#apothiro

I'm autistic, apothiaroace, talk to objects, and am a furry.

I've worn a collar, talked to objects or "no one", held my phone a lot, danced a lot, even put a pride flag in my window, and this person doesn't act different, nor look at me any different, when or after - I seriously feel like they don't look at my outfit (except of course, when the weather was bad or windy or cold, in which case they either stared when I came back or glanced a lot of times), and they look at their co-workers happily and casually, while they just DEADPAN at me.

They also can get easily/quickly emotional instead of just casual/content, can't sit still, maybe walk a bit weirdly, have weird staring/glancing habits, have a very specific style or something, gesture with their hands while speaking, and other weird habits I have as well (except I don't gesture).

Also we never met.

They seem to, for whatever reason, not act like anything I do is sexual or romantic or anything ... and I mean, it IS true, but HOW DID THEY KNOW?!

Alright, the apothiro flag sucks, has no known meaning, and I've only seen like one good redesign, which didn't get much traction anyway. So I have a better idea.

"I don't feel love in any capacity"

Answers:

Life 1: Be able to make beautiful art, have a lovely spouse, adorable children, a funny pet, a great amount of money, a gorgeous house, chill friends, healthy garden, and generally that kind of life.

Life 2: Nice car, stylish clothes, pretty-looking self, a job that you enjoy, co-workers you like sometimes, a cool view of the outside, yummy and healthy food, and some random person you never met who keeps staring at you and even taking opportunities and whatnot to just be by the window they watch you from, and it's platonic and you might end up liking them too and staring back even though they're nervous around you, or something like that.

You don't need a lover, you don't need to like anyone's lover, you don't need to have sex, you don't need to "touch yourself", you don't need to love your body, you don't need to fake your personality to escape yourself, you don't need to dress revealing, you don't need to go on a date, you don't need a crush, you don't need to see anything sexual, you don't need to find people attractive, you don't need to listen to romantic songs, you don't need to see ships, you don't need to listen to unclean versions of songs,