#almost2years

When I think about you, my love

I think of your lovely baby giggles

I think of your toddler belly laugh 

I think of you mimicking me going “Hahaha” 

I think of rocking you to sleep every night I had you

How softly your eyes would close while we rocked back and forth

How tightly you held onto my shirt for the first 4 months of your life

As if you were scared if you didn’t hold on

Then I might slip away 

I remember the first time you gave me a slobbery baby kiss

It made my sing a million songs

When I think of you

655 days ago

I was the one hurting more than you

You had no idea that you would never see me again

You were only 13 months old

You were going to a good home

A stable home 

All day Every Day 

Not just when you were with me half the month

I knew these people are good

They adopted you

I am forever grateful to these complete strangers 

For taking care of you when your parents didn’t care enough to

But our story has come and gone

Within 393 days

 Of you being born

So when I think of you

I think of the galaxies in your blue eyes 

Another month where I’m showing symptoms. 

Spotting (I never have) 4 days before my period. It lasted 2 days, not even enough blood to fill a tampon. My period is now super freaking late. I’m having the worst cramps of my life. My PH is incredibly out of wack, but I have no infection etc.