shushing sound. “Aunt Y/n is sleeping, we don’t want to wake her. She’s a big bad bear when she wakes up. Shhhh.” Ashton whispers and I roll my eyes, but he’s right.

My mind goes back to Ashton mentioning having his own baby, it made me want to smile but I didn’t want Ashton knowing I was awake. I would love to have a baby with him and I know that the last music festival they’re playing at is like 3 weeks from now.

I try to imagine our baby girl having his soft curls, my eyes but Ashton’s nose. I hope to god that she would have Ashton’s laugh. She’d have his dirty blonde hair and maybe the color of my hair included. If it was a boy, I can only imagine him being an exact copy of Ashton, just a miniature version.

The knocking on the door ‘wakes’ me up from my sleep. “I got it,” I say and roll off the couch, when I open the door I see my sister. “Hey, come in. He’s had his nap and ate some yogurt for lunch. He’s probably due for another meal.” I say as we both walk towards the living room. Leo was helping Ashton put his toys back inside the diaper bag. “Good job helping uncle Ashton, buddy,” Ashton says as he hugs him gently.

“C’mon baby, say goodbye and give kisses to uncle Ashton and aunt Y/n.” My sister says and Leo runs back to Ashton. Leo covers Ashton’s face with kisses, yelling bye and saying ‘Ash Ash.’ Leo runs to me and I squat down, he does the same thing with the kisses. “Bye-bye, aunt Y/n.” He tries to pronounce my name and my eyes widen. “He finally said it!” I cheer and my sister gives me a look. “He says your name all the time at home, it’s always when he sees the picture of us 3 at my wedding.” My sister admits and I grin... that little brat.

“Bye guys, be careful going home,” I say as Ash and I walk with them towards the door. Once they leave, Ash and I walk back into the living room, collapsing beside each other. We both sigh loudly.

I change the channel to Ghost Adventures and I listen to a ‘ghost’ screaming in one of the buildings they’re in. “I want one,” Ashton says and I turn my head to him. “A ghost?” I ask in a confused voice. “No, a baby. I want one with you right now.” He boldly confirms and I smile.

“Well, you know you can’t just get one right this moment,” I say jokingly and he rolls his eyes playfully. “Yes, but we can always try right now. My last festival is in 3 weeks, but for a while, I will be all yours.” He suggests and starts kissing my neck. I push him off a little and look into his eyes.

“Ash, this is serious. I don’t want to have a baby right now if you’re going to just to have to leave soon after I give birth. I would never want to hold you back from your career.” I was being serious and I see his eyes soften. “Baby, you’re my wife and giving me our child will never hold me back. Family will always come before music, you know this. Calum had Mason and Mikey had Leah, they both took time off and we all obliged. They will do the same for us.” He says and my heart feels giddy again.

“Let’s have a baby,” I say and his eyes widen. “Let’s have a baby?” He repeats and I nod quickly.

Ashton: 

“You’re so beautiful.” He whispers brushing a strand of hair out of your face so he could look at you properly. You smile and cover your face with your blankets to hide the evident blush on your cheeks.

“Where’d you go?” He giggles, his hand softly dragging against your skin under the sheets. You curl into his chest only to squeal and push him away when his hand brushes your side.

“What was that?” He exclaims sitting up in the bed to stare at you in confusion. You only giggle lightly in response and roll over so your back is facing him. ,”Oh my god, are you ticklish?” He questions scooting closer to you.

“No.” You mumble, pulling the blankets tighter around you.

“So you won’t mind if I just..-” He cuts himself off by digging his fingers into your sides making you squeal and flail trying to get him to stop.

“Stop! Oh my gosh stop. I can’t breathe!” You shout laughing hysterically as his fingers dance up and down your sides. You desperately try to push his larger body off of yours while he just laughs at your antics. He stops tickling you and stares at you breathlessly for a minute.

“Give me a kiss and I’ll stop.” He states playfully laughing at the childish glare you shot at him after he said it. 

“Fine! Fine, come here.” You yell when his fingers drag across your sides tauntingly. You shove his hands away from your sides before pushing yourself onto your elbows and pressing your lips to his. His hands move down to your waist and jokingly squeeze your sides making you pull away quickly.

SHIT I WANT THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME MORE THAN ANYTHING UGHBF MY ASHTON FEELS FUCK 

OK so I think how this would play out would start with You and Ashton both being super excited because he was finally home from tour and you wanted to stay up all night and cuddle basically so around 3 In the morning he decided that staying there in bed wasn’t going to get you anywhere sleepwise so he would ask If you wanted to go to the beach and of course you would said yes! So he grabs a big blanket and you walk hand and hand down the shore line to the beach letting the water splash your feet and when it got chilly he would wrap you in his flannel and pull you into his side omg and then when you got to a good spot he would pull you up to the sand and sit down with you between his legs and he would wrap the big blanket around you both and you would look up at the stars together until you were so tired he almost had to carry you home

STOP IT MY ASHTON FEELS ACTUALLY HURT AND THIS IS GOING TO MAKE THEM WORSE. 

OK SO SHIT ASHTON WOULD BE SOOOOO JEALOUS IF HE SAW YOU WITH ANOTHER GUY. Ashton would be super protective of you like not in a creepy way just like if one of the other boys got too friendly with you he would give them like a death stare and clench his fists and jaw and walk over to you and like wrap his arms around you and whisper in your ear “You’re mine. Always.” and You would make sure he knew that you loved him more than anyone and he would relax a bit and whenever you were in public with other guys he would walk by you really really protectively so everyone knew that you were taken and if some guy started to hit on you he would like probably like come over and make himself look really strong like flexing or something lol and he would be like “I love you so much babe.” Idk he would just be super jealous of other guys.