#ardat

Here we are again! maybe today I'll only watch one episode though, because I'm tired and I had a shitty day so I deserve to not suffer through two bad episodes

It took me one month, less than 30 days, to watch seasons 1-13

I watched 13 seasons

in one month

and it's been a month since then (almost, it'll be a month on the 12th) and I haven't been able to get through the two shortest seasons (if we don't count the author strike of s03)

anyways

*****

The flashbacks make me want to stop this and go watch something else

but we shall persevere!

I'm really glad I stopped watching when I did at the first episode of season 10, because if I had to wait a full week for this? I'd be fucking pissed

*****

they're under the dome, like in King's story

or in Harry Potter

well Rowena, that's a pessimistic outlook!

"we're all going to die" true

I like Sam and Dean's conversation through the eyes

"Give her your alcohol."

"I don't have any."

"Don't lie to me, I know you've got a flask."

"It's MY flask."

"Come on, give it to her."

"Argh, fine. Fuck."

*****

Cas talking with Belphegor is actually pretty interesting, give us more of that!

*****

some thoughts:

nevermind, I don't have time to think about anything because Belphegor my Beloved has an idea, with Lilith's crook, they can suck them all back to Hell

and now it's the vulvus spell! of course

I have seen the bloopers of this scene so many times

*****

I profoundly hate how the show turned into "here is a nonsense problem that has never happened before and no one should technically know how to fix it. oh, vut no! this one new mystical character --- nevermind that, Dean just decided Cas would go?! without asking?!

Dean what the fuck

*****

Wow Ketch sacrificed himself to save the Winchesters

maybe it's out of guilt for fucking their mom

*****

Belphegor you little shit, you're so mean

the cgi is so. fucking. bad.

how dare they get budget and make me watch these godawful things

*****

Okay, I paused on the text that Dean sent to Ketch

"Cass and Bel are going to hell. Rowena and San are doing a spell--I'm working on the Hellhole solo."

???? none of that looks like a genuine Dean text

Bel? he calls this demon they just met Bel?? and why would Dean text that whole thing out with the entire plan to Ketch? no way. he'd definitely just text like, their location, and tell hin to get their asap and then they'd explain when he got there

Also, I cannot imagine Dean texting full words with proper grammar

this is just so completely wrong

anyways, I have spent five minutes looking at this bullshit text, time to unpause

*****

wow, those sound effects are so shite

Belphegor wanted Castiel there for a reason, and I don't know what it is, but I'm guessing it's bad, or at the very least, questiona-- OH COME ON! YOU CUT AWAY RIGHT BEFORE CAS STARTS SINGING?!

that's not nice

*****

Ardat showed up and hurt my Cas 😠😭

Ah, there it is

he wants to rule Hell

I mean, if it gets the ghosts and demons away from Earth? then great!

//welp just had to take a 1.5h break because of family things, so now I should already be asleep, but I'm going to finish the episode

*****

Okay so it didn't work, it didn't close the gate, and Cas is punching Belphegor repeatedly, and he HE BURNED THE BODY WTF

Rowena's cutting her own heart out?? what

oh no she removed her hex bag thing

and now she's going to absorb the ghosts and demons herself? because she somehow knows a spell for that, mhm

that tracks

🙄😑

*****

So, Rowena needed Sam to be with her because he's the only one who can kill her

because of prophecy or whatever

Dean's angry at Cas and I understand but like, BITCH he's doing his best, stop fucking treating Cas like an enemy

this season so far is making me unship Destiel, wow congrats whoever wrote this shit

*****

so you're telling me she sucked billions of souls inside of her and she's just chilling there next to them, not exploding?!

mhm, that tracks

🙄😑

*****

At least now we know all we've got is Team Free Will, so we should be able to see more of Cas than we did in the last two episodes

*****

oh are we back at the Bunker? yeah, we are

oh right, they didn't know about Ketch

*****

"Why does that something always seem to be you." fuck you Dean

what the fuck

who wrote this

go fuck yourself

go fuck yourself

Cas knows he's in love with Dean

Cas knows he's in love with Dean, and he knows it will never be reciprocated

And he has to suffer through this... this indescribable bullshit Dean's got going on

"I think it's time for me to move on"

after 12 years

12 years, and Lilith, and the apocalypse, Michael and Lucifer, Crowley, the Leviathans, the tablets and prophets and Metatron, the angels falling, the Mark of Cain, Dean becoming a demon, the Alphas, the British Men of Letters, the nyphilim and Lucifer again, Apocalypse World, Nick and Apocalyspe!Michael, fighting God

a lifetime

thousands, possibly millions or even billions years old entity, an angel, who broke God's scripts and invented free will because what's fate in the name of Dean Winchester

who fell from Heaven, betrayed his kind, defied archangels and demons and creatures of all sorts

"I think it's time for me to move on." but how could he?

what is Castiel, who is he, if not Dean's?

he doesn't belong anywhere, not anymore, not for a long time

but by Dean's

I wondered if there was any significance to the choice of name for this demon. She’d hired Ketch-- presumably as soon as Chuck cracked open Hell-- to kill Belphegor, telling him that Belphegor was “a monstrous threat to humanity.” She killed Ketch for his failure to end the threat, and then took matters into her own hands.

She used Ketch’s phone (a communication device) to learn everything that was going on with Belphegor and TFW, and then went directly to Hell to attempt to stop him from blowing that horn. She, of all the demons, fully believed that Belphegor drawing all that power into himself would achieve functionally the same result as Cas drawing Purgatory into himself. Belphegor saw his chance to manipulate an angel into handing him the weapon he needed to elevate himself to functional godhood, and Cas listened to Ardat and discovered the truth for himself before acting on it and stopping Belphegor.

I wondered why a demon would’ve been so willing to stop Belphegor, or to have presented her concerns to Ketch in this specific way-- specifically as a threat to HUMANITY. And not a threat to Hell or demons. I mean... she would’ve been one of the demons consumed by Belphegor if he’d been allowed to continue blowing the horn, and to secure Ketch’s contract she could’ve just... paid him in cash, because Ketch’s services were for sale and it’s not like he had moral quandaries about killing demons without a reason. And it’s not like Ardat had reservations about killing humans herself... so why present the dilemma to us this way in the first place?

In the bible, Ardat wasn’t a demon, but a place. Well, I say “in the bible” but the only mention I could find of it was in the apocryphal Book of Esdras, which is not considered part of the modern biblical canon, and was part of the 14 books removed from the Old Testament canon by the Vatican in 1684. (another of the books removed was “The Wisdom of Solomon,” which is an interesting read, considering how many Solomon references we’ve had in the last few years.)

Back to Ardat... the book in which the reference is made, this entire scene plays out on the field of Ardat:

https://www.biblestudytools.com/gnta/2-esdras/9.html

(and continues in 2 esdras 10, linked at the bottom of that page)