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“Leo you can’t pull aunt y/ns’ hair when I hold you,” I warn and he had the cutest giggle as he lets go. “Mama, mama!” He blubbers and I shake my head. “I’m not mama, I’m aunt y/n.” I remind him but my heart feels full to even be around a child, let alone my own nephew.

“Y/n I’m home, oh there’s a baby,” Ashton yells through the corridor but quiets down when he sees me on the couch with Leo. “My sister needed to get a lot of stuff done today and asked if I could watch Leo,” I explain and Ash comes closer. “Ash ash!” Leo trots over to Ashton and I deadpan.

How does Leo remember Ashton’s name but not mine? I’m his aunt, his blood. I feel so betrayed, well not really but this kid will learn my name by the end of the day.

“Leo! My little buddy.” Ash plops on the floor and Leo engulfs him in a hug. Ashton was giggling and so was Leo, Ashton kept giving him kisses all over Leo’s face. “Ash!” He yells in his baby voice, my heart was all giddy and tight.

Ash and I have been married for 2 years and we never explored having kids. He promised me that once the newest album was out and the tour was over, he was gonna be all about having a baby with me.

Seeing Ashton play so well with Leo made me sad in a way, I have always loved children. I have a huge family and seeing everyone with their children always made my heart hurt a little. I have never blamed Ashton’s career for me not getting that connection as a mother, and I would never blame him. That’s not my job to.

Sometimes in our lives, we have to decide when is the right time and I commend Ashton for holding off because he didn’t want me raising our child alone. It’s helped that my sister had Leo 18 months ago, I had time with a baby in my family that wasn’t just going to my 2nd cousin. Leo was my nephew and I felt like being an aunt was a higher title than a cousin.

It’s always the way that mothers have that immediate connection to their babies. Like if I am holding Leo and he’s all loving to me, but my sister could walk in and we wouldn’t matter anymore. The moment he sees his mom, it’s all her. That’s her son and he will always choose her. I just want that connection.

“Mama mama!” Leo comes running back to me, taking me out of my thoughts, and I grin a little when he collides with my legs. “Baby boy, I am not your mama, I’m Y/n,” I say again for the second time today. “Eat. Eat.” He chants and I pick him up in my arms. “Let’s see what we have in the kitchen, Leo.” I walk into the kitchen and I hear Ashton follow. “Here I’ll take him as you look around,” Ash suggests and takes him out of my arms, putting him on the counter softly.

I pull the yogurt out the fridge, grabbing one of the CapriSuns that Ashton still buys for himself. I grab the smallest spoon and stick the straw inside the drink. Leo starts clapping and giggling in excitement, I open the strawberry yogurt and dip the spoon in. He opens his mouth voluntarily and I feed him it. Ashton holds the drink out for him once Leo swallowed the yogurt.

That cycle continued until the yogurt was half empty and Leo was obviously full. “Let’s go watch some Paw Patrol,” I say and guide Leo off the countertop, he runs as fast as he can towards the living room with his short little legs.

He tries to get on the couch but he didn’t have the height to. Ashton sits down and lifts him up beside him, but Leo climbs onto Ashton’s lap. I turn on the tv and find Paw Patrol, then situate myself beside Ash, he wraps his arm around me.

I start to flutter my eyes close, I’ve been so exhausted from just the past 4 hours that he’s been here. I’m just glad Ashton finally came home so I could catch a break. Just as I felt myself doze off, a smell hit me like a truck.

I have been around babies my whole life and I know exactly how shit smells like from a tiny human. I check the back of his diaper and of course, I was right. “Okay Leo, let’s get our diaper changed,” I say and Leo whines a little, he’s always hated this part. I start to get up but Ashton pushes me back a little. “I’ve got this, I’ve seen Calum do it to Mason. I’ve got this in the bag.” He reassures and stands up with Leo, grabbing his diaper bag off the loveseat.

I hear Ashton cooing at Leo and I can only imagine that Ashton is making faces at him, only because I could hear the loudest giggles ever. “Isn’t uncle Ashton the best! I’m the best, aren’t I?” I hear Ashton’s baby voice. “Ash Ash!” I hear Leo shout.

Ashton settles back down beside me, we all get in the same position but this time Leo is laying on Ashton’s chest. “30-minute power nap?” Ashton asks and I nod frantically.

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“Aren’t you the cutest baby, aren’t you?” Ashton’s voice wakes me up. “You are gonna be the cutest cousin to my little baby, you can protect the baby. Then, we can have sleepovers with you, Mason, Michaels’s little baby Leah. Hopefully, Luke has a little baby too and it’ll be a whole 5sos party with you included.” I hear him ramble and Leo just laughs at his toys, having no idea what was going on.

Ashton starts to trot the little-stuffed panda bear closer to Leo. “Panda is gonna get you!” Ashton says as he gets closer with it. “Ah, He got you!” He tried to stay as quiet as he could, Leo erupts with laughter. “No!” He yells and Ashton makes the shushing sound. “Aunt Y/n is sleeping, we don’t want to wake her. She’s a big bad bear when she wakes up. Shhhh.” Ashton whispers and I roll my eyes, but he’s right.

My mind goes back to Ashton mentioning having his own baby, it made me want to smile but I didn’t want Ashton knowing I was awake. I would love to have a baby with him and I know that the last music festival they’re playing at is like 3 weeks from now.

I try to imagine our baby girl having his soft curls, my eyes but Ashton’s nose. I hope to god that she would have Ashton’s laugh. She’d have his dirty blonde hair and maybe the color of my hair included. If it was a boy, I can only imagine him being an exact copy of Ashton, just a miniature version.

The knocking on the door ‘wakes’ me up from my sleep. “I got it,” I say and roll off the couch, when I open the door I see my sister. “Hey, come in. He’s had his nap and ate some yogurt for lunch. He’s probably due for another meal.” I say as we both walk towards the living room. Leo was helping Ashton put his toys back inside the diaper bag. “Good job helping uncle Ashton, buddy,” Ashton says as he hugs him gently.

“C’mon baby, say goodbye and give kisses to uncle Ashton and aunt Y/n.” My sister says and Leo runs back to Ashton. Leo covers Ashton’s face with kisses, yelling bye and saying ‘Ash Ash.’ Leo runs to me and I squat down, he does the same thing with the kisses. “Bye-bye, aunt Y/n.” He tries to pronounce my name and my eyes widen. “He finally said it!” I cheer and my sister gives me a look. “He says your name all the time at home, it’s always when he sees the picture of us 3 at my wedding.” My sister admits and I grin... that little brat.

“Bye guys, be careful going home,” I say as Ash and I walk with them towards the door. Once they leave, Ash and I walk back into the living room, collapsing beside each other. We both sigh loudly.

I change the channel to Ghost Adventures and I listen to a ‘ghost’ screaming in one of the buildings they’re in. “I want one,” Ashton says and I turn my head to him. “A ghost?” I ask in a confused voice. “No, a baby. I want one with you right now.” He boldly confirms and I smile.

“Well, you know you can’t just get one right this moment,” I say jokingly and he rolls his eyes playfully. “Yes, but we can always try right now. My last festival is in 3 weeks, but for a while, I will be all yours.” He suggests and starts kissing my neck. I push him off a little and look into his eyes.

“Ash, this is serious. I don’t want to have a baby right now if you’re going to just to have to leave soon after I give birth. I would never want to hold you back from your career.” I was being serious and I see his eyes soften. “Baby, you’re my wife and giving me our child will never hold me back. Family will always come before music, you know this. Calum had Mason and Mikey had Leah, they both took time off and we all obliged. They will do the same for us.” He says and my heart feels giddy again.

“Let’s have a baby,” I say and his eyes widen. “Let’s have a baby?” He repeats and I nod quickly.

I can't tell you how difficult it's been to find this song online, and upload this gif I made. This imagine is darkly beautiful, enjoy this read - DI ♥

Your eyes slowly opened to see a familiar ceiling. Wood paneled separate in division, and posters plastered onto the walls. Smiling a little you realized you were in Ashton's bed room. 

Ashton was your boyfriend, still is kind of....He died in a car accident with some of his friends last May; the driver was crashed on drugs and alcohol. To this day you want to stomp on his grave for bringing the love of your life along with him.

With confusion, you sat up and saw that you were dressed only in your black lingerie. Wanting to see if anyone else was home- the second you moved another muscle the bathroom door swung open.

Your heart froze with fear when you saw nobody there- as if it were a ghost. ''Hey there beautiful- now where do you think you're going?'', you felt his cold words hit against your skin beside you. 

Quickly turning to the voice, you met the beautiful hazel eyes you never thought you'd see again. ''Ashton.'', your voice breathless- this was unbelievable- ''You're dead.''

Shaking his head, Ashton slowly hovered over your body and took your hand to place it on his chest. His heart was beating normally, like he was actually here in this moment.

''You're joking right-'', your words got cut off when Ashton's lips crashed into yours. Caught in surprise you melted and went along with the ride.

Skating his hands up and down your sides, Ashton's soft skin would brush against yours. His passionate kisses would turn to his lips moving against your neck.

He was making you go crazy, and every time you tried to speak his lips would prevent it from happening. Bringing you more than satisfaction, and heavenly delight, Ashton crawled back beside you, where he admired your face-''I love you, remember that.''

Nodding you grinned, pecking his cheek- ''I'll always love you Ashton.'' Cuddling for a few minutes, Ashton's alarm clock suddenly went off. Hitting it, you realized it was past two, and you had plans for the day.

Getting up and running down the stairs, Ashton became heartbroken-''Where are you GOING? STAY.'', he grabbed your wrist when your hand went on the door knob. ''I thought you loved me.'', his hazel eyes darkened as he stared at you.

You were confused with his harsh actions, it was like he was somebody else. ''You've dreamed about this Y/N, about you and I...together...finally like this. I gave you what you wanted so now you give me mine. Let's be together forever...you can't leave.'', he laughed a little as if it were a deal.

''Ashton...I-'', you hesitated as your fingers unlocked the door- ''I have to go.'', you opened the door. Ashton screamed no, but with a centimeter open, his existence faded away.

Shutting the door again, tears fell from your eyes instantly- ''Ashton! Ashton, baby where are you? I'm sorry.'', running up and down the stairs to the rooms you found that it was empty.

Falling to the floor you cried and cried, until the door opened again to a woman, and her son. Their eyes widened- ''WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY HOUSE?!''

Your mind became lost, everything didn't make sense- ''What do you mean, Irwins they live here.''

Dragging you out of their home, the woman shook her head- ''We moved in months ago lady. Now get off of our property.'', she then slammed the door.

Slowly walking to the sidewalk with tears, you became weak with regret and sadness. ''You should have listened darling.'', Ashton's voice told you before your eyes widened when you saw two cars crash into another. 

Waiting outside for a few minutes, you couldn't help but turn red with the thought of Ashton. You're new in town, but the moment you saw Ashton, he's locked you against him. 

Crazy is what you've turned to for him; you both are only friends but you've had the thought of what it'd feel like to kiss him. Feel his lips against yours, and hands along your skin. Magic is what you imagined, but maybe tonight you'd really find out.

Blurry lights flashed from a distance and the closer it got, you recognized Ashton's car. Seeing that nobody was in the back seat, you realized it was only going to be you and him, alone.

Getting out of the car when it shifted to a stop on your curb, Ashton held the door out for you. Smiling, you sat in the passenger seat, with a racing heart.

Dialogue was short but funny, you both caught yourselves giggling after every sentence. Staring outside the window, you tried not to look into his pretty hazel eyes. They made your insides melt; and you didn't want to make it look obvious.

''So- just know you don't have to stick around...for me...'', Ashton spoke with a grin, when he stopped the car infront of the building.

Your eyebrows furrowed, laughing- ''What is that suppose to mean? Ashton Irwin, I'm sure and take pride knowing I have no interest in you whatsoever.''

Leaning towards you, your breath hitched and you tried to stay calm- ''Okay...'' Nodding with the same approval, you both got out and went inside.

Your promise and statement wasn't exactly true though. Your eyes couldn't stop staring at Ashton, and his wouldn't stop looking at you.

It felt like a magnetic field in the middle of you two; but the feeling of being shy and hesitant, held it back from happening.

Suddenly an upbeat song came on, and you and Ashton both walked to the dance floor. Instead of together, you and Ashton created this jealousy as you both danced with other people. Eyes still glared onto you, and onto his.

Others noticed, and decided to push you both together. Standing infront of Ashton, you giggled underneath your breath, but he kept quiet, looking hypnotized as his eyes rose to yours.

Ashton's head rested against yours, and everything around you became dark- the sound, a muted ring. Hesitating to press his lips against yours, his breath was already uneven, and the beat of his heart wasn't balanced. Feeling the same, you brushed your fingertips against his cheek, pecking his cheek instead.

Reality quickly settled in, and you couldn't help but smirk when Ashton was now the one making it obvious- oh how the tables have turned. 

Walking to the front doors to leave, Ashton was right behind you- ''What's wrong?'', he asked.

Inhaling the night air, you continued to go to the car- ''I needed some air, and plus- I'm kind of getting tired of this place..''

Following your choices, Ashton unlocked the doors, sat in the front and drove to his place. Shifting to a stop, the light flashed red, and Ashton glanced at you from time to time- ''Maybe we..can watch a movie...or something- whatever you want to do.'' 

You suddenly admired his way of being nervous around you- it was cute. ''Okay...'', you agreed, playfully moving your hand away when he was about to hold it.

Hearing his short sigh, Ashton's fingertips madly tapped against his wheel. Turning the corner and going through a couple of streets, you both reached his house.

Before you even reached for the door, Ashton was outside to open it for you. Blushing again, you rolled your eyes with this stupid way he made you feel. You entered his quiet, empty home and walked into the living room with Ashton.

It was so quiet that you both laughed. ''You're so beautiful Y/N.'', Ashton accidently blurted out when he stared at you smile.

Not knowing what to say, you just thanked him and told him that you were going to use the bathroom. Giving you little directions, Ashton went with you up the stairs.

Standing infront of the door, you turned around and gently grasped onto Ashton's collar- ''Just know you don't have to stick around...for me..''

He chuckled with your clever ways of mocking himself- ''What is that suppose to mean?'', he leaned towards you again, and this time something clicked.

Loosing your words of what to say, your hands slowly locked together around Ashton's neck. ''I like you Ashton.'' Waiting for a response, Ashton laughed a little- ''Really?'', he moved closer to you; the space between your lips becoming shorter- ''I didn't notice.''

You had enough of joking, you badly wanted Ashton- and this long wait has been frustrating. Your lips collided into Ashton's, and seconds later your insides melted sweetly.

Your breath hitched; lungs active as your heart was about to explode. Ashton's hands wrapped around your waist, and yours traveled to his wavy hair- messily brushing through it. His mouth tasted heavenly as the kiss continued in lovely harmony. 

Whoa another Marianas Trench song for part two? Um yes haha :-) I hope you all enjoy this second part, if you haven't read the first part then click on this heart- ♥ - DI 

The door slammed open and my voice was a little louder and harsher than I meant it to be. I had no control over my words but one thing that I did know was that I was pouring my heart out, and it felt amazing.

Y/n's boyfriend tried to defend Y/n, but he also looked confused- and with my fists in the air he knew who was going to win this fight. Mumbling something to Y/n, he was out the door, and left. 

Tears rushed down her cheeks as she was on the floor looking away from me.

''How could you? How dare you just walk away from me, never say a word to me?'', I asked her throwing whatever was in my reach on the floor.

Standing, Y/n looked lost for words but after a few minutes of nothing but silence and eye contact her cracked voice struggled to yell- ''We're over, you ended it months and months ago when you left town!''

Taking her hand, and wiping away her tears, I tried my hardest of holding back mines- ''I missed you Y/n, I couldn't wait to see you today but you just avoided me like I was invisible. Like what we had wasn't real.''

Turning her back on me, and opening her closet, I watched her pull out everything I gave her, including the necklace with our names engraved on it.

''Here! Take it Ashton- you told me this would be forever. You and I...but you left and now I can't trust anybody....But with my new boyfriend I'm happier.'', she paused to look away from my face- ''I'm happier...'', she repeated but I knew she was lying to herself.

My hands gently went on her jaw to turn her to me again- ''I still love you.''

Before Y/n could say anything else, her father pulled me out of the room- ''I think it's time for you to go back home..'', was all that he could say. My heart tore into shreds, knowing I had lost everything. ''NO- I'm not done talking to him!'', Y/n screamed behind us all. I bit into my bottom lip, when I felt the tears run down my skin.

Quickly walking down the stairs and to the front door, I tried my hardest of thinking of bright things..things that would make this situation seem better than what it is. The only thing that came into my mind though was Y/n, I hate how she could do this to me.

At least the rain outside could wash away my tears.

YOUR POV:

''Daddy why'd you do that?'', you asked him crying. Running to your window you watched Ashton walking away; his shadow following him underneath the lampshades. 

Turning to you, he looked disappointed- ''Y/n...'' he shook his head sighing- ''One minute I hear yelling and ruckus upstairs, and now you want me to go get him back? I have no idea what happened during the summer between you and that guy, but it's final. He's bad for you Y/n..I've seen the changes in you lately, you can never speak to him ever again, and he can never come to this house.'', he then turned back around to go finish watching the foot ball game.

Your brother's mouth dropped- ''Dad that's my best friend.''

''Find a new one.'', was the last thing you could hear your father say before walking into your room. 

Sliding down against the door you cried and cried and you felt pathetic. You needed Ashton, you wanted him and you couldn't believe he still loved you, but you still loved him.

You watched every minute and hour change on your clock and when it turned eleven you were out your window. Your heart was racing when you had to jump down the roofs. 

Running down your street you turned to corner and followed Ashton's footprints. You were lucky to see that he stepped in mud on accident, now you knew where he was going.

It was alley ways and blocks, different neighborhoods and before you knew it you were in the city.

Seeing someone infront of you across the street, you walked faster to him. As you got closer and closer you recognized Ashton.

Taking his hand, you turned him around and pressed your lips on his. You could feel Ashton hesitate to kiss back; not knowing who this was. But when you locked your arms around his neck and ruffled your fingers through his hair, the thought of you snapped.

Holding you closely against him, Ashton's deeply, passionately kissed you; and this seemed to heal everything.

The rain drops fell in between your lips, and Ashton let go just to check if it was you. Smiling, Ashton then stopped- ''I'm sorry..'', he placed his hands on your cheeks.

Sighing you looked down then back into his hazel eyes- ''I'm sorry...Lately I- I haven't been happy...I've always known you're the only one that can bring me that feeling...happiness...''

''So we're back together?'', Ashton grinned at you.